BULLYING

I woke up around 5 am upon hearing my phone rang. I picked it up and answered without looking at the caller's ID

"Hello?"

[Angel! Good morning! Are you ready? School starts at 9. I'll be there in 8] I got up of the sofa where I sleep, and removed the blanket above me. I didn't manage to go home last night. I looked around and notice the unfamiliar surrounding.

I nodded to my self as I remember, I'm at Seventeen's dorm since I took them home last night. I stood up and went to the kitchen and prepared them a soup to ease their hang over. After that, I looked for a pharmacy and bought them some pain killers for their hang over too.

I went back to their dorm and place the pills on the counter top table in their kitchen, beside the soup. I wrote them a letter on a sticky note and placed it with the pills. I got my things and went out. I rode a taxi and went home. I did everything I need to do before I went for a shower and immediately arrange my self to look presentable.

Around 8:20 when I heard my door bell rang. I got my bag and put on my shoes before opening the door to see Jooha, waiting for me

"Lets go?" He asked and I nodded. We didn't waste any time and rode a bus. While riding the bus, he's instructing me the ways and what bus should I take. I looked outside the window and saw some students walking, we have the same yellow uniform so I guess they're my school mates.

Around 8:40 when we got out of the bus. Its not that long distant anyway. I saw a guard with a teacher who's checking everyone if they put on the complete uniforms. We're not late so he didn't stop us so Jooha guided me to the faculty room and introduced me to our teacher before he went to our room first.

When the bell rang, the teacher, Sir got up and gestured me to follow him. I followed him and he stopped at a door room where it is labeled 'room 1-3'

He went in first and greet the students "Good morning everyone, no one came late right? I hope you'll get serious with your studies because next year, you'll become seniors okay?"

"Yes'' I heard them agreed

"Okay, we have a new student and she came from another country so I hope you can help her with her studies here. Come in" i heard the teacher said so I went slowly inside

"Introduce yourself" I nodded and looked at everyone who's waiting for me to speak

"Hi! I'm Angel. Sung Angel is my korean name. Nice to meet you" I said and smiled. They all smiled at me while clapping their hands, They looked amazed. I understand since it's very strange for a student to transfer in the middle of semester.

"Okay, seat beside Kino" he said and pointed a boy, sitting beside the window. On his right chair was empty so I sat there

"Hi'' he cheerfully greeted me. "Hello" I said and smiled at him, he smiled at me before he looked at the teacher who's speaking in front.

"Angel! Are you going home?" Kino suddenly showed himself while Jooha and I are walking towards the school gate.

"No. We're going to eat. Wanna come?" I asked him and Kino nodded. We all talked while walking and searching for a food. I noticed Kino and Jooha looks close

"Are you guys friends?" I asked and looked at them both. They're standing beside me so I had to look at my left and right to see them. Jooha is in my right and Kino is in my left

"Yes! But these past few days we barely go out sine he's busy and he told me he have part time job" Kino acted sulky

I looked at Jooha "Its true though" he said and shrugged

"How about you? Don't you have to go home?" He asked I shook my head

"Nope. I still have an hour" I answered. My practice starts at 4pm and its just 3:10 so I still have time. Besides, I already habe clothes here for my practices this week so I don't need to go home and i'll just leave it in my locker.

We decided to eat on a cafe. They ordered for me while i looked for a seat. I sat on the table with 4 and reserved the seat beside me and in front of me.

10 minutes had passed when Jooha placed a tray in our table. He gave me my order, strawberry latte and a bread. He sat beside me so Kino sat in front of me

"Whats your dream company Kino?" I asked while eating my bread

"Hmm? Big hit entertairmet. I'am actually a trainee now. Jooha and I agreed to auditioned there" He shrugged

"But he didn't auditioned yet?" I asked. I remember Jooha told me that he would audition if Bighit's audition for trainees are open.

"He already auditioned. We both got in and continuously training for a year now" He said as if its not a big deal

I looked at Jooha. He told me that he will audition if Bighit is open then Kino will told me that he's already a trainee?! A year trainee?!

"Hehe. Its because we're not close that time. I don't know if I can tell you since the agency told us not to mention it with others" he defended himself

"But I told you mine the day we met!" I said. He smiled and peace sign but i just rolled my eyes

"How about you?" Kino asked

"I'm a trainee under pledis" I said. He looked at me shock

"But they have boy groups only! Seventeen and Nuest. They accept girls?" He asked shock

I shrugged "I don't know. I passed so I think so" I said. I can see girl trainees also but I can count them with my hands unlike boy trainees. They are more a lot than girl trainees

"Don't you remember? They have a lot of girl idols before but they left and got disbanded? Only Nuest and Seventeen sunbaenims remain active" Jooha told us.

"Bye bye!" I waved my hand before getting on the bus. I'm on my way to the building to practice since it's already 3:50. Jooha went to his part time job and Kino went to practice, same us me. Kino told me that Jooha has his own practice schedule and I didn't asked more about it. The building wasn't far so minutes later, I got out of the bus and went inside the building. The guard greeted me and I just smiled at him. I saw Siwoon so I went to him.

"Siwoon!" I happily greeted him and he just smiled.

"You're here? Good. I'm on my way to your practice area" He said and we walked together, side by side

"Hm? Are you going to announce something?" I asked. He smiled and looked at my paper bag where my clothes are. It's like 10 pairs of t-shirts and pants since I need to change before practice and after practice.

"Is that heavy? Let me carry it" I don't have any time to protest since he just grab it and he carried it on his left hand

"Siwoon, what's your age? you look young" I asked curiously

"I was born 1996" He said. I count in my head and looked at him shock. "You're just 25 years old?!" he laughed at my reaction. His korean age is 25 and his international age is 24

"Waa! You're younger than Jeonghan oppa, Scoups oppa, Joshua oppa and Jun oppa?" I looked at him amazed. "1 year apart?" he said unsure,like it wasn't a big deal. Yes it is a big deal! 4 of them was already 26. So he have the same age as Hoshi oppa?

He opened the practice room's door for me. I let myself in and I can felt their eyes, looking at me. I'm now used to it but its just weird. The are eyeing me like its their first time seeing me. I always saw some of them whispering about me but I cant hear it and I'm just shrugging it off.

"I just want to remind all of you that next week, we are going to held our evaluation this month. All of you knew that this happens every month right? So start preparing for your solo performance. Thank you" Siwoon announced. He looked at me and smiled before going out.

I can feel their eyes again but I just went to my locker and place some of my clothes inside. I got a pair of pants and a t-shirt and went inside the cubicle so I can change my uniform. I heard someone entered the room and they are talking about me

"That Angel is getting into my nerves! She's not belong here!" I heard a girl said

"I cant believe Mr. Siwoon opened the door for her earlier! What is she? A princess?!" I heard the girl no. 2

"She's not that pretty either! I'm more prettier, smarter and talented than her" said the girl no. 3

"Did you heard her sing? She sound like a rat!" Girl no. 1 said

I stayed quiet and didn't left the cubicle until they left. When they left, I went outside the cubicle and stared at my reflection in the mirror in front of me

I found myself crying because I felt helpless. I'm starting to doubt my self if i really have a talent.

I sighed and tried not to think of it. So that's how they think of me huh? I wiped my tears and wash my face. I went outside the practice room and i can hear other whispers

"Seventeen oppas are here! Let's go to the cafeteria!" I heard a girl said. I didn't give any attention and went to the dance practice. This dance practice was meant for idols that already debuted and we, trainees are not allowed here. But I still went inside, I can't stand practicing with those toxic people.

I looked my self in front of the mirror. I can see my head to toe. Am I not worth it? I think I really can't do it.

I shook my head. No! I don't want to listen to them. They don't know nothing about me. I want to say that words to them, but I can't open my lips and throw them words. Thinking of it makes my heart broke. I can't speak for my self....

I wiped my tears and took a deep breath. I got my phone and tried to practice my voice and sing. While singing, my tears started to fall and many thoughts have come to my mind

Here comes the toxic people, trying to wash me and put me away.. I can't speak for my self... I don't want to hurt them by my words...

But I can't cry... I can't be weak.... I'm alone here.... I can't survive here if I'm weak. I can't be weak... Not for my dream... Not for myself.... I'm here alone, I can't relay on anyone.... I dont even know if I could trust them..... I'm afraid...

Maybe one of these days, the time will come, that I won't be afraid to speak for my self..

I'm catching my breath as I looked at my self in the mirror. I'm fine now... I need to be fine... It won't do good if I broke down here... I don't have a time to break down.... I can't....

I immediately wiped my tears as I heard the door opened. I bowed at that person without looking at him or her "I'm sorry, I entered this practice room. I'll go now" I'm looking down, hiding my face, afraid he or she would see me weak.

As I passed through him or her, he or she grabbed my arms

"Angel" I heard a soft voice of a man. I sighed deeply and looked at him.

"What?" I asked. It was Jeonghan oppa.

"Are you okay? You can talk to me?" he offered. I gave him a fake smile, stopping my tears from falling down.

"Yes, I'm fine. I guess I just entered the wrong practice room since I'm new here. I'll go now" I quickly bowed at him and walked away. As I shut the door behind me, tears started to fall again. I took a deep breath and wiped them away.. I don't have time to be weak...

I can't be weak......