It’s Over

Han Sofia POV,

My fingers are busy pressing the keyboard in front of me. I'm typing my internship report right now. My internship will end at the end of this June. Time really flies.

* pip

I turned my face to the air-dresser machine behind me. Today is the last day of the concert in Paris. Tomorrow afternoon we will return to Seoul. Gyejang nim asked us to clean and pack all the costumes and equipment tonight too, so that tomorrow we have time to do a city tour before heading back to Seoul.

I took out the clean costumes from the air-dresser then put them in the plastic laundry one by one and then put them in the big suitcase.

"This is the last batch ...", I muttered as I put 3 pieces of clothes and 3 pieces of dirty trousers into the empty air-dresser earlier.

All my team members have their own jobs to do. We deliberately divide the task so that everything will get done faster. And right now I'm the one in charge of washing and packing some of the concert costumes.

I sat back down and stared at my laptop screen. It's almost 1 o'clock in the morning, my eyes are very tired due to sleepiness. Well, my sleep and rest schedule during the tour is very messy, sometimes I can only sleep after 3 am and have to wake up again at 7 am.

I sighed and laid my head against one of my arms on the table while reading the report I had just written. The atmosphere in the changing room is quite quiet because many staff have returned to the hotel. In this room there are only three people, me and two hair-stylists who are tidying their belongings.

I rubbed my eyes trying hard not to close but it was getting harder and harder to do. The soft sound of the air-dresser behind me sounded like a lullaby to my ears. Until without realizing it, my eyes slowly closed and I completely sank into the dream.

* 20 minutes later

"Sofia, Sofia ssi ... wake up. Sofia ... let's go back to the hotel", I felt someone tapping my shoulder

I opened my eyes slowly, trying to remember where I was. I saw the laptop screen in front of me while the room I was in was a little dim.

"Omo !!", I shrieked in surprise after remembering where I am right now

"Get up ... let's hurry. The car is waiting for us," said Juyoung while helping to turn off my laptop

"Oh! The clothes!", I said while turning my face towards the air-dresser was

"I have tidied everything. Come on, hurry. The others are waiting for us in the car," he said

"Ye", I felt a black jacket fall off my shoulder as I stood up

Without thinking I immediately took it and put my laptop back into the bag.

"Where are the suitcases?", I asked, looking around when I did not see a single costume suitcases that had been near me.

"Everything has been taken by the equipment staff. Come on ..", he replied as he led me to the parking lot

"Ye", I replied while walking hurriedly following Juyoung from behind

"Oppa, this is your jacket. Thank you," I said while giving the black bomber jacket that had fallen

"Huh? What do you mean? It's not my jacket", he replied chuckled as he walked slower beside me

"Huh ?? This is not yours? Then whose?", I asked, confused

"I don't know? When I came, it's already covering body," he said shrugging his shoulders

"Jinjja?" I asked, getting confused

When I got in the car, I asked the other team who owned the jacket. But none of them know about it.

I checked the jacket in my hand carefully. This bomber jacket is black, made from a cold parachute, but the inside feels very warm.

"Mastermind ...", I muttered reading the brand label

It is a Japanese brand that very famous in its country, the price of this jacket is about USD 600, I thought.

Is it possible ?, I thought.

I lifted the jacket in front of me and smelled it, the smell of musk and vanilla immediately filled my senses. Without realizing it, I closed my eyes and hugged the jacket tighter.

"Yeobo ...", I muttered softly as I opened my eyes

"Huh? Did you say something, Sofia?", Asked Haewon, turning her head at me

"Ah, ani", I replied with a small smile at her

I put the jacket back on my lap. Is this really his ?, I thought. If so, why would he do this? Was he trying to be nice to me because of his guilt ?.

I bit my lip, remembering what happened in his hotel room. He must be crazy for doing that to me. To be honest, I've never had sex before, so I could say I'm still unfamiliar with those things.

And what Yoongi did to me scared me so much, he looked so scary that night, I thought that he could rape me right then and there. I never know what he can do to me if he wants.

The memory of that horrified me so much, I shook my head and took a few deep breaths.

"Thank you", said my teammates to the driver who had escorted us

I didn't realize that we had reached the hotel. I saw several groups of teenagers wearing BT21 attributes sitting around our hotel. Are they staying in front of our hotel ?, I thought in surprise.

"Come on Sofia, I'm so tired", Youra said, taking my hand into the hotel

"Tomorrow we will have another city tour. Gather before 9 o'clock in the lobby, okay?", Said Raim when we were in the elevator

"Ani. It's not 9 o'clock, oenni. Gyejang nim said we still have to help the members to get ready for Run BTS shoot. So maybe we'll get together around 10 o'clock", answered Juyoung

"Jinjja? Where are they going to shoot? Their room?", Asked Raim, raising her eyebrows

"Ye", answered Juyoung

"Oenni, may I not join the city tour? I'm so tired, I want to rest tomorrow", said Haewon while yawning when we got out of the elevator on the floor of our room

"Ye, gwaenchana. Is there anyone who doesn't come again?", Asked Raim, staring around

"Me. I have to finish my report tomorrow", I replied, raising one of my hands

"Arasso. Juyoung~aah, Youra~aah, how about you guys?", Asked Raim as she stopped at the door of her room

"We'll join the tour", they replied simultaneously

"Arasso. See you tomorrow then. Take some rest", she said while waving at us

"Bye, oppa!", I said as I entered my room

Juyoung just waved his hand at me, too tired to answer.

When I got to the room, I immediately lay down on the bed.

"I'll wash my face first," Youra said as she went into the bathroom

I took out my cell phone, hesitantly writing down a message for Yoongi. What if it didn't belong to him ?, I thought. Finally I canceled my intention and put my cell phone back on the table beside the bed.

Then I sat down and folded the jacket. I felt there's something inside of his pockets, I put my hand and pulled out a folded paper with the words 'for Han Sofia' on it.

I frowned and slowly unfolded the paper.

"Dear Sofia,

I wrote you a letter because you didn't want to talk to me. I didn't blame you for being like this, because it's all my fault. But allow me to explain and apologize to you, Sofia. I'm really sorry for what I did to you at that time. I deserve you hate for forcibly touching your body. I was so overwhelmed by my feelings at the time that I did immoral things to you, even though I know that still can't be used as an excuse. I'm sorry, Sofia. I hope we can talk again as usual. Forgive me...

Your husband, Yoongi "

I stared blankly at the window across the room, busy digesting Yoongi's letter. I know he has regretted his actions. But I still can't forgive him.

"He's overwhelmed by his feelings? What does he mean? Is he jealous of Tae?", I muttered softly

Me and Tae are just friends, of course. I like him because he is my bias, nothing more. And he was always nice and always comforted me.

"I'm done", Youra said after getting out of the bathroom

"Ah, ye", I replied, hiding Yoongi's letter under the pillow, then went to the bathroom to change my clothes

After I lay back on the bed I wondered how I really felt about him right now. To be honest, my feelings were hurt when I heard that he had a relationship with Park Soyun. Then does it mean that I like him?, I thought, staring at the ceiling of my dark bedroom.

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The next day,

"Annyeong", I said to the stylist staff who was in the suite room where the members would be shooting

"Annyeong", they replied

I helped Haewon take out some tools from her big bag, while the production staff of Run BTS walked back and forth around us preparing the shooting equipment.

"Have you heard the gossip about Suga's relationship with Park Soyun", whispers were heard among the staff who were near me

I turned my face towards them. Has this news spread among the staff? I thought anxiously.

"Ye, of course. Many staffs said that Suga himself said about it", whispered the staff in glasses

"But the film crew said that it was just a rumor. It was just a misunderstanding", whispered the male staff

"Jinjja? But they are often seen together," said the first staff

"Ye. I also saw them meet secretly in the dining room that time", whispered the staff wearing glasses excitedly

"I don't know, a few days ago, Ji Eun heard Jin told Jimin that Suga's relationship wasn't true. I'm confused about which one to believe," whispered the male staff while shaking his head

"If this news is true, I really support their relationship. Soyun is very beautiful and Suga is also kind. They look very harmonious together", the staff with glasses giggled

"Yes, me too. Soyun is a very talented and smart girl", answered the first staff

"Ssshhhh let's work again", said the male staff ending their conversation when the members entered the suite room one by one

I sighed heavily, trying to get rid of the uncomfortable feeling from my chest.

Today the members will wear their own clothes, we will just tidy them up so they don't look wrinkled.

While helping the members, I avoided the gaze of Yoongi as much as possible. Though I guess he looked at me closely as they got ready.

"Hyung, wae? Is there something on Sofia?", Asked Jungkook chuckled

"Ani", replied Yoongi quietly

"I like Lim Hyung Joo Sunbaenin's songs these days", Tae chatting with Jimin loudly

"Do you want to become a tenor singer like him? I think your voice is suitable for the type of orchestral song", Jimin replied smiling at him

"I like him too, Hope you'll be happy is my favorite song", said Yoongi

"Ah, ye! I also like that song", answered Tae

Then he started to turn on his cellphone and played the song aloud.

The piano intro was heard in the room we are currently in. I widened my eyes at this familiar tone and the pain that had been gone so far suddenly returned to my head.

"You turned your head and crying,

I hate you being like this,

That's why I'm crying too" *

A beautiful voice full of sadness sounded loudly from the cellphone, accompanied by Tae and Jin who joined in the singing.

I held my chest tightly, holding back tears with all my might. Fragments of memory flashed through my head, the face of my father playing the piano, the face of my mother humming this song sadly, alternately appearing in my head.

"I'm missing you,

Missing you so much that i am hurt,

Hope you'll be happy with my love,

Even if I'm gone" *

"Oenni, I'll go out for a while," I said quickly to Youra

Without waiting for an answer from her I rushed out of the suite room and jogged along the hallway. My head and chest ached so badly, and what made me cry was not the pain, but the immense sadness I felt when I heard that song.

I crouched and cried in front of a room. Why are these memories appearing again? Since I decided didn't want to remember my past, I have never felt this kind of pain again, although sometimes a memory has appeared several times while I was sleeping.

I stood up with difficulty and hobbled towards the emergency door and sobbed there for a few moments.

"Sobi? Sobi~aah ...", Yoongi's voice called me from the door

I buried my face between my hands and knees. Don't want Yoongi to see me like this.

"Gwaenchana? What's the matter? Do you remember anything again?", He asked anxiously

"Go! I want to be alone. Go", I said haltingly between my sobs

"No, I don't want to", replied Yoongi sitting beside me

"Go! I don't want to see you", I said again

"You don't need to see me, don't mind me", said Yoongi stubbornly

"Please go ...", I finally lifted my face and looked at him

"No. I will stay here, until you stop crying and not in pain anymore", he said, looking at me closely

"Ah, jinjja ... you're so annoying. Everyone's waiting for you!", I shouted, sobbing

"The filming was delayed for 30 minutes, I said I needed to go to the bathroom," he said with a flat face

"Gosh!", I muttered in disbelief

"Did you remember your father when you heard the song earlier?", He asked

"That's none of your business," I replied curtly

"You still haven't forgiven me ...", he said with a bitter tone in his voice. "Mianhae, jinjja mianhae, Sobi~aah. I'm so sorry. You can hate me but you can't forbid me from caring for my wife," he said

"What?, that's ridiculous," I said, wiping the tears from my face. "Stop pretending that you care! I'm tired of all this, yeobo", I said again with a choked voice

"Will you feel relieved when this marriage ends?", Yoongi asked quietly

I stared at him intently for a minute before answering, "Ye," firmly.

He looked hurt and answered, "Arasso ..... Then I will file for divorce after we return to Seoul, just like you want", replied Yoongi with teary eyes

"Ye," I said, maintaining eye contact with him with all my might

"I'll leave you now ... ", he muttered, breaking eye contact with me

Then he stood up slowly and left me without turning his face at all.

I felt the tears falling down my cheeks, I beat my chest trying to relieve the sudden pain. Why does it hurt more than before? I cried loudly while continuing to beat my chest, harder and harder.

"Turn your head if you're tired,

I will be there,

Because I left your tears behind

I left you first,

because I don't want to see you alone ...

Since now I can't love you anymore ...

I miss you,

Miss you so much that i'm hurt,

Hope you'll be happy with my love,

Even if I'm gone ...

Hope you'll be happy ... " *

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* credit song: Haengbok hagil barae (hope you'll be happy) by Lim Hyung Joo (OST. My sassy girl Chunhyang)

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