Episode 48: Making up or making out? Ain't it the same?

Teo put a finger over Josh's thick glossy smooth lips to prevent him from saying another word.

"You won't say that here, got it?. A restroom, really? Couldn't you pick a better place"

He crouched at Josh's level to cover his mouth with his large hand causing the latter to ponder what was wrong with this place if all he intended to do was give a confidence boost to his beloved and dramatic boyfriend.

"Why? You were the one who picked up this place"

Josh said bluntly after moving Teo's hand aside even though his boyfriend pressed it harder to prevent him from talking.

"Because that's not how I dreamt it'd be!"

Josh pondered within himself if receiving a quick blow job in a bathroom was old fashioned.

"Then where?"

Teo frowned, trying to describe his thoughts so he could understand him, which were far from what Josh had in mind.

"I have many places in mind, but the ones I've dreamt of the most are listed from bottom to top: On a flower field surrounded by nature on a sunny spring day… the beach is acceptable too, at sunset with the crystal waves kissing our bare feet… And the one which takes the top is in the Eiffel tower under a starry night just the two of us, maybe bringing a violinist to liven up the environment."

Josh's eyes shot open as he was detailed with his wishes, finding it somewhat intriguing knowing he didn't want an audience witnessing their acts, for sure the last one would get them in jail for immorality if they tried it there.

"The last one is out of the table, just NO. We can't do it there with onlookers on sight, but I'm up for two firsts"

Teo nodded realizing the whole trip to Paris might take longer than expected due he hasn't renovated his passport yet.

"Don't pick too fast, we still could try the last one… would you be willing to wait three months?"

Josh coughed as he choked on his own spit as he wasn't expecting such a response. However, what shocked him was the long wait, it would give him a hard time keeping his hands to himself, that and permanent blue balls.

Teo let go of him to rub his back, thinking maybe he felt pressured into fulfilling his wishes.

"You know what? Let's forget about this. You don't have to if–"

Josh cut him off after he could get some intake of air again.

"Is that what you really want? Is that how you want me to do it?"

"I do… Don't you?"

Teo spoke feeling guilty as his boyfriend held his hand whilst Josh's concerned loving eyes looked for his bewildered ones.

"I get it, Jeez… hope you don't mind sleeping in jail after that… I don't really see the problem of doing it here tho, three months is a lot of time and I don't think we could wait that long."

Teo pouted a little and nodded, yet he had to say it out loud as he couldn't allow his boyfriend to propose to him in a bathroom.

"This is not romantic at all. I don't want to look back years ahead and say: 'Do you remember the time you proposed to me in my friend's restroom with the toiletries as witnesses?"

Josh choked again but this time due he laughed after gasping, his boyfriend's mind was truly a fascinating place to live in.

"Hey! What's it now? Don't die on me, silly"

Teo rubbed his back again whilst Josh tried to regain control over himself yet he burst out laughing again.

"Now you're laughing? This is not fun. Look, I'm not forcing you to do anything you were the one who started this"

Josh took a long deep breath to calm himself enough so he could be able to talk without cracking up again, noticing Teo's frown was clear it would only call for troubles.

"How do I say this without sounding like an arse… Don't you think it's too soon for- for that?"

Josh's voice was loving and gentle whilst he held Teo's hand with the same intensity to get his words through, although they gave the latter a small heartbreak as his dreams just crumbled, they weren't there for long as it was his screws working overtime but it still hurt, his face might be straight yet his eyes brimmed with pain.

"... Anyway, I didn't want you to look at me, but it's not necessary now."

His voice was curt and hoarse as if holding back from lashing out, the sight alone hurt Josh like a punch straight to his guts so said male tried to fix it.

"Teodoro–"

"Don't call me like that. I dislike being addressed like that. None calls me like that."

He growled dangerously low, swatting his hands out of Josh's grip, getting on his feet to conceal the tears swimming in his glossy ocean eyes.

Now it was Josh's turn to feel his heart shattered a teensy little bit by that evident rejection.

"How did we end up like this?"

Josh genuinely asked, standing up, staring up at Teo who turned his back on him.

"I don't know what you're on about"

The blonde one kept his voice steady yet tears rolled down his rosy-peachy colored cheeks like droplets on a rose ready to drown under the downpour.

Josh walked over to wrap his arms around the sobbing boy who squirmed to get him off him yet the older one held him tighter hearing his soft whimpers, hesitantly, Teo lowered his head so the older couldn't see the broken well now were his glossy eyes.

"It breaks me, y'know?"

"It breaks me too. You obviously see this like a one night thing."

"NO! How could you say it like that?"

Josh said offended so his voice raised a little making Teo flinch into his hold so he quickly apologized for his mistake.

"I'm truly sorry, I didn't mean to raise my voice like that. What I meant is, if you were a one night thing I wouldn't be here now, would I?. It'd have been over that same night. I don't like to give false hopes to people, so I wouldn't tell a lie just to keep you around."

Teo arms held Josh's closing his eyes, finding his cold temperature a bit soothing, cooling his warmth body.

"If you're so honest then tell me, who am I to you?"

Josh leaned his chin over Teo's shoulder, whispering into his ear casually.

"My everything. The sun of my galaxy, the scattering light of your sparkly eyes which moved through darkness to bring life to my foggy world. Does that answer your question?"

Teo smiled but pressed his lips together to keep it to himself, eyes sparkling like sea spray over the crystal clear ocean, holding tight onto his boyfriend's arms, his voice finally warming up a little.

"A single word, not random cheesy phrases, Mr."

"Mine"

Teo whipped his head almost headbutting Josh's who moved it back an inch to avoid the hit.

"Mine, as in yours?"

"Yup! Mine. That's who you are for me, you're mine and I'm yours."

Teo wanted to kick and punch a pillow to scream into it right after as he was squeaking inside hearing this from his boyfriend with a whirlpool of emotions breaking inside his soft heart.

Josh pecked Teo's nose noticing how he pursued his lips together forcefully to control himself.

"Look. How about we go outside, enjoy the rest of the night and just enjoy our current time without thinking too far ahead, what do you say?"

Teo turned into his arms, his hands finding themselves moving up Josh's strong and slender arms, smiling brightly.

"But can I get a little kiss before we do that?"

His low baritone registered sultry and inviting undertones whilst his gaze sharpened, a sneaky hand undoing Josh's upper button.

This didn't go unseen by the older who lifted an eyebrow, stepping forward, a hand landing on the wall behind Teo, his steel gaze matching his boyfriend's, whilst his husky voice lowered 3 octaves giving shivers to the younger.

"I don't think it would do it. Maybe we shall sneak out from here and go somewhere else. A place where you can be as noisy as you want"

Teo bit his lip when Josh rolled his nose over his face until it reached his earlobe and that's when he lost it as his body screamed for more yet knowing he had to keep it low would be tough.

"I asked for a kiss… just that"

He voiced it out barely above a whisper as he restrained himself from moaning when Josh planted feathery kisses from the back of his ear.

"I'm kissing you… you never said where tho… mm"

Josh took a whiff of Teo's parfum after he spoke, his smooth lips soon returned to his lover's neck to give him an open kiss sucking his honeyed skin whilst his steamy breath rose upon his boyfriend's overly sensitive skin.

"Not there… you're gonna leave me as you did earlier… I don't want that"

Teo's whiny voice coming out as a restrained moan, gripping onto Josh's back, tilting his head to the other side allowing his lover to keep up with his playful lips moving downwards.

"What if…", Josh spoke in between breaks from kissing his golden skin, "I go all the way out?", his seductive suggestion drawing a low groan from his boyfriend who was melting by the sensations his body was going through just by the touch of those cushioned lips and playful tongue grazing over his smooth skin.

"All the way… Oh Lord, please"

Josh ran his hands down to Teo's pants to pull them down just to trip with a belt.

Teo reminisced about what caused the whole mess and he pushed Josh out of instinct, backing away in the corner turning his back on him as fast as he could.

"Is that a chastity belt?"