Chapter 1.

They say what doesn't kill you makes you strong

That's lies and bullshit. They forgot to mention

The heart. Bad for my heart.

But what if it kills that heart that beat once?

What if that heart can never be the same?

Will that still make you strong.

I believe that will only make you suffer

That's why you have to move on.

Forget the past and forget fucking Knights.

My weakness and strength Damien knight.

Became my nightmare.

-Queensofsupreme (Charlotte) (Ps. This is shit I just made up.)

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Charlotte POV.

A year, One fucking year has past and there's no sign of Damien, the only guy I ever loved. I still love him. And only God, the same God that took my child away knows that. The only thing I would have of Damien would've been my baby, my baby who's no longer here. But now, I only have a fucking ring. A promise ring. He gave me the ring as a promise to love me and forever be mine but now, now where's he.

"Stop thinking about him char please char forget about him." Once again Sofia disturbs me from thinking about him. She always begs me. She pleads but I can't help it. I just hope one day I'll see him again. May one day, just one more day I see him again.

"I'm sorry Sofia, but don't you think life is so unfair ?" Life the one thing I always never thought would betray me. It's been three hundred and sixty-five days since I last saw my Damien knight. And it's the day I also lost my baby, Emma or Elliot knight. Saying that name already makes me smile because Damien would've killed me. He would've never wanted any of his son called Elliot. He always wanted to name them demon so they could be strong. But I know deep down he himself isn't even close to strong. His soft. Too soft for a mafia man.

"Char, no one ever said life would be fair. We just have to accept it." Sofia said while taking a seat. She's a good woman, she may be a year or so older than me but she's a role model to me.

"I know but I can't Sofia. I love him you know." My ears formed tears. Damn you, eyes. Why the hell are you betraying me?

"I know and that's why you have to move on. If you were meant to be then you will meet again. Someday, somehow, somewhere. But now you need to live your life. Party like you used to before you met him." As Sofia was talking I didn't hear a word she said but as soon as she said someday, somehow and somewhere. That's what got my attention.

Last time I met Damien knight it was by accident. I would've never thought I would fall in love with someone, let alone a person like him. The only person who knows about my baby is Sofia. No one else. She promised not to tell anyone and I know she will keep that promise.

"You know Damien hated girls with blond hair." I started laughing remembering how he used to make his face when I told him I'm a natural blond. He hated it. He always said blondes are crazy and bitches. But I'm a natural brunette and he liked me for that.

"There's that beautiful laugh I miss. It's been forever since you last laughed." I couldn't Believe it myself almost a year since I laughed genuinely. Not fake or anything.

"I'm going blondie my Fia." I said as I got up. Yes, finally I'm going to get my life back. A year has past and I'm still crying over a silly guy that doesn't even know his lost a baby. He knows nothing and I bet he is enjoying his life while I suffer and mourn for him and my baby.

"Don't be like Benjamin. I hate him and I'll start hating you too or else." And just like that Sofia bought me back to life. Thanks to her I'll enjoy life from today onwards. Yes, I'll always remember the baby I lost. And I'll always love my baby, but fuck you Damien knight, I'll always love you. But from now onwards I will live my life like before you came in.

"I know you will always love me, bye Sofia I have to get ready to party tonight." I tried to leave but Sofia stopped me.

"What about your lover Damien knight?" She asked me, very concerned about how I changed my mind so quickly but it's her who made me change it.

"Fuck him Sofia, he can go to hell for all I care." I looked back at Sofia giving her a smile to assure her that I haven't gone crazy and just like that I left to go get ready for my party tonight. And I'll even maybe go back to my one nightstand.

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Damien's POV.

It's been a long year since I last saw Charlotte. My Charlotte. The only person I ever cared about after my family. The only family I have left. The day that I left her, I still remember her trying to tell me something. That is the one thing that's been bothering me the most. What the fuck would she have told me? Would it change me leaving her?

Those questions are the questions I need answers to but, I'll never get those answers because I promised myself when I walked out on her I would never return.

I know she's so much better off without me. Who would want to be stuck with a guy who has a heart condition and is heartless? I have killed many people. I have so many enemies just imagine if they got to know that I have a soft spot for a Carson.

What if they found out I have a weakness. And that's Charlotte Carson. Fucking Carson who made me leave her the first time. Maybe if she wasn't related to him I would've never left her. Or maybe that's just my excuse for leaving her

The last time I touched her was when I pushed her away from me. But I would've never thought she would've fallen because of that. I just-- I didn't even push her so hard. Or did I? That's also one of the reasons why I didn't go back. I can never go back to her. How can I face her after I pushed her away? When she fell it broke my broken heart.

That day I was so angry that I almost died. The doctor told me that my heart is going to get worse if I don't stop doing the things I do. I was going to stop for Charlotte but after everything, I did to her. I'm never seeing her again that's why I'm still the leader of this Mafia.

"Damien, you have been staring at that picture the whole time." Diego said. I didn't even notice he was the whole time looking at me.

"How's that your problem, Diego?" I asked glaring at him, the last time a guy spoked about her I shot him. I think Diego knows better than talking about Charlotte.

"Thinking of going back to her ?" He asked me. The question I don't have an answer to. But I know deep down she has moved on. Maybe I wasn't good enough for her.

"No! Of course not." I couldn't tell Diego that I still care about her. I just can't.

"Damien let's go out after the mission tonight. Like old times. Just this time you not a virgin anymore." As soon as Diego said that he went to go hide but I could hear his laugh. But for once he actually made me laugh. I hate the fact I care about him.

"I'll kill you next time Diego Smith!" Diego is my right man, he always had my back. Diego and his brother are the only people that know about Charlotte the rest only see her as a normal girl. But Charlotte is everything but normal. I don't get why she always wanted to make me angry. Naming our son Elliot. Just imagine if like the movies and stories that I have read that maybe when I see Charlotte again she has my kid with her. And I'm a year late. I would've made up the time I missed. But hell this is reality.

Shit, I can't believe I sometimes wish my life was fake and just like all the good guys, I would also get a happy ending for saving people.

"Ain't we going to go party, Damien ?" He still on that partying thing. But if Charlotte can move on so can I. I'll always care about you Charlotte fucking Carson. I just wish you weren't born as a Carson.

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