Chapter 30

WARNING: SPG (BRUTAL)

"Love!" I panicked and tried to push him off me. But it seemed like I was pushing a wall.

He wrapped his hand round my neck a bit tight and pulled me up for a kiss.

My eyes went wide when his hold tightened. He was strangling me! I pushed myself up para hindi niya ako masyadong masakal. He bit and sucked my lips like a maniac while squeezing my arm and waist tightly.

He was getting out of control. Was he like this to his other women? Like what Sean said? I thought he loves me.. why am I getting this treatment?

I tasted my own blood when he bit my lower lip hard. I moaned in pain. He then sat on the bed while pulling me round my neck. Gusto ko ng maiyak. Ang sakit ng mga ginagawa nya sa akin.

I tried to kiss him as hard as I could. I pulled his hair hard too. Just to let him know how much pain he was inflicting me.

He looked at me darkly while licking his swollen red lips. I bit him hard that his lower lip was bleeding.

"Did you do this to him too huh?" Nag iigtingan ang mga panga niya habang nakatingin sa katawan kong halos hubad na.

Was he talking about Calvin? Mabilis akong umiling ng umiling.

"No! Nothing happened to us." sagot kong naiiyak sa sakit. I touched my aching lips. They were both swollen.

"I saw you! You went to his room!" He pulled my hair tightly. My tears fell. Hindi ko kaya kapag ganito siya. Masyadong brutal.

"Now you're using your tears to avoid this talk!" He said eyes blazing with fire.

Napailing ako habang lumuluha.

"Tell me what you did to him!"he said then pushed me on the bed using his hand on my hair.

I shrieked and held his hand to stop him from hurting me.

"I'm telling you the truth! Walang nangyari! Please!! Don't do this to me.. I'm not one of your woman!" Umiiyak na sabi ko habang pigil pigil ang kamay nyang mahigpit ang kapit sa buhok ko.

"Then you shouldn't act like a slut! You couldn't wait for me to fuck your hole that you looked for someone else? What the fuck Loveria!"he put his weight on me and pulled my hair down to make me expose my neck. Then he dipped his head and bit and sucked it.

Ang sakit.. sinubukan kong kumawala pero mas idiniin pa niya ang sarili sa ibabaw ko.

"No.. I-I just talked to him. Please.. stop this. You're hurting me.."but he just continued.

After a while I stopped moving.. well, in the first place this was what I've wanted. Maybe I just have to block the pain in my mind and enjoy him.

My hands fell on my side and just grabbed the bedsheets. I felt tired all of a sudden.

I closed my eyes and concentrated on his lips that were now sucking my nipples hard and his hand massaging my breast in a painful way. Some how the pain went away and all I could feel was the tingling sensation he was giving me.

I pulled his hair roughly and moaned in pleasure and pain when he bit both my nipples then went down to my flat stomach. He let go off my hair then held my waist to squeezed.

Napasinghap ako sa sakit at naitulak siya. Umalis siya sa pagitan ko at pinadapa niya akong paluhod. Naitukod ko ang mga kamay ko sa kama. He then parted my thighs and I felt his lips sucking and biting my back down to my butt. He squeezed my butt cheeks painfully. I groaned and felt hotter. I love his gentle way.. but I'm also loving him being rough.

Napalingon ako sa kanya nang maramdaman ko ang mga kamay niyang pinaghiwalay ang pisngi ng pwet ko at kasabay ng pagdampi ng hininga niya at mga labi sa pagkababae ko. Nanginig ako sa sobrang kiliti at init.

His teeth grazed on my labia, and sucked them hard. I clutched the bedsheets tight and planted my face on the mattress. My knees weakened.

Nanginginig ang mga hita at tuhod ko na parang bibigay na kaya mabilis niyang hinawakan ang baywang ko at iniayos ang posisyon ko. Then went back to what he was doing.

I cried in ecstasy when I felt like exploding. But he stopped. I snapped my head behind me to protest but I saw him positioned himself while holding his huge shaft.

I swallowed hard and braced myself for the pain.

"Love... please be gentle.." my voice was trembling in excitement and nervousness.

He looked at me and smirked.

"I have to exceed him so you'll only want me Loveria."he said sternly.

"Walang nangyari sa amin! Please. Baka masakit na naman!" Nag aalala kong sabi.

Without any warning, he thrusted his hips and entered me. I screamed in pain. My knees wobbled but his hands held my waist in place.

I could feel him inside me. So hard and big. It was stretching me and filling me up. And by the feel of it, he was just half buried.

I screamed again when he rammed his shaft more inside me. This time our skin touched. He was fully in. He then swore and smacked my butt twice. I gritted my teeth. It stung and it hurt a lot. My cries was muffled by the mattress. He pulled my hair to lift my face off the bed.

"Let me hear you scream for me Loveria." He said huskily then started thrusting fast and hard.

Napapasigaw ako sa bawat urong sulong niya. Rinig na rinig ko rin ang malakas na salpukan ng mga balat namin. I planted my face back on the mattress and screamed in pain but he pulled my hair up again. My body was shaking in pain and pleasure. His hand reached for my clitoris and played with it while hammering himself inside me. He was so rough. But my body was loving his wicked way.

I felt my orgasm nearing me that I clutched the bedsheets again. Few more thrust, I screamed my release. I let go of the sheets feeling so tired. My heart was beating so fast and I was catching my breath. My tears and sweat were covering my face.

He let go off me so my body fell on the mattress, too spent. I moaned when his shaft got pulled out.

"You like me rough huh?"He whispered huskily and pulled my body to lie on my side. He grabbed my right leg and put my foot on the mattress in front of my left knee and lied behind me. He was breathing hard. His sweaty chest collided on my back. He wrapped his arm on my right leg, placed it on his thigh and with his swift movement, he entered me again in two thrusts.

Napahiyaw ako sa sakit at hapdi. My body trembled.

"Fucking tight. From now on I'll give you everything you want Loveria. We'll fuck until you can't walk anymore. We'll fuck and fuck until your body will crave for my cock."he said while thrusting inside me.

His hold tightened round my thigh and his thrust became faster and harder behind me.

"Fucking hell. I'll only be your man from now on Loveria. I'll kill every guy that'll touch what's mine!"he clenched his jaw and touched my clitoris again with his hand that was holding my thigh.

I groaned when I started to feel another wave of my orgasm. I held my right breast that was bouncing roughly.

"More Loveria. I want you to scream more. Louder!"he said.

So I let out my scream when I reached my second release. He pulled his shaft out of me and grabbed me to sit up. My weak body just followed.

My eyes couldn't even stay open. I was so exhausted and tired. While he was still full of energy.

Then he pulled me roughly and made me sit on his lap while facing him.

"We're just getting started Loveria. We'll spent all our night fucking." He grunted then pushed me down swiftly on his lap.

Napahiyaw ako sa sakit at hapdi. Napakapit ako sa mga malalapad nyang balikat at umiyak..

Kanina pa kami. Sobrang hapdi na ng pagkababae ko. At ang tagal niyang labasan..

He manoeuvred my body to move up and down his thick shaft. I scratched and dug my nails on him.

I screamed when another orgasm hit me. He pushed me towards him and kissed me hard while I was screaming my release. Then he came..finally..

I let his shoulders go then everything went black.

I woke up when I felt suffocated. I pushed something off my chest that was cutting my oxygen and catch my breath. Napadilat ako nang maigalaw ko ang katawan at ramdam ko ang sakit sa bawat parte nito.

It was Peter's thick veiny arm that was on my chest. I groaned and pushed his leg too that was on my thighs.

I was now wearing his white shirt and nothing underneath.

I looked at the clock and it was only past five in the morning. I remembered fainting after he came last night. At hindi ko na alam kung anong nangyari. Siguro naman ay hindi niya ako ginalaw habang wala akong malay..

I grimaced when I remembered my flight today. I have two and half hours to catch it.

Umupo ako ng dahan dahan at ibinaba ang mga paa sa carpet. Sobrang hapdi ng gitna ko. Nagasgas pa ata. Mabigat ang katawan ko at para na naman akong lalagnatin! I walked slowly and showered.

He was still on my bed sleeping like a child when I came out. He looked so innocent and gorgeous. If I haven't experienced his wild and brutal side last night, I could definitely say that he's like an angel right now.

I grabbed my luggage and packed all my stuff in hurry. Then I called the reception to get me a taxi.

When I was done, I watched him for few minutes then went out of my room.

I smiled sadly thinking about our messed up situation. He's engaged and committed to her. Kahit pa sinabi niyang ako ang mahal niya. Hindi dapat. Dahil nandyan na si Sofia.

I should feel happy that before he married her, I got the chance to be with him for the last time. And I would save it in my memory. Until I die.

At ngayon ay kailangan ko nang bumalik sa totoong mundo ko.

Na wala siya sa tabi ko..

It had been six weeks now since the last time I heard about their wedding.

I stopped watching any news and even left my phone and laptop to prevent myself from being an obsessed ex that couldn't stop stalking her ex boyfriend and his new fiancée.

Pakiramdam ko ay para akong bibitawin sa bawat paglipas ng mga araw. Today would be his wedding.

"Hey.." tawag sa akin ni Samantha habang kinukuskos ko ang pintura. Pinagbuntunan ko ang pagpipinta nitong mga nakaraang araw. Para maiwala ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. At maganda na rin ito dahil gagamitin ko ang mga ito sa pagdecorate ng holiday house siya sa isla niya.

Nginitian ko siya at pinagpatuloy ang pagkuskos ng hinlalaki ko.

"Bettina wanted to unwind. So I told her about one of Jazz's bar. Sama ka? Para malibang?"napaisip ako at umiling. Naalala ko ang mga babae dati sa Surigao. Baka may masagap lang akong balita tungkol sa kasal nina Peter at Sofia. So it was better I avoid going out and be ignorant.

"Couz.. you've been working all day and all night with your paintings. Andami na. In three days, balik aral na naman. Bakit hindi ka maglibang? Mukha ka ng zombie!"giit ni Sam.

Napairap ako at tinanggal ang paint brush na kagat kagat ko.

"Baka may masagap lang ako." Maikli kong sagot. She knew everything about me and Peter even before so hindi ko na kailangang sabihin pa sa kanya ulit.

"Hay nako! Bakit ba puro heart broken ang mga nakakasama ko? Nahahawa na ako sa pagiging emo nyo!"Pairap na umupo siya sa tabi ko at nilaro laro ang mga paintbrushes.

Tinignan ko ang painting ko nang matapos ako. It was the seaview from my hotel balcony in Surigao. The sunset, the pigeons gliding, the waves and white sand meeting.. and of course the silhouette of a man that was sitting on sand with a woman..

I smiled reminiscing all the moments we had together.

It was their alleged wedding this morning. Yon ang sabi sa balita. It was supposed to be a private and quiet wedding. Pero dahil celebrity ang babae, may nakapag- tip at buong mundo ang nakaalam.

"Kung alam ko lang na gagamitin mong dahilan ang pagdedecorate sa bahay ko para magmonghe, sana hindi nalang ako pumayag!"

I smirked and shook my head.

"Hayaan mo na ako. Bukas nang gabi, sasama na ako. But not tonight."sabi ko. Napapalakpak siya.

"That's the spirit! Lalaki lang yan! Marami pa dyan!"sabi niya at hinila na ako patayo. Ang last na pininta ko ay ilalagay ko sa living room niya. And so far ito ang pinakamalaki. It was kinda emotional and melancholic. Maybe because the painter was sad herself..

"Good. So now, what about Netflix and a tub of ice cream and some chocolate cake?" Alok niya.

I nodded and cleaned all my mess. She's really the best person to have kapag may problema ka. She would lift you up and make you forget your worries.

I blinked to adjust my eyes with the neon lights. As I promised, I went with Samantha to have a good time. I felt light tonight. Maybe because I got over the idea of him being married.

I would marry too in the near future. Kahit hindi siya ang groom ko. Dahil I was hoping na may makikita akong iba na mamahalin ko at mamahalin ako..

"Couz. That's Bettina!" She said then pulled me to her friend who was sucking someone's face. Nakakagulantang na ang parang Mala Maria Clara na nauna kong nakita ay biglang nagbago. Iba talaga kapag nabobroken hearted. Nagiging wild.

Naupo ako sa pabilog na couch at inilibot ang paningin sa loob. Sam's five bodyguards were everywhere checking the place. I sat on the furthest corner and watched Sam pulling her friend to come to our table. She looked tipsy. Parang kanina pa siya dito. At mukhang hindi lang ito ang unang beses niyang nakapunta.

Nakakapagduda talaga ang mga pinapakita niya at ikinikilos.

"Couz, samahan ko lang siya sa banyo para makafreshen up. Nilasing kasi nong kasama niya kanina eh."tumango lang ako at hinila niya na si Bettina palayo.

Sumandal ako at tinignan ang mga nasa mesa. Parang galit na galit ang nag order ng mga alak at halos mapuno ito.

I took one shot of tequila and pinched some salt. I leaned back again. Napa upo ako ng maayos nang makita ko si Kurt na parang may hinahanap.

Oh my! Bakit siya nandito? Naupo ako sa may kadilimang bahagi ng couch para hindi niya ako makita. But it was too late. So i just lowered my head and gulped another shot. Bigla akong ninerbyos na hindi ko maintindihan.

Ilang minuto pa ang nakalipas ay hindi pa rin bumabalik sina Sam so tumayo na ako at sinundan sila. Gusto kong mapairap nang makita si Bettina na umiiyak na nakayakap kay Kurt. Habang si Sam ay tahimik lang na nakatingin sa malayo at nakakuyom ang mga kamao.

Kurt was just looking at Bettina as if annoyed. Then he looked at Sam that was talking to a male celebrity. It was Keith Mariano. I smirked when he held her hand and kissed it gallantly.

Sam flashed her bright smile and held his arm when he offered it.

Napasunod na lang ako ng tingin ng hilain na nang lalaki si Sam sa dancefloor.

Then Kurt stormed out of the bar, with Bettina tagging behind him. Para siyang tuko kung makakapit kay Kurt habang kanina lang ay may kahalikan siyang iba.

Nang sulyapan ko si Sam ay sumasayaw na ng slow music pero nakatingin nang malungkot sa pinaglabasan nina Bettina.

Naaawa akong iniwas ang tingin sa pinsan ko. Sa anim na linggo kong pananatili sa mansion nila ay lagi siyang masaya at punong puno nang sigla.. kaya akala ko ay nakamove on na siya kay Kurt.

Bumalik na ako sa table namin at napataas ang kilay ko nang may makita akong anyo ng lalaki na nakaupo sa inupuan ko.

"Excuse me, but this table is taken." Pang iimporma ko at itinuro ang mga inumin na nakalagay sa mesa.

"If you failed to notice our drinks."mariin kong sinabi. Sa ilang beses kong pagpunta sa bar, dapat ipakita mong palaban ka para tantanan ka nila.

He just leaned his back on the couch and crossed his long legs.

Bigla akong nainis at napahawak sa noo ko. Lasing na ata itong lalaki.

Napalingon lingon ako sa ibang table kung may naghahanap sa kanya. Lahat ay busy sa pag inom at kwentuhan.

Napatili ako nang bigla niya akong hilain at paupuin sa kandungan niya.

"What the fu-"naputol ang sasabihin ko nang yakapin ako ng lalaki at halikan sa mga labi.

Biglang tumulo ang mga luha ko nang makilala ang mga labing gabi-gabi kong napapanaginipan.

"I nearly went out of my mind when Ashmere couldn't tell me where you've gone to love.. you really love making me crazy." He huskily said then lifted me up to make me sit on his lap while facing him.

Umiyak ako ng umiyak. I hugged him tight and cried on his shoulder. How I missed my man..

Napalayo ako nang maalala na kahapon lang ay ikinasal na siya.

It was so dark that I couldn't see his face.. i just relied on how my body reacts to him.

"Why are you here? You're not supposed to be here Peter!"sabi ko at sinubukang tumayo.

Agad niya akong pinigilan sa baywang at ibinagsak sa kandungan niya.

"Why? Am I not allowed to see my girlfriend?"Galit na sagot niya. Napipilan ako. Ako ba yong girlfriend niya? Pero may asawa na siya..

"Teka! Ikinasal kana ah! You're supposed to be in your honeymoon with your wife!"pag papaalala ko sa kanya.

"Hmm.. you always know something I don't. Did we get married before?" His voice was laced with humour.

"Hindi ako nakikipagbiruan Peter! You married Sofia yesterday!"giit ko at dinutdot ang daliri sa dibdib niya.

"I'll only marry one woman in my life Loveria. And that's you."seryoso niyang sagot.

Napaluha ako sa narinig.

"Paano si Sofia? She's way better than me. And more matured. She can handle your relationship well. Tapos.. tapos maganda at.. at.. bagay kayo!"umiiyak kong sagot.

"She's married to someone now. And she's my mom's cousin on her mother's side."

Napayuko na ako sa inilapat ang noo sa dibdib niya.

"So you're not married to anyone.."hindi ako makapaniwala na wala naman pala akong dapat ikaiyak noong una pa lang.

"Not yet.. unless you're ready to marry me love.." he said slowly.

Napayakap ako sa batok niya at hinalikan siya.

"And love.. you're my only perfect match."sabi niya na ikinangiti ko.

Naupo kami sa may bahagyang liwanag para magusap. Hinahanap ko sina Sam at Bettina. Nang hindi na ako mapakali ay nagpaalam ako kay Peter na hahanapin lang ang mga kasama ko.

Nakita ko ang limang bodyguard ni Sam na nakatayo sa gilid kaya napalakad ako palapit sa kanila.

Hawak ni Kurt sa braso si Sam habang ang isang kamay ni Sam ay hawak nong male celebrity.

Halatang may pinag uusapan sila ng masinsinan. Umiigting ang mga panga ni Kurt na hinila palapit sa kanya si Sam na naguguluhan sa pangyayari. Nang hilain naman ng isa si Sam ay sinenyasan na niya ang mga bodyguard niya.

Nagpunta sila kay Keith at hinawakan ang braso nito ng mahigpit.

"What the fuck! Hindi siya ang alisin nyo! Itong isa!" Galit na bulyaw ni Samantha at pilit hinihila ang braso mula kay Kurt.

Natigilan ang mga bodyguards at napalunok.

"Sir-" tumingin nang matalim si Kurt sa lalaking lumapit sa kanya.

"Fuck off or you'll be sorry." Madilim na pagbabanta niya at malakas na hinila si Sam.

Napatili si Sam nang humampas ang mukha niya sa dibdib ni Kurt. Kurt instantly wrapped his arms around Sam's small frame.

"Fuck you! I hate you! Why don't you just fuck my friend and leave me alone!"pinagsusuntok niya si Kurt. Tumayo lang si Kurt at. hinayaan si Sam habang nakayakap pa rin. Parang wala lang sa kanya ang mga ginagawa ni Sam.

"Bro, you can't force a woman to come with you." Napatango ako sa sinabi ni Keith. Kurt looked at him sharply.

Napaatras ang ulo ko nang takpan ni Peter ang mga mata ko.

He then wrapped his arm on my tummy and whispered.

Napairap lang ako sa kawalan. Pati ba naman pagtingin lang sa iba ikinagagalit na ni Peter!

"Fuck off or you'll lose you pretty face."he warned then pulled her away. Sam cried and shouted.

"Anong mga silbi niyo! Tulungan nyo ako!"galit na sigaw ni Sam.

Parang natauhan ang lima na sumugod kay Kurt.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang nakaiwas siya sa suntok ng lalaki at sinipa niya ito sa may likod ng tuhod. Napaluhod ang lalaki at mabilis niyang hinampas sa likod ng ulo. Nahimatay ang isa. Ginawa niya ito nang hawak si Sam!

Nanlalaki ang mga mata na natigalgal si Sam. Nang sumugod ang apat ay itinulak niya si Sam ng bahagya at pinagsisipa ang mga lalaki sa tyan. Mabilis na tumayo ang apat at sumugod ulit. Pero walang suntok ang tumama kay Kurt. Napalingon si Kurt ng tumakbo palayo si Sam.

Nang sumugod ulit ang apat ay mabilis niya ng tinapos ang laban gamit ang pagsipa sa gilid ng ulo. Nang bumagsak ang pinakahuli ay tumakbo na si Kurt para habulin si Sam. Habang nagmumura. Pati ako ay napahabol na rin.

At dahil mahahaba ang mga biyas ni Kurt ay nahila niya si Sam sa may parking lot at isinampay sa balikat na parang sako.

Nagwawalang pinagsusuntok ni Sam ang likod ng lalaki na patuloy sa paglakad ng mabilis at binuksan ang Maserati na nakapark sa gilid at pabagsak na idineposito si Sam.

Narinig ko ulit ang pagmumura ni Sam at akmang lalabas pero tinulak siya ni Kurt at hinalikan sa mga labi.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at sinubukang lapitan sila pero hinila lang ako ni Peter.

"Let's go."he said then went to the car beside them.

"P-pero si Sam!"nag aalala kong sagot.

"Don't meddle. She's safe."he said then help me get in the car. Nang lumingon ako kina Sam ay nakita kong sinampal niya si Kurt na may madilim na ekspresyon sa mukha at pinunasan ang mga labi gamit ang dress niya na animong diring diri at nasusuka.

May sinabi siya na hindi ko maintindihan pero tinulak lang siya ni Kurt bago isinara ang pinto at mabilis na pinatakbo ang sasakyan palabas ng parking lot.