Study?

Let me be very honest.

I don't know how to study.

Nothing goes into my head even if I study hard. I have looked all over the internet "how to study" and study techniques. None of them work! I have also searched up so many videos and WikiHows to start taking "effective notes" but they don't work either. I just practice math occasionally and when I do, I get a good grade.

I love math. Why do I love math although I have a bad grade? Because l love figuring out my mistakes and correcting them but that's not the same in science. I love science too but I just don't know how to do it. I find a lot of things stupid and wonderful. Sometimes it just confused the shit out of me. I love studying. Did I just change the time from depressing to cheerful? Well, yes. I DO love studying and as I said before, I just don't know how. I am also extremely lazy. Which makes things harder for me. Procrastination is like a drug. Once you get addicted, you practically waste your entire time, not realizing your self worth. Yes, I know I procrastinate and I know it's super bad but I am addicted. I can't get out of this endless loop of "let's do it tomorrow" but when I do, once in a while, it's the most productive time ever. Apart from procrastination, I have issues with studying for a very long time. I can sit for five hours straight and study. Just that, stuff goes into my head only for two hours. After that, I'm just looking at words, not studying.

You see, this is my problem. I can't study but I want to and I love to. I know it doesn't make sense but this is what happens when I study.