ch 6. forgiveness

joon sucked the left nipple roughly, his hand played with the right one. his face and hand came up and devoured jimins mouth and pulled on his hair. jimin tried to held his eyes open the whole time. since he could see his stranger, he wanted to see his face all time. but again the plesure he received made him close his eyes from time to time. like now. jimin wraped his legs around joons hips and pulled him closer. joons hips intensify their thrusts into jimin and jimin pushed his own hips up to have him deeper. the sun lightend the room, danced on their bodys, let their eyes lightend up in brighter colours. joons face was close and he watched jimins face, focused on his beautiful eyes, elegantly swung brows, the cute nose, the high cheeks, fully lips to die for. joon couldnt get enough. and now he saw that all in bright light, he was allowed to bury his cock deep into this wonderful creature. jimin didnt rejected him when he saw who it was. he wanted him. joon kissed jimin deeply. his heart was about to give out by the feeling. he wanted him.

tae chatted with tristan in the gardens. they had spend almost the whole day together. he heard rumors about kook fucking around. it made him sad, angry and depressed, but tae thought that it was right. he still thought he didnt deserve kook, but seeing him kissing girls made him really mad sometimes. suddenly tristan leand in and kissed tae on the mouth. tae was too shocked to react right away, so tristan thought he could continue. he grabed taes face and pressed on him more. tae yanked his head away. he stood up quickly. "what are u doing?" "kissing u" tae whiped his mouth. "why?" "i thought u are up for it? come on tae! i know u are gay" "i am not! what the hell gives u that idea?" tristan stood up too. "i saw u with another one on the party we first met. u kissed him." tae was speechless, he let his head down. "that was just because i was drunk. i dont fancy guys. sorry" he turned and wanted to walk away. tristan held him back. "wait. lets talk about this." "i dont wanna talk about it. let me go." tristan came close. "if u dont do what i say, i will make sure, that everyone in your school and town will know that u like to suck cocks and have them inside of u." tae looked shocked. "what u say? why should anyone belive u?" "cause u are not liked here tae. u are unattractive, ugly and now a homo. u are disgusting" tae flinshed and backed away. "than why are u spending time with me? let me go" "u are going to be my toy, tae. i will fuck u good, cause nobody ever will like to do that to u. no girl, no guy" tae tried to get out of tristans grip. "i said, let me go. i dont wanna let u fuck me." tristan chuckelt. "u will. i will destroy your life otherwise tae" he threatend him. tae swung his arm and hit tristan really hard. free at last, he ran away. kook saw it all. he saw tae punshing the guy and runing away. slowly he aproched tristan, who sat on the ground and held his cheek, cursing profanitys. kook grabt him on the collar of tristans shirt and pulled him close. "if u ever, i mean EVER come close to tae again, i WILL hurt u. if u spread rumors about him, whats so ever, even if its just a bit, i WILL destroy u. got that? and just for your information, its not just me who will hurt u, tae has friends." he growled at tristan. tristans eyes went wide, he was shoked. he recognized this guy, it was the one who tae kissed on valeries party. "you?!" kook smiled. "did u understand?" tristan noded fastly. "one word about tae and i make your life missrable (?)."

tae ran into his room and cried his eyes out. he was desperate. now everything was going down the drain. if tristan was doing what he said, his parents eventually will hear about it too. he had no escape, no he had one. tae sat up, whiped his tears and looked for his boxcutter. he will escape from all of this shit what was his life. it was time. he felt sorry for jimin and jin. his friends will not understand. tae took out a paper and his pen. "dear jimin, dear jin,...."

kook went to taes floor. he needed to talk to him, he was just not sure, if tae would let him. kook sighed. no, he had too. he had to tell him, that he loved him, he needed to tell him that he was his everything. kook didnt knock, he opend the door and froze.

"now tell me" jimin panted and layed on joon. joon smiled. he stroke jimins hair. "first, u know...it was....hmm....just the fuck." "how did u know?" "heard rumors about the highschool teacher" jimin looked ashamed away. "oh....yeah....." joon chuckelt. "i think i always wanted u....wasnt sure tho...." "but u asshole bullied me the whole time" "sorry for that. i just couldnt understand why i felt like this when u were near.....it was like coping with it....stupid i know" "hmm....very stupid. and than?" "i realised i was looking forward to feel u again. i wanted to feel u so badly... i was excited every time i found a new hiding place" "i noticed that" joon laught. "why were u so eager to get into trouble with me anyway?" jimin looked up. "i was kinda sucked in into this.....something. it was thrilling. dont judge me" joon laught again. "i would never judge u. we both wanted it. and one day, i had to admit i knew i loved u." "that was when we didnt have sex? right? i knew it!" jimin put on a triumpfant (?) face. "yeah, that day in the attic." jimin smiled brightly, but lost it soon "how did leland knew about it? we were so carefully" "i heard some blocks talk, he apperently saw u going into the bathroom at valeries and heard us. he wanted to film by the way your encounter." jimin got angry. "this fucking asshole! he really got me belive it was him. i wanna hurt him really bad" joon smiled. this was his monchichi. "we will. but more importantly: are u my boyfriend now, jimin?" jimin looked back at him and was surprised. "really?" joon noded "yeah, of course." "u want us to be officially a couple? with everyone to know?" "yes. why are u surprised?" "the faces of our classmates would be a great treat" jimin giggelt. "so?" jimin looked at him, smiled, kissed him and noded. "yeah. of course" joon smiled wide and captured jimins mouth.

"stop! dont do that!" kook almost screamed out. tae flinched and cut himself. the boxcutter fell from his hand. kook ran to him, he slipped out of his shirt and pressed it on the wound. "why would u do such fucking shit, tae?" kook cursed. tae looked wide at him. "what are u doing here? and what u know about my life? u know nothing!" "because u never told me a thing, taehyung" "so now its my fault?" kook sighed. "listen. i am not here to argue, i am here to confess to u." "u....what?" "confess" "what for?" "that i love u" tae backed away. "dont fuck with me. what the hell jungkook?!" he slapped him. "why are u hitting me?" "why are u playing games with me?" kook stood up and pulled tae with him. "listen. sorry that i hurt u, sorry that i wasted so much time to realize what i should know from the first day. i love u tae. there is nothing else, or anyone else." "okay, after u fucked almost every girl available in here, you tought of me again. nice, jungkook. really fucking great." tae turned away. kook was frustrated. he pushed tae on the bed and hovert over him. "listen u stuborn shithead. I...L...O...V...E...U!!!" tae turned his head away, he didnt wanna look at him. "u are lying. u just want someone to fuck" kooks hand grabd hard on taes face and turned it to him. "yeah i made mistakes, a lot of mistakes, but it was never in my mind to hurt u on purpose. i am an asshole, i am a jerk, but i love u, tae. i always did, but was afraid to out me as gay. if i admit my feeling to u i would be gay. and i never loved someone. u are my first tae. thats why i sometimes dont know how to act. i was jealous, i was angry, i thought i could kill tristan, when you spent time with him." tae listend to everything, tears still ran down his cheeks. "why should u love me?" he bawld out. kook layed on him and whiped away the tears. his lips were close to taes. "cause u are gorgeous! u are so beautiful, funny, smart, sexy. u never judged me, u are my everything, tae. please belive me." tae cried even more. "tristan is gonna spread rumors about me. and if u stay with me, it will affect your image too." "i made sure he wont talk about u" tae stopt crying and put his hand away from his eyes. "u did what?" kook smiled an evil one. "he will not tell anyone" tae had a hickup. kook kissed his face all over. "please dont cry. i am serious. i will stand by your side. nobody will hurt u." "and u want to know everyone?" kook looked at him, deeply into his eyes. "yeah. i dont care what anyone will think. i have the right to be with the one i want and need. we have the right to be together. and u have the right to be loved, tae. let me love u, please? let me be the one" tae smiled a bit. "are u really serious?" kook noded. "absolutley. i will not back away again." he kissed tae softly.

hobi closed the door and saw yoongi sleeping. hobi locked the door and took a chair right next to yoongi, sat down and watched him sleep. he took a deep breath and shook yoongis shoulder. cursing yoongi woke up and flinshed back, when he saw hope. "what are u doing in here? i told u not to come to my room." "we need to talk" "why should i wanna listen to u? get out!" yoongi was angry. hope slapped him hard. yoongi was surprised and held his cheek. "what the fuck..." "shut up and for ones listen!" yoongi went silent. hobi took in a big breath and explained yoongi everything. his feelings of neglect, unloved, unpreciated. yoongi listend carefully and let his head down. he knew he made mistakes too. "but i always thought u knew me" "i am not a mindreader, yoongi. i thought u got bored of me. and yes i know cheating on u was an asshole act on my side. i regret that really. i should have talked to you about my pain. i am so sorry about everything! i have to admit tho, that a part of me wanted u to know and react of the cheating. i thought u would fight for me. i never thought it would end like this. i know stupid." yoongi stayed silent for a long time. hope sat there and waited for the verdict. he swore himself to acept everything.

joon walked down the floor. in the staircase he came across leland again. joon shot to him, put leland into a headlock. "come close to jimin again and i will kill u." leland tapped joons arm. he needed air. "do u understand?" "yeah...." joon let leland go. "if i ever heard something about him, the slightest rumor, i will find u" "why are u concerned about him anyway? he is just a little faggot" joon slapped him. "he is my boyfriend. never come close again" with that he let leleand stand there.

kook wraped taes wrist and watched him sleep. tae was exhausted after all emotions he had this day. kook stroke his hair, caressed the face. pulled the glasses off and carefully put them down on the nightstand. he layed down and wraped his arms around tae. finally he held him again.

"i am sorry. i.... i thought everything was okay. .... we should talk more for now on. never suppress your feelings again. tell me if i make u uncomfortable." hobi cried and noded. "come here" yoongi held out his arms.