REALIZE

"What's our schedule for today?" I asked. We're here at may van and my manager's driving while my PA is sitting beside my manager. In other word, I'm lonely here at the back seat. It's early in the morning and they told me to change because we're gonna travel.

"We're going to Jeju Island. You're gonna shoot for summer magazine" Anna answered. I just nodded. Its currently 5 am and the travel time to Jeju is almost 3 hours so I have a plenty of time to do whatever I wanted

"Ohhh right! I'm gonna do Vlive!" I said and got out my phone. I actually have 2 phones. 1 for business contacts and another for personal contacts

"Hi guys!" I said and waved at the camera. I immediately saw the comments of my fans that made me smile "Today, I'm on my way to a shoot so better be tuned in to my updates in my social media accounts!" "How are you guys? Its been weeks after my live and I missed you guys. I'm sorry if I can't update you or do Vlive, my schedule is really full so just wait and you'll find out everything soon!" I said and read some comments

"Did you watch the going seventeen where I appeared?" I asked and laughed

"Where is SVT?" I read the comments "They're at their dorm hahahaha" I said. My other phone suddenly rang so I took it out "Wait" I said to the viewers

"Ohhh it's Scoups oppa" I said and showed them the caller's ID

"Hello? Oppa!" I greeted him

[ Where are you? ]

"I'm on my way to our shoot. Why?"

[ I'm here at Dubai and we're strolling around. You want anything? ]

I read some comments and they're asking me to loud speaker oppa

"Oppa, I'm doing a Vlive now. They want to hear you. I'm gonna loud speaker you" I said and pressed the loud speaker

[ Oh? Okay ]

"Say hiii" I teased

[ Hi everyone! SVT Scoups here ] he greeted that made me laugh. I laughed again when I read some comments

"Oppa, they said that your voice is so hot kekekeke" I read the comments and he just laughed

"What is it again?" I asked

[ Oh right! I'm strolling around here in Dubai and I'm asking if you want anything. Souvenir? Food? Things? ] he said

"Ey how many times should I tell you not to buy me things. I can buy for my self and just save your money okay? You're spoiling me" I said

[ Ey c'mon! don't! just accept okay? You're already spoiled by us HAHAHAHA ]

"Aish anything will do as long as that won't burden you" I said

[ Okay. Oh oh! I saw the right souvenir for you ]

"Okay okay. Byeee. Say bye now" I said

[ Bye guys! ] he said to our fans

"Take care okay? byeee" I said and ended the call.

I just talked with the fans and answered some of their questions "We're near our set so I will end now. Bye guys! stay healthy and take care!" I said and blew a kiss before ending the live

Actually, we're still far but I just said that because I'm sleepy so I slept and Anna woke me up and we went outside. I saw a lot of flowers and there are tents also Where we're gonna rest

"Good job everyone!" The director said after our last shot

"Thank you" i said and bowed to them. I went to my tent and changed my clothes

"You're going where madam?" Anna asked as I enter the van

"I have dinner with Joshua and Jeonghan oppa. Oppa, drop me to the Seoul Land" I said to my manager and he nodded before starting the engine and drove away

Around 5 pm when I arrived there. I saw a lot of people so I wore a mask and cap and my black jacket

"You can go now and rest guys, see you tomorrow! Thank you" I said to them before going out of the Van

"Oppa!" I shouted and waved my hand as I walk towards him

"How's schedule?" Joshua oppa asked

"Its fine. Where is Jeonghan oppa?" I asked and he sighed

"He said he cant come. He said he need to focus training Sunnie a lot" he said. I nodded and we went inside.

I understand that he's busy teaching them but you know, i can't help it but to feel sad. We barely see each other. I felt like I don't have a boyfriend. He won't even text or call me

"But I thought just the 3 of them are going to debut? Why did they involved Sunnie?" I asked

"I heard that the CEO personally picked her to debut because he saw that she's ready" Joshua oppa said and just shrugged

Even though its just the two of us, i still enjoyed it but it would be nice and happier if my honey is here

"Meat restaurant?" He asked. I smiled and nodded

"I'm really hungry. I only ate apple this whole day" i said after we ordered

"I know you want here that's why I brought you here. There's a sea food restaurant there and Seungkwan said that its delicious but I know that your allergic so..." He said and I smiled

"Eyy you're so thoughtful.. thank you oppa" I said and he just smiled

The next day, I woke up early because Woozi oppa texted me, asking me to come with him and exercise to the gym. I said yes and minutes later, I heard the door bell rang before I heard him punching my codes

Well, we know each other's pass codes but for privacy purposes, we need to inform each other through text or call that we're coming and we need to rang the bell first before punching the codes and going inside

"Oppa, wait. I'll just get my things" I said and went to my room. I'm wearing a red jagger pants and a sports bra with my 1/4 white see-through blouse and a white shoes

I packed an extra clothes and my important things on my mini back pack before going out

"Good morning" the guard in Pledis' building greeted. We smiled and greeted him too

"Where are the others?" I asked Woozi oppa

"They're already there" he said

"Ah oppa! Can we like dance cover your song 'flower?'. Its been a long time and I really wanted to cover that dance please?" I asked him. The choreo is so beautiful so I want to learn it

"Okay but we need 6 members. Who will do the other parts?" He asked and we enter the gym here in the building

I saw Dk, Hoshi, Joshua, Seungkwan and Wonwoo oppa, exercising

"Good morning!" I greeted them hyper. They looked at us and greeted us also

"Them!" I answered to Woozi's oppa earlier

"Oppas, do you have any schedule later?" I asked

"They dont have but I have" Wonwoo oppa said. "Where gonna train them again" he said. I smiled and nodded. Means I cant see my honey again

"Then we're complete now! You and me, Joshua, Dk, Hoshi and Seungkwan oppa" I said to Woozi oppa

"What? What are we going to do?" Seungkwan oppa asked

"She wants to do dance cover with our flower" Woozi oppa answered

"Call!" Seungkwan oppa said

"That's great! Teach us I don't know the choreo" Dk oppa said

We starter stretching first and we're just following a video before really doing exercise. I looked at the door when it opened and Jeonghan, Sunnie and the 3 girls entered

"Oppa!" I said, happy and ran to him. I hugged him and he hugged me too

"Yah you didn't came yesterday" I said and pout

"I know and I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you" he said. He smiled and kissed my cheeks

"I thought you're gonna rest?" Joshua oppa asked Jeonghan

"H-Huh? I a-actually w-went to Angel's dorm but she's not there. The guard told me you g-guys went h-here" he said and sighed

"Why did you come with them?" Woozi oppa asked and looked at the 4 girls

"Ah... I-I just s-saw them outside. So we came here together. Yes that right" Jeonghan oppa said and smiled at me. I knot my forehead... He seems.... Weird

"Let's start!" Jeonghan oppa said and start doing his own exercise. I looked at Dahyee, Chungja and Jahyee. They smiled at me so I smiled too. I looked at Sunnie but she's looking at my honey. I just shrugged it and continue doing my exercise

"Yah Angel, stop now will you? You keep on running there for an hour already" Seungkwan oppa said. They are all sitting down the floor but I keep on running here on this treadmill

Something's bothering me and I can't understand why do I feel weird. Like something's bad is going to happen

I keep on thinking but I can't think of anything

"Angel" I heard Joshua oppa called me

"I ate meat yesterday. I need to exercise" I said seriously. I wore my ear pods and listened to music just to clear my thoughts

"Ey stop now. What if you collapse? Jeonghan, your girlfriend is really hard headed" I still heard Hoshi oppa said and Jeonghan oppa just chuckled

After 30 minutes I decided to stop. I sat beside Joshua oppa since it's the only empty space. I looked around and noticed that Sunnie was sitting beside my honey. I watched them and she handed my honey some tissue. Jeonghan accepted it and smiled to her

Ha! I can easily see, I can clearly see that Sunnie likes my honey. I know just by the way she looks at him, as if she's seeing a greek god and she really admires him. Well, she's sorry. My honey's taken

"Hey, stop staring. She might melt" Joshua oppa whispered. I rolled my eyes to him and drank my water. Then so be it so that she can be gone

"Should we start shooting the video?" Woozi oppa asked. We're just done practicing for our dance cover. My part was Jeonghan oppa's part so I'm happy. But he's busy teaching the girls again with Wonwoo and Dino oppa. We're using the practice room half-half since it's big

We nodded and Woozi oppa brought out a camera "Sunnie, can you shoot as a video?" Woozi oppa asked Sunnie. Sunnie smlied and nodded but I saw her gulped. Is she nervous?

"Ladies, can you move here, we're just gonna shoot a video and it will just take 3 minutes. You can rest too" Seungkwan oppa said and pointed out the corner where they won't catch by the camera

Jeonghan oppa went to me and gave me tissues. I smiled and thanked him. I noticed Sunnie was looking at us. I smirked and kiss Jeonghan oppa at his lips

"Woah woah woah! Calm down you PDA people!" Seungkwan oppa said and I just laughed

"Miss me?" Jeonghan asked and he puts his hands on my waist

"Ofcourse. It's been weeks and we barely see each other" I said and pouted

"I'll make it up to you" He said and pecked my lips again. I smiled and hugged him. I can see through my peripheral vision that Sunnie is looking at us with his blank face

I heard a bottle was thrown "Stop!" Seungkwan oppa said and he threw an empty bottle water to Jeonghan oppa again. I just laughed and unwrapped the hug

"I'll hit the slate. 1,2,3" Hoshi oppa said and clapped his hands once . We positioned ourselves and the Jeonghan oppa started the music.

After the dance, we all went to drink our water. Woozi oppa went to Sunnie to see the video and I can see disappointment on his face

"Is it okay?" Sunnie said, almost whispered

"Can you take it again? The angle is not balance" Woozi oppa said and Sunnie nodded, looking afraid. I smirked. That's what you get for trying to flirt with my honey

"Okay, we'll take again" Woozi oppa announced. I sighed after wiping my sweats and positioned again. After the dance, Woozi oppa checked the video again and again and again

"Sunnie, this is the 5th time. I already told you how to balance the angle right?" Woozi oppa said, trying not to raise his voice to her "I'll get it" Jeonghan oppa presented. I rose my eyebrow. What?!

"What took you so long to suggest? I'm so tired! If it wasn't for Angel, I wouldn't do it anymore" Seungkwan oppa said as he breathes deeply

"Aww I'm so touched oppa. Saranghae" I said and made a finger heart. My honey went to Sunnie and get the camera

"I'm sorry oppa" I heard Sunnie whispered. I narrowed my eyes. Why is her voice sound like... she's doing aegyo? and say what? OPPA?! "Ey it's okay. Dahyee, you play the music" My honey said. Dahyee nodded and got the tablet. Sunnie looked at me with a smirk. She definitely like my honey. MY HONEY!

Ha! I knew it! She's up to something. She purposely did that! Argh she's so irritating! I know I'm a good person but duh! I have bad sides! She really don't know how to took videos and she took advantage to that just so my honey will pity her and helped her. Ha! I can't believe this

Well, they are right, We're not the same. We're not the same level. We positioned again and Jeonghan started filming us. When the song ended, we checked the video and it came out well

"Post it on your channel" I said "Yes, madam!" Woozi oppa said that made me laugh

They're really spoiling me.....

"I'm... hungry" I said and let out an innocent smile "Alright let's go outside?" Woozi oppa suggest and I immediately nodded

"What about you guys?" Woozi oppa asked Hoshi oppa who's talking to Joshua and Seungkwan oppa

"Of course! duh!" Dk oppa said in a girl tone and flipped his invisible hair

"You?" I asked Jeonghan oppa. "No hon, later. We still need to practice for more" he said. I looked at Sunnie and she smirked at me like she's saying that she won. I rolled my eyes to her

How can she won? I'm the girlfriend!

"Go now and rest okay?" Jeonghan said and kissed my forehead. I suddenly lost my mood to eat, thinking that he's gonna spend his time with that.... that girl. Argh!

I pushed Jeonghan away and rolled my eyes to him before walking out "Angel!" I heard him shouted but I already went outside and shut the door loudly

I walked my way to the Han river just to clear my mind. What happened earlier may looked like childish but can you blame me? Imagine, your boyfriend, spending his whole time, day and week with the girl that you know have feelings for your boyfriend

It's terrifying because she might succeed on snatching my honey away....

Instead of me, he always spend time with that girl. He can't even come to my condo to visit me even though I just live upstairs of their dorm. He can't even text or call me just to see if i'm okay. They don't have any schedule so he's supposed to have a lot of time but... no... He spends a lot of time with that witch! Don't they take breaks? why can't he even check on me?

I know it's work related but what about me?

I sometimes forgot that I have a boyfriend

I remember, here, I knew that he loves Sowon unnie.... Here at the river too, this is where we start our relationship... And now, I'm here again.... because of him.. I sighed

"That's deep huh. What are you thinking?" I looked at my beside and let out a small smile to Joshua oppa

"I hate her" I said and looked at the river

"Who?"

"Her! That witch! Sunnie!" I said, angry

"Woah woah, calm down. What happened?" he asked. I sighed and blew the air

"Sunnie likes my honey. I can see it through her eyes! She purposely did bad on taking the video so that Jeonghan will help her. She's a witch!" I said. I picked a stone and threw it on the river

"How can you say that?" he asked "Hello? girls thing? It's all written in her face and moves. Did you saw her earlier? She gave Jeonghan some tissue and she stares at him lovely" I said and threw a stone again

"Maybe you're just imagining things" I, irritated, faced him

"Oppa, I'm not dumb. You can see it on the person's eyes, attitude and face if they like someone right?" I asked, nearly to cry. I stopped my tears and faced the river

"Ey how about you and me? I also gave you tissues and I take care of you right?" he asked

"That's not the same! we're best friends and them? are they friends?" I asked

"I'm scared.. What if Jeonghan fell for her?" I added and my tears starts to fall

"That's not gonna happen. You know how much he loves you right?" he sighed and caress my back

"Love? Ha! I even forget sometimes that I have a boyfriend. Is she more important than me? She can debut and practice on her own! There is no need to always focus on her! He's spending all of his time for her while me, he can't even text, call or check on me" I rant. I felt my heart, breaking as I told him how I felt

"Just trust on him okay? If he really loves you, he won't replace you. Stop crying" He said and hugged me

I also remember the day when Joshua oppa was there when I knew that Jeonghan loves Sowon. He was there and he was the reason, how me and Jeonghan became a couple

And now, on times of this situation, here, in front of the river, He's still here.... for me

He's always there for me...