Chapter 13
Jimin's POV
It was a day later after the partyand everyone is just laying or sleeping around. I was in my bed playing on my phone.
Sign.
it was such a long night yesterday. Jungkook was awake almost all night. he would move here and there and sometimes he would get up to go to kitchen for drinking water and would come back after 20 mins. It disturbed me all night. I want to ask him 'what are you thinking'? 'Are you okay? 'What do you want?' And so many but I know he would tell me to stay quiet or otherwise ignore me
I couldn't sleep because of him shifting around. I want to snuggle close up to him. I want his arms around me. I want him to keep looking in my eyes until my eyes can't hold in anymore. I want him to kiss me and hold me firmly and never let go. I want him above
Did I just really thought that
No way!!
Stop your dirty thoughts Jimin!!!
I am really stupid
There he can't decipher whether he loves me or not and I, here is imagining something which is way too far
I went downstairs to clear my mind. I saw Taehyung sitting on the pouch and pouting
"Hey, what happened Tae" I asked and sat beside him
"Hey, I am bored, Jiminie. I want to do something but no one would accompany me. Please" Taehyung made puppy eyes before me and how can I say no to him
"Oay tae. Let's see if anyone wants to come" I pinched his cheeks
"I asked Yoongi hyung but of course he said no. I saw Namjoon and Jin hyung sleeping together. They look so cute. I don't wanna disturb them. Now we're left with Jungkook and Hoseok hyung" he said
"Okay let's go to Hoseok hyung first and later Jungkook. What do you say" I asked
"Lets go" he held my hand and pulled me towards the stairs
We knocked on Hoseok hyung door and we saw him opening the door. He looked like he just came out of shower, water was dripping out of his hair. He moved away from the door and let us in. He grabbed a towel and started drying his hair
"What do you guys want?" He asked
Tae told him everything
"Will you go with us" tae said
"Please" we both pleaded
"Okay, fine. Both of you go, I will be down in 5 mins" he smiled
"Thank you hyung" tae said
We both left his room and knocked on Jungkook's door. He opened his door and step aside but didn't even glance at me
Why?
Is it because I left him after he slept
I just wanted him to sleep calmly
No stress
I think I did the wrong thing
Taehyung told him the same he told to Hoseok hyung
"No, I can't come. I'm busy" he said coldly
"Please....." tae grabbed my hand
"No" he side glance at me and after he was back on ignoring me
"NO and it's my final answer" he turned his back towards us
We left the room and Hoseok hyung was waiting downstairs for us
"Lets go" he said
"Yeah sure" tae said
I nodded and that's how we left the house
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(Time skip)
We were exhausted. We opened the door and went inside our house. What I saw made me angry. There he was, sitting on the couch talking with Namjoon and Yoongi. I guess Jin hyung is in kitchen
But the hell! He said he was busy and now I see how much busy he was. He just didn't want to come because I was with him
Clear your mind Jimin
Calm down
The moment I sat on the couch in front of him. He saw me and our eyes meet for a fraction of minute
"I need water" he stood up and went inside kitchen
What the--
I don't wanna sit here also. What does he think of himself. I went upstairs to my room. I emptied my shopping bags and kept them in their destined places. I feel hungry and tired. I couldn't sleep properly yesterday
Aaaaah.....I yawned
I went downstairs for some water, rubbing my eyes but when I opened my eyes. I was shocked or more accurately surprised. He had ignited a fire inside me.
There Jungkook was sitting on the couch talking with Jin and Taehyung. Isn't it great that he talks with everyone who isn't me. Why. Now let that question go to hell. I don't care. I will show him, who he is messing with.
I went downstairs and grabbed him out of the couch
"What-!" He exclaimed
"You are asking me what? How dare you do that. How can you ignore me like this. I won't ask you what mistake I did, because you want what, I am tired of this-- this feeling. I am tired of pretending not to hurt. I am tired of being the responsible one everytime, I am tired of being with you. Don't I deserve some love, don't I deserve to be happy. Is it my fault that you are so doubtful in me. Everytime you say I want some time, okay fine! I am giving you time and space but that doesn't mean you can ignore me like I am a trash--" I was cut by him
But my words and my anger is not finished yet
"Jimin, listen to me. I am trying--" Jungkook started
"Don't you dare say, you are trying. No you are at all trying. You are just trying to find excuses, excuses that will make you regret. Being in love and get heartbroken is just not your nightmare. It's mine too. If you can be insecure, can't I be. Don't I feel things. Don't I have emotions?!!" I said angryly. I could feel tears burning in my eyes, but I can't show it to everyone here
All the members are there in this room but no one dared to say a word. I turned to leave but a cold hand stopped me , I turned to see Jungkook. His face one of pleading and in pain, and guess what I am also in pain and broken. Is there something I can hold to or something can fix my heart. I don't think these things exist for me.
"Jimin, just listen to me once--" he pleaded once again
"I don't want to talk to you. I can't do this anymore. If you don't want me it's fine, but tell me before you go ignoring me, while I still have hope in you. Just--just let me go" I jerked my hand but my tears betrayed me in the end
The pain was out and attacked me with full force.
I went upstairs and closed my room. I don't want any company. I am better alone...........