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The Pain of Being Empty

My name is Arthur Akai, a 13 old who lost everything. I was betrayed by the ones I loved the most and my life turned into a living hell. I want to die so badly... but I can't. My only choice is to live in despair and suffer in pain.

Lathel · Fantasi
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10 Chs

Dread

"The class is dismissed. Cora and Arthur, you two come with me" (Vander)

Teacher Vander was stunned for a couple minutes but when he reacted, he was decisive.

We left our class and soon we arrived in front of another classroom. Teacher Vander came in and talked to that class's teacher before bringing two students, Natalie and Leilane. He then said, "come with me" and started guiding us to where I assume to be the principal's office.

During the journey everyone was in silence.

I had my usual expressionless face while Cora had a sad but relieved face with a hint of fear, and both Natalie and Leilane had fearful expressions.

Soon, we entered the principal's office.

When the principal put his eyes on us, more specifically me, he turned his head towards teacher Vander and said with a deep frown.

"Teacher Vander what matter brings you here?"

Hearing the principal's question, Vander had a helpless expression.

"Cora, can you play the audio?"

Cora promptly took her phone and played the audio.

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"..." x5

Everyone was in silence.

The principal's expression was very bad, his reaction was even worse when he thought that I attacked these girls.

"So, are you saying that you three set Arthur up, and he is innocent?"

The principal asked Cora, which made her tremble, but she still answered.

"Yes."

"Why?" (Principal)

Cora took a deep breath and started to spill the beans.

"We had different reasons. I did it because I envied how Arthur was so happy with the other four girls, I wanted them to leave him, then I would approach him and make him mine.

The reason Natalie and Leilane did it was because when they confessed their feelings to Arthur they were rejected. If they couldn't be with him, they would isolate him from everyone else."

Now I was really pissed.

So are you saying that you guys fucked with my life because you didn't want to see me with other people???

Bitches!!!

My face, which remained expressionless for a long time, distorted for a moment before going back to normal.

Fuck it, I don't care anymore.

"So why are you confessing what you did?"

After many seconds of silence, the principal asked another question to Cora.

"I am doing this because I failed to complete my goal. And also, because I feel guilty when I look at the current Arthur and compare with how he was in the past."

After hearing Cora's answer, the principal looked at me.

"Arthur, I apologize for being wrong about you, but there is nothing we can do about the past. Now I will leave the choice for you, what do you want to do about this situation?"

At this moment everyone was looking at me, waiting for my answer.

"Just let them give compensation to my parents, I don't really care about the rest."

I said that in an indifferent voice, then I turned around and left.

It is a good thing that I brought my backpack with me, that way I can go straight home.

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Today I decided to cut my exercises, for some reason I wasn't in a good mood.

Since I arrived at home, I started to feel weird. My hands were shaking, and my body was heavy. Contrary to what I usually do, my eyes were going everywhere around.

As I opened the door to my room, I finally realized what I was feeling.

Fear.

I was afraid of myself.

Now that my name is clean there will be no more nuisances in my way. It means that now I can be happy again.

Of course, the happiness I am talking about doesn't involve interacting with people.

I feel like If I were to play games, read novels or Mangas, or watch TV shows, I would be able to enjoy it again.

That's very dangerous.

I can't let myself fall into the abyss called happiness again. If I were to fall into it, I will seriously hurt myself when I reach the bottom.

I cannot afford to be broken again.

I lay down in my bed and closed my eyes, I hoped that this fear together with my ability to feel happy would disappear next time I opened my eyes.

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------Arthur---------

---Arthur----Wake----

I vaguely hear someone's voice calling me.

As I opened my eyes the voice's owner, and its content was revealed.

"Arthur, wake up…" (Leah Akai and Alex Akai)

It was my parents who were waking me up.

'How inconvenient.'

"Thank goodness, how are you feeling Arthur?" (Leah)

Hearing her question, I was stunned for a moment.

For over a year they were hurting me deeply without any consideration for me and my feelings. And only now they want to know how I am.

What do they think I am?

Usually I would just ignore them, but when I heard their words, I just couldn't stay shut.

"I am feeling amazing. Now get out of here."

My voice was mixed with sarcasm and anger, my facial expression right now should also align with my words and feelings.

Hearing my answer my parents looked at each other with a sad expression. They then bowed to me and left the room, at least they seemed to have understood the meaning of my words.

Just when I was adjusting my body to come back to sleep, another intruder invaded my room.

Her black hair was a little messy and her eyes were swollen, but it didn't affect her beauty.

She came closer to me and fell to her knees, she then bowed till her head hit the floor.

"Onii-chan, I am sorry for everything I did, please forgive me. You can punish me in any way, I will do anything you say."

I looked at her figure doing dogeza and I lost control of my rage.

"I will never forgive you for what you did. You were the person I trusted the most and you betrayed me without thinking twice. You ignored my feelings and mercilessly destroyed my world. You don't deserve my forgiveness and don't deserve to be my family. I hate you."

Saying what I wanted to say, I lay down in my bed and closed my eyes.

I was burning with anger, and I didn't know what I would do if I kept looking at the source of my anger.

As I was trying to calm down and rest, the situation suddenly changed.

I felt considerable weight over my waist, but before I could react, I felt someone hugging me.

My body started to tremble violently as I opened my eyes.

Then I felt complete dread.