Chapter 48

Amara sat there quietly waiting for him to speak, she was expecting him to say what she wanted to hear. "Well, it's because I want to keep you happy." He Saud, and that made Amara's heart melt but it was nit enough for her, but why was she feeling like thus, has she fallen in love with the man she once despised, well just like they always say there is a thin line between love and hate, and she had crossed that line, she quickly shook that feeling off, why on earth would she fall for him out of all people. "Well, why do you want to keep me happy." She asked him, eating her food. She saw a smile on his face, but it quickly disappeared. "The doctor told me to do so, for the baby." He said and Amara felt like she had been stabbed a million times on her heart. "OH, that's great." That's all she managed to say. She hoped that he didn't hear the hurt that came with her voice. And they both ate their foon in silence, awkward silence. Amara concentrated on eating her food not wanting him to realize the hurt in her eyes. The only thing that she wanted now was to get out of here, find a place and bury herself twenty feet under.

After to what seemed like forever Ian cleared his throat to say something. "I will be leaving for France tomorrow morning." He said. "Why?" Amara asked. "I'm going on a business trip." He said. "For how long." Amara asked. "For four weeks."He said. Four weeks without Ian what is going to be like for her, fun, boring or just normal. "I'll make sure to check on you, every day." He said. You know sometimes Amara wished that tgey were an actual couple that loved and adored each other. "OH, okay." That's all she managed to say, but she wanted to say more but she stopped herself not wanting to make a fool out of herself, all she had to do was just bury whatever feeling she had for him deep down and jyst forgot about them and pretend like they never even existed, yeah maybe that would work out well, she knew that that was easier said than done. "Are you okay." Ian asked with a worried look on his face. "Uhm, yeah I am fine." She replied in a low voice. "You don't look fine, are you tired?" He asked her. "Uhm, no not really." She said. "Then what's wrong and don't tell me you are okay because you do not look like you are." He said. "I said I'm fine." She said raising her voice a little. "Sorry, I won't force you to tell me what's bothering you, you can tell me when you feel like telling me." He said. "As if you care." She whispered hoping he didn't hear her but he did but he just kept quiet, he didn't wabt to have an argument with her. He just had to keep her happy just like the doctor said.

"Ian I'm tired I wanna go and rest." She said after twenty minutes of pure silence. "Okay, if that's what you want." Ian said, this was not how he planned for the day to go, he had a lit planned for today, maybe next time... If there will be a next time. They both stood up and they exited the building saying their goodbyes to the workers there, they got into the car and they drove back to the house, nobody said a word.

When they got to the house Amara got out of the car and she ran into the house, she went upstairs to the room she used to sleep in when she first got here, she wanted to sleep alone tonight without him. She threw herself on the bed burying herself in one of the big pillows. She could feel the tears in her eyes, that wanted to come out but she didn't want them to. Why was she even feeling like this, she didn't know. "I can't... I can't... It's just too much, why... Why, do I have to have feelings for him out of all people and does knowing he doesn't like me hurts me so much, why?" She kept asking herself. "Maybe that's because you keep distancing yourself from him." A voice said. She lifted her head up to see who it was and it was Ian's butler. She quickly sat up from the bed, shocked dud he hear her. "Don't be scared, I heard it all." He said with that welcoming warm smile that he always had on his face. "What do you mean, I keep distancing myself from him."Amara asked. "Well, my dear ma'am, he doesn't know about your feelings towards him because you keep telling him how much you hate him." He said, sitting down on the couch that was near the wall. "That's because he kept treating me like an animal." She said. "I am sure you must know by now that he can't control his actions when he is angry." He said. "And do you expect me to believe you.?" Amara asked. "I don't know if you choose to, the choice is yours." He said. 'That smile... That annoying smile, how I wish I could just tear it off with a knife.' She thought to herself. "So what you are trying to say to me is that, he took me from my parents' house, tortured me, threatened me, raped me multiple times, killed my dad, killed my unborn baby and tortured me even more out of love, is that what you are trying to say to me?" Amara asked him. "That is not what I am saying... Look I get it he hurt you badly both mentally and physically but, he wants to change... For you, and you like him so why not forget about the past and tell him how you feel." He said. "You really do have a twisted mind don't you, look I admit it I do have feelings for him hut there is no way in hell I am going to pour my heart out to a monster, so I am just going to bury my feelings, ignore them and pretend like they never even existed. Okay butler? If you are so bored and have nothing to do, why don't you go and entertain your master since he is leaving tomorrow anyway. "She said. "Once you catch feelings for someone they will forever be there especially since you live with that person under the same roof." He said. Standing up and walking towards the door. He stopped and he turned around. "Remember, there is always a thin line between love and hate and I know that you've crossed that line but you are just too afraid to stay there and you are thinking of crossing it and going back to that hate side, just follow your heart and great things will happen. "He said walking out and closing the door, Amara screamed in frustration, what was wrong with this butler. She admitted that she had feeling fir Ian but thinking back on the horrible things that he dud and said to her, there was no way that she would tell him how she felt, she would just have to hate him again, right now he was jyst being nice to her for the baby, not her.