Friendship?

After some time,me and Jia became really close,so close that we even shared most of the things every teenage girl must have or what I think they have.

My birthday was close enough but something was missing,Eun. If we don't find him,my birthday will have to go without him. This isn't the first time it went on without my brother by my side but it felt weirder because this time I wasn't actually sure if I'll ever see him again or not or if he even is alive.

"Oh my,did the princess wake up again?"

What the hell Shin it's already been days let me go already!

"Why are you throwing a tantrum? You just need to relax and it will be okay,if you obey anything I say,in at least a month you will be send back to your house and no conversation will happen between us from then on. Do you understand? You either obey or the other option won't be so easy to obey since it'd mean you'll be dead meat. Do you seriously want me to send your sister a special gift? What do you want me to send her,your head or your left arm?"

You sick bastard,fine I'll accept anything you tell me, just keep your promise this time.

"Okay, dramatic princess, I'll do. Shall we begin?"

A box,what can possibly be in it? As I fought with mom for the third time today,my expression wasn't a happy one but not a sad one either,it just screamed a non affected sight.

As I open it i found a hand,it looked like it was...Eun's.

"Wake up. Hey!"

What the hell?! Who's that?

"Happy birthday!"

What're you doing at my place and why are you dresses like a burglar?

"Well,I didn't find some good clothes and as I was getting nervous I decided to just dress in something suspicious. Before you ask the classic question. "How'd you know that today is my birthday?"

I just overheard a conversation between Marissa and Alice."

How did they know it was my birthday after all they're just new students that came from America to study. Who told them?

"I have no clue. I swear."

As I don't continue the talk I only think about one thing, Eun. It has been 2 weeks and he is nowhere to be found, birthdays without him were more than a pain. Mom just didn't care enough to even ask about him and I was the only one who truly cared about his state. Now I only have one person that I can trust and that person was

Jia

I don't know why she is the only one but keeping in mind I didn't have any other friends besides her made me tear up.

"Are you crying?! I'm sorry if it's because of the perfume I used,I promise I'm gonna change it, after all it was-"

I take her into a big hug I know that wasn't the best thing to do at the moment but I just couldn't find another version of stopping the pain that the feelings made me have.

I felt like, if I didn't hug her,she would simply disappear and leave me. She became a very good friend,a great friend actually.

I could tell any secrets I had and she just kept them as if it was a game.

"I have to ask you something."

Okay,go on with the question.

"I wanted to ask you. Have you seen my brother?"

First of all...who is he?

"Shin,he used to hang out a lot with Eun and I was just wondering,have you seen him?"

As I heard what she had to say,my heart shattered.

It wasn't her fault but as soon as I heard she was related to that monster I almost threw up. My fist clenched and I was close to breaking down,I wanted to address her lots of questions but my heart just didn't let me. My brain significantly told me to ask,so my mouth guided itself.

Why are you asking me about that asshole?

"Why are you calling Shin that?"

He kidnapped my brother! Who knows what he did to him? You are asking me about a fucking criminal, about a good for nothing bastard!

"Calm down and talk beautifully about Shin,how am I supposed to believe you if you don't even have proof to affirm what you are saying?

Do you think I will just believe you because we've been friends for almost two weeks? Fuck off!"

If you don't believe me then I'll show you!

I remove my sleeves to just show her what that dumbass made me do. Dozens of cuts could be seen on my wrists and the pain the removal caused was unbelievable.

Look what your angel made me do! He forced me to cut myself and send photos of my injured wrist. He made me harm myself! He still gives me hundreds of messages with numbers,the number of cuts he wants me to make!

"Don't blame your craziness on Shin. In the same way I can say that Eun made me do dirty things and I don't really think you would believe me if I just told you and showed you cuts.

How Am I supposed to believe you! Show me a more clear proof that you aren't lying and that you really are sure about Shin. Your cuts really seem deep, but your ideas don't seem to make that much sense."

As I lost control I pushed her on the bed, being on top of her,she moaned in pain as she hit the mattress.

"What the hell are you trying to do? I'm only thirteen you fucking pervert!"

Screams as she tries to push me,her moves weren't that useless but my nerves were stronger than that as I unexpectedly start to choke her with my right hand.

"What the? Let go! Let go! LET ME GO,DAMMIT!"

A crying sound made its appearance quickly as she felt she was about to die and that today will be the end of her life,my goal wasn't to brutally kill her or to atleast choke her until she lost consciousness. It's just that in my eyes she wasn't Jia anymore,she began to look a lot like Shin. She wasn't Jia anymore,she was just Shin. A face that I hated more that I hate being left out.

My hand released her neck as she runs away from me in almost an instant.

Hey I'm sorry! Stop! I say as I grab her hand and push her forward causing her to place her hands on the night stand,me staying right behind her.

"Are you trying to rape me or something?! Why are you doing so many indecent things?First ,you pushed me on the bed. Second,you choked me,and third you are staying in such a position,are you by any chance trying to get me from the back?!"

What are you saying?! I would never do such thing! Especially at this age,what use would it have other than starting a conflict between the two of us?

"I don't know, maybe you want revenge! Didn't you say that instead of me,you see Shin? That must mean that if you saw choking was not a good method to apply on me,you tried rape! I wasn't thinking that you will ever try that,how much can you even do for revenge? At least move from this position, it's very embarrassing!"

As I separate myself from her she falls in front of the nightstand,tears falling down her fragile checks and her eyes were going on like a hurricane. I tried to reach out and discuss matters with her but as I reach her shoulder she just pushes me.

"Stay away! I know it's your birthday but that doesn't give you the right to do this, I'm not an object. I did not offer myself as a gift! I'm not wrapped up for god's sake! I'm just a teenager,one that just wanted to stay with you all day to celebrate and give you a real gift but it seems like you wanted another kind of fun,if you want that kind you can hook up with a random girl just not me! I'm too young and if you don't consider yourself too young, that's your own problem,I can't assume everything you do! Hook up with Marissa for example just not with me."

After this incident,I guess that I will always remain Shin for you!"

Says as she quickly left.

Jia!

I shout as I confirm myself that she isn't here anymore, falling to the ground all I could do was cry,as the saline water made contact with my checks,my expression was similar to the expression of a dead person as it was starting to get between two different kinds of feelings,one of them being guilt. I know I didn't have bad intentions,but the way I acted makes me sick to my stomach. The way I pushed and choked her really have different intentions than the ones I had. I had different kinds. I just wanted to talk with her but her impatience and the way she pushed me and tried to attack back was just killing me on the inside and it angered me that much that I was so close to murdering her without intention. I really turned into a monster. A monster that doesn't deserve friends or even people that can understand them.

I think I'm just a waste of air on this earth,I should just kill myself. But, would that be the only option o have? Should I use the knife again? Even though that asshole didn't order me to send him new photos I'll just do it by myself.

I take the knife and the feeling it gave while being on my skin made me feel miserable but at the same time good. I wanted more and more as the blood began to massively drop on the floor, I unknowingly hit the vein, resulting in a strange feeling,my body shivered as I fell onto my left hand laying there almost unconscious.

"Min, I'm home! Today I had to work over time. I know it's already morning but guess what! For the rest of the day I won't work,I took a day off and closed the shop. We can spend time together."

Some minutes pass. No response. No question. Nothing. No sounds just, nothing.

"Are you playing tricks on me? That's it! I'm coming in the room.

Happy birthday!"

"What the hell,Min!

Min! MIN WAKE UP!

Min...