Mars held the piece of paper with a bleeding heart. He really really missed Emmelyn. The pain that he was experiencing now was so much worse than the first time and he didn't know how he could continue living without her in his life.
Nobody else in this world mattered to him after his mother and Emmelyn passed away. He would probably only live for Harlow, their daughter. But, with this much pain in his heart, would he even be able to be a good parent for Harlow?
Wouldn't he ruin his daughter's life if he ended up just being a failure of a father? He failed as a husband, what would make him qualify as a good father to Harlow?
Maybe it would be better if Harlow lived with the Greenans. She would be raised in a good family. Harlow would experience how it was like to have a mother figure and a loving father in Lily and Athos.