Trauma (Part 1)

"Just tell me to leave, and I'll listen..."

"We're making it difficult for each other..."

"You don't want me here, do you?" Yoongi said while looking down, ashamed.

Jimin grabbed Yoongi's hand tightly and squeezed it. "It's okay Yoongi. I don't have any problems with you being here. I live here on my own, it's nice to have company." Jimin said, trying to make Yoongi happy again. Jimin smiled, which made his eyes close.

Yoongi looked at Jimin and saw his beautiful smile. Without realizing it at first, his eyes went down to Jimin's lips.

He suddenly felt attracted to Jimin, he wanted to kiss him.

Jimin had stopped smiling and looked at Yoongi's eyes. He knew what Yoongi was looking at. He parted his lips and breathed through his mouth. When he did that, Yoongi cursed under his breath.

Jimin smirked but quickly controlled himself again. He barely knew Yoongi. Yoongi kept staring at his lips. Jimin blushed and coughed softly.

Yoongi looked up at Jimin's eyes. He saw he was blushing. He tried to restrain himself. He apologized to Jimin. Jimin just ignored it.

He sighed and then said: "So are you going to explain it to me or not?" "I'm not ready to tell you everything yet..." Yoongi said. "You don't have to tell me everything. Just tell me, what happened that you called me so desperately?"

Yoongi started talking. "Why is life so cruel?" He bursts out in tears. Jimin got shocked by this. For a second, he didn't know what to do. But then he started to hug Yoongi tightly. "Shh... It's going to be fine. I'm here with you now. You can trust me. Please tell me what happened, Yoongi."

Yoongi kept crying. He couldn't calm down. He wasn't ready to talk about it yet. "Shh, calm down Yoongi. You know what? I'm going to make a nice dinner for you and then we're gonna eat together. And after that, you're going to sleep. Okay?"

Yoongi nodded his head. He kept comforting Yoongi for a little longer and then stood up to make dinner.

Once he was done, he called for Yoongi. "Yoongi! Dinner is ready!" Yoongi flinched and immediately thought back of his house. He got the memory that he wasn't allowed to eat. It made him freeze in his place.

Jimin put the food and plates on the table. Yoongi didn't come. He decided to check on him. He walked towards the living room and saw Yoongi standing there, frozen, staring into space.

He carefully gave him a hug and said: "Yoongi, is something wrong? Why aren't you coming?" Yoongi answered, tears started to form in his eyes. "I'm not allowed to eat."

Jimin's eyes widened. "What do you mean? Of course you're allowed to eat! I don't know what happened at your house, but you're with me now. You can eat."

He broke the hug and tried to pull Yoongi along with him towards the dining table. But Yoongi didn't move. Instead, he pulled Jimin back. "Hug me again." Yoongi said. Jimin blushed and a smile appeared on his face. He didn't think twice. He immediately hugged Yoongi, tightly.

Yoongi hugged him back. He finally let the tears go, they fell on Jimin's neck and shoulder. Jimin felt it. He kept hugging him a little longer, until Yoongi had stopped crying. He broke the hug once again and wiped Yoongi's tears away. Yoongi smiled, a little unsure.

"I want to explain it to you..." Yoongi said. Jimin hushed him down and said: "Sure, but first we eat. I can see that you're hungry."

They walked towards the dining table, hand in hand. They both sat down, opposite each other. They silently started eating.

Jimin kept glancing at Yoongi. He didn't like this awkward silence. "So... Uhm... Want to know anything about me?"

Yoongi looked up from his food and looked into Jimin's deep eyes. He nodded and continued eating.

"So, I'm 20 years old. My birthday is on October 13. My parents are still alive, but they live somewhere else. I've liked to dance and sing since I was very young. Eventually I decided to do something with it. I saw other K-pop idols and I felt like I wanted to be like them. So I auditioned and now I'm here, going to debut soon. Together with you."

He said the last sentence with a big smile on his face. Yoongi had stared at Jimin the entire time that he was talking. He wanted to kiss him so badly. Jimin's lips looked so soft...

Jimin stopped smiling and looked at Yoongi. He was staring at him again. Jimin wanted to tease him a little. He let his knife fall on the ground, on purpose. He excused himself and got under the table. He put his hand on Yoongi's thigh while grabbing his knife. He rubbed Yoongi's thigh softly and then got up again from under the table.

Yoongi had his eyes closed. When he opened them again, it looked like they were on fire. "Why did you do that?!" He said with an angry tone in his voice.

"I'm sorry Yoongi." Jimin pouted. Yoongi felt like he was exploding, seeing Jimin pout this cute. He quickly said: "Forget it. It's okay." Jimin kept pouting. "I have to go to the bathroom. Can you show me where it is?" Yoongi then said.

Jimin nodded and stood up. He walked towards the bathroom and Yoongi followed him. "Here." Jimin coldly said. He then let his eyes go down on Yoongi, to see if his thoughts were right. And they were. He saw Yoongi was hard.

He put his finger under Yoongi's chin and whispered: "Do you want me to help you?" Yoongi groaned. He didn't react. He just walked into the bathroom. Jimin followed him. "Jimin!" Yoongi yelled. Jimin flinched.

"Fine... Fine. I'll go." Jimin walked out of the bathroom, but didn't completely close the door. Yoongi didn't notice that. He pulled down his pants and underwear. "F*ck Jimin." Jimin smirks.

Yoongi started to take care of it while Jimin kept watching. He felt himself getting hard as well, but he didn't want to stop watching.

Eventually Yoongi started to moan and he came while cursing Jimin again. Jimin quickly took a few steps back. Yoongi walked out of the bathroom after he had cleaned up.

"Are you done?" Jimin said teasingly. Yoongi growled and walked towards the dining table again to finish his food. Jimin looked back as well. He stood behind Yoongi and started to massage his neck and shoulders. Yoongi let out a soft moan. He closed his eyes and hung his head down low.

Jimin grinned and kept massaging him. Yoongi then stopped him. "Jimin..." "Yes Yoongi?" "Please stop." Yoongi said. Jimin sighed and said: "I'm going to the bathroom."

He walked away, closed the bathroom door and locked it. It took him very long to come back, so Yoongi decided to check on him.

When he stood in front of the door, he froze. Jimin was softly moaning Yoongi's name. Yoongi quickly walked away. He sat down on the couch in the living room, thinking deeply.

Jimin then walked out of the bathroom only to scream: "Yoongi! I'm going to take a shower!" Yoongi yelled back a "yes" in reply and then continued thinking.

Jimin shook his head and then took a shower. When he was done, he had a towel wrapped around his waist. With another towel, he was drying his hair. He completely forgot that Yoongi was also in his house.

Yoongi stared at Jimin's body. Jimin felt himself getting hot. He looked back at Yoongi and saw something new in his eyes.

Yoongi really tried to control himself. "Put on some clothes, then we talk." Jimin simply nodded and slowly walked towards his bedroom. He chose some nice and comfortable clothes and then walked back to the couch where Yoongi was sitting.

"You wanted to know why I'm here, right?" Yoongi coldly said. Jimin nodded once again. "Yes, yes I do."

"It all started when I was a young child. I don't exactly know the reason why, but they suddenly started to torture me. They tortured me and used me. They always were harsh and rude."

Yoongi sighed before continuing. "My parents have never accepted my dream of becoming a K-pop idol. I had to do all the auditions secretly. I managed to do that and my parents didn't notice it. But then it went wrong... I came back from the last audition and saw that my parents were already home. They were very angry. Until I told them where I had been, I wasn't allowed to eat. The first days I had to come downstairs only to watch them eat, while I couldn't. I was so hungry."

"Then why didn't you just tell them where you were? You also could've lied." Jimin said.

"If I lied and my parents would find out, I'd be dead. Same for if I told them. They strictly forbid me to audition, or dance and sing in general."

He looked at Jimin who was nervously playing with his hands. Then he continued.

"I tortured myself while I was in my bedroom. I made multiple cuts in my skin. I cried and slammed my head against the wall. I couldn't handle it anymore. That's when I gave up and decided to call you. I knew that I had to be gone from that house."

"Oh Yoongi...." Jimin started to cry and hugged Yoongi tightly. Yoongi bit his lip, trying not to cry. "It's okay now. Cause now I'm here with you and I will never go back to that house again."

"Promise me." Jimin said. "What?" "Promise me you won't ever go back to that house again." "I promise you Jimin." Jimin hugged him tighter and whispered: "Thanks."

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It took me really long to write this. I hope it's good and that I didn't make a lot of grammatical mistakes. This chapter is very special to me, so I hope you liked it!