25: Can't Stop

PORSCHE

I woke up in the morning with my face tucked in the muscled chest with the most familiar scent. I am surrounded by Kinn's calming smell and it lulls me  back to sleep. Kinn laid on his side with one arm under my head and another on my waist. It was giving me the same feeling of security I been having every day. Ironic that I am the guard but the one feeling protected. How cool was that? 

Unconsciously, I moved in closer to furrow deeper into the comforting warmth of his arms. He hugged me tighter as if it was the most common thing to do. My body screamed with laziness. I'm lazy about a lot of things, and sleeping like this was the most comfortable thing to do. 

As I had said yesterday, I was going to sleep in my room with Che'. But my oath was broken at two o'clock in the morning when Kinn came knocking on the door and said he couldn't sleep. I couldn't sleep either, and so to avoid the entire house from falling apart, I silently followed him to his room. 

But last night, we didn't do anything. We just slept. I slowly moved to get out of the bed and walked towards the bathroom. I picked up the toothbrush placed over the sink counter then started to brush my teeth. Yes, I even have my toothbrush prepared for me in Kinn's room. I brushed lazily since I was still feeling sleepy when suddenly, the door swung open, and Kinn's figure came into view. I was confusedly following his movements through the glass mirror when he roughly dropped his pants on the floor and started peeing on the toilet. 

"What the hell are you doing?" I groaned through the brush still tucked in my mouth. 

"What?" He turned to look at me. But despite the tousled hair and a dried-up drool across his face, he still looked utterly handsome. 

Damn! 

"Etiquette, please!" I cursed under my breath as I rinsed my mouth with water. What a shameless prick! I rolled my eyes at him and tried to focus on washing my face. 

"Why are you embarrassed? We have seen each other's body, should've been used to it by now." Kinn said bluntly. 

"You feel comfortable doing that, don't you?" 

"Yes! This is my house. I can do anything. Look here!" 

I tilted my face from the faucet and turned to look back at him as he swayed his dick from left to right while peeing, and my eyes went wide in disgust. 

"Damn! That's fucking disgusting! You messed up the toilet bowl!" I yelled and cursed at him. A rumble of laughter rolled out of his throat as he picked up the water hose and started cleaning his mess.

I straightened and used a clean towel to wipe my face clean. I looked at my reflection in the mirror, have no plan to look at Kinn's sinister nature. After a while, he stood behind me as I felt his muscular chest came in contact with my back. His hands snaked around my waist, then he turned me around to face him and leans down to give me a peck on the lips.

"Fuck!" I was a little surprised and staggered on my feet. 

"Morning kiss." He murmured, then walked out of the bathroom. I was speechless, flustered and my heart throbbed in an unfamiliar beat that gave me the feeling of a thousand butterflies inside my stomach. Slowly, my lips twitched up into a soft smile. 

Prick! 

I went down to my room to take a shower and get dressed, ignoring the curious eyes that the louts around thrown at me along the way. The hatred and displeasure in their eyes didn't bother me like they used to before. 

After I have changed my clothes, I went to the dining area to have breakfast with my brother and friends. They should be in the pantry by now. I walked up to greet Pete, Arm, and my brother, who was sitting with a scowl on his face. 

"What's wrong?" I walked over and sat next to my brother Che'. He immediately turned and glared at me. 

"Last night, you left again." 

All eyes darted at me, so I started to feel awkward and stiff. I looked around, feigned innocence as if I didn't hear what he said. 

Damn it! Why do you have to ask in front of these bastards?! 

"Ugh! I hate Kim! I hate him! I really hate Kim!" He repeatedly slammed the spoon into the omelet furiously.

"What did he do?" I asked in confusion. Che' turned around and looked into my eyes as if he was about to say something, but eventually choose to seal his lips and sighed. 

"I hate him for no reason!" He got up, took his plate with him, and stomped out of the dining room. 

"What the fuck was that?" My eyes followed his departing figure. All my friends did the same but acted as if they are not paying attention at all. 

"Porsche, get something to eat. You'll love the foods." 

Said Na Phon. I shifted slightly to look at the foods on the table, and it seemed that I really could eat everything on the menu. What happened to the vegetables, where did it go? 

"Oh, these are your favorites, right? If you want something, the whole house will have to change." 

I narrowed my eyes at the opposite table. I pondered about what the bastard had said and realized that indeed, I complained on Kinn about the food selections in the pantry being vegetables and all which I don't eat. Spicy ones too, so I stuck to plain rice and omelet until my face looked like a scrambled  egg. A few days ago, the changes began, and I could seem to eat a lot from the menu now. 

Hmm, don't tell me Kinn requested the cook to change the menu? 

(T/N: Ugh, you're being spoiled by Kinn, Porsche)

"Barking too early in the morning wouldn't hurt my throat." Arm yelled lightly. 

"Huh, What kind of things that you do? You looked tired and dull." Someone answered back and even whistled.

"There's a lot of positions, you know." And another one added.

The sound of a hand slapped hard on the table silenced the growing bickering of the crowd. It's not from me, but Pete. He stood up, turned, and looked at them. Phon and Arm also stood up, I sighed tiredly, looking at the situation with my arms crossed along my chest. The other table across us quickly finished up their meals and cleaned their table in no time. We looked at them until the group got their asses out of the dining hall. 

"Damn! Thought I should've killed someone." Phon kicked one of the chairs after them. 

"Don't think about it too much. They can go fuck their arses. Now, eat your food." Pete said. 

"I'm no longer in the mood to eat. Let's go and wait for Tem and Jom outside." 

I took a bottle of water and drank. I took some of the bland chocolates then walked towards the garden. I lit a cigarette in one hand as the other holds the chocolates, biting into it. At the first puff of my cigar, Tem called me that they were already in front of the house. 

Jom was with Tem while the latter parked the car in the garage. I sat at the garden table with the report papers sprawled over it as I waited for them. Pete  greeted my friends and also sat with us for a while. 

"Hey, you got to help us." I said. 

He and my friends become closer now from the constant bar hopping and drinking alcohol together. When the three of them meet like this, they usually  help each other out. Despite the age difference, they could still converse in a way how usual friends do. No traces of awkwardness over Pete, having a weird job, etc. 

The eyes of the other bodyguards looked at us with contempt. Maybe because I have the privilege to do something like this and they don't. What can I do? The boss forbids me from going out. 

"What are you doing?" Speaking of the devil, Kinn immediately walked in. 

"Khun Kinn, are you done eating? Pete quickly got up from his chair and stood stiffly on the sides with Arm and Phon until Kinn waved his hand, motioning them to relax. 

"Hello." Jom raised his hand in tension as he paid respect to Kim. 

"Hi. Arm, go bring some cold water and snacks too." 

I narrowed my eyes at Kinn as he pulled a chair and sat next to me. They are just my friends, not yours. Why do you have to go this far? 

"Yes, Khun Kinn." Arm left abruptly. 

"Ugh, you don't have to. We will do it quickly and then hurry up to leave. We won't disturb you that long." Tem said hurriedly. I saw Kinn turned around, and his lips twitched up annoyingly. Following his sight, he looked past me at Tem, so I moved my chair a bit to somehow cut off his view of my friend, who he happened to call "cute" the other day. It unreasonably annoyed me. 

"It's okay. Stay for as long as you want. You're my friends too, so you're always welcome here." 

Friend? Your friend? He spoke so politely, but it sounded creepy to me. I'm as well be damned, but I just can't let it go. This two-faced bastard! I hate  you! 

"Ahh. Okay." Tem glanced at Kinn then continued to cut into the paper we will be using to complete the project. 

"Look at that, stop getting on my nerves!" I whispered. I don't think I said it out loud, but Kinn glanced at me with a goofy smile. 

"Why? He's cute." Kinn said seriously. I don't know why I felt frustrated all of a sudden. I wanted to grab the scissors and cut off his crazy head. I grunted until he chuckled softly.

"Have you eaten yet?" He asked, and I just glared at him sideways. 

"_" 

"Ignored? Okay, go on."

I tried to ignore him with all my might, but he reached out his hand to brush a finger on my lips, catching my face and played with my cheeks. 

"Damn it, Kinn!" I brushed him off, but he quickly placed the other hand on my head and gently shuffled my hair. 

"Keep still. Hmm, so good." He found it entertaining, but I deflected myself and tried to kick his shin. 

"Don't touch me, bastard!" But the more I cursed at him, the more he reached out and squeezed my 

cheek. My lips pursed in a thin line and hurriedly brushed off his hand again. But then I have focused too much on Kinn that I forgot about my friends at  the table. 

"Ugh. How can we paste this one?"

Like sorcery, Tem's voice parted Kinn and me. My eyes looked around and found eight pairs of eyes staring back at us. They paused for a while before 

they scurried around and pretended to continue doing whatever it was they were doing. 

Kinn's laugh emanated from deep down his throat as he sat comfortably against the chair with his arms crossed. I turned at him and mouthed a 'fuck you' word, then continued to do my project. 

After a while, Arm came back carrying a large tray of snacks and put it on the table. Everyone ate except Kinn, who just sat there and fed me. He would tease me from time to time, like touching my arm, gently massaging my neck, grabbing my waist, and brushing his fingers along my legs which gets me jolting in surprise. He would smile at that like a psychopath!

What is wrong with this bastard being so touchy all of a sudden? 

"Do you have nothing else to do?" I turned to curse him when I couldn't stand his gestures anymore. 

"I was waiting for my friends." He said as he tried to feed me a cookie. 

"Ugh, then go wait somewhere else. You're not welcome here." I said sternly while I chewed on the cookie. I'm not the most elated to sit here, work, and be distracted by someone like this! 

"It's my house. I can wait wherever I please." He said, looked at me smugly, and I thought if he wouldn't move out, I would do it myself. 

So I stood up, carried my seat in between Pete and Phon. 

"Move." I nudged at them, who looked up at me, then Kinn, and back at me. 

"Move your dicks. I will sit here." With a tone of authority, I said again that had them moving to give me space. Tem lifted the plate of snacks and handed it to Jom. 

"Are you full already?" Jom asked before picking up a cookie and eat. Tem glanced at me. His expression was unreadable. 

"Oh, hi there! You're here as well, youngsters!" Tae walked up to us and greeted us brightly. All raised their hands to pay respect to the newcomers, including Time and Mew aside from me. I don't hate them, but I don't like them either. 

"Hello." 

"We are doing it here?" Mew asked, dropping a notebook on the table. As I followed his actions, I realized they were about to do the reports as well. 

"Yes, right here." Kinn responded, so Arm hurriedly adjusted the table and added more chairs for his friends to sit. 

"Are you doing the report too?" Tae whispered at Tem, who nodded in response. Tae then turned to everyone on the table and said. 

"So today, after we finished this report, let's go out and find something to eat." 

"Yes, but before you think of anything else, get this done first." Mew said and turned towards the notebook on the table. I got back to my notes too, but I couldn't concentrate because Kinn has been looking at me from across the table. 

'What are you looking at?' I asked mouthing the words. Kinn didn't answer and just shrugged off his shoulders at me. 

"Is this report going to get finished any time soon?" Kinn asked out of nowhere that the whole table turned around and looked back at him to answer. 

"Ugh, it's going to be finished soon. I'll do it quickly so we can hurry back." Jom answered rather stiffly. 

"Hey, I'm not chasing you away. I just asked. So that as soon as the report finished, let's go have a drink." 

The bastard Jom threw a glance at me, looking halfheartedly embarrassed. He seems tenser than when he came. 

"Ugh Porsche, what do you say?" Tem asked me hesitantly. I stared at Kinn, but he just grinned at me in the most disturbing way that intended to irritate me. 

"And Tem, where do you want to go?" Kinn asked Tem directly that had him lowered himself in his chair and tried to look smaller, then turned towards me. 

"Eh, what kind of pressure am I into?" Tem spoke in a low voice. 

"Ugh, Kinn." Time interrupted Kinn that the whole table looked at him. He was pressing something on his phone, raised his head, and asked Kinn quietly. 

"Have you watched Nong Marsh's new drama yet?" 

I frowned tightly at his friend's silent question, yet it reached my ear. Kinn immediately panicked and glared at Time in misunderstanding. 

"What do you mean?" Kinn asked. His expression was unreadable. 

"It's nong Marsh. The new drama has aired, and he's the star actor. Looks cute, I'm lost." Time held the screen in front of Kinn, and the latter tensed even more. 

"What are you talking about?" Tae pushed his elbow at Time's side and looked alternately at Kinn and me. But the person next to him seemed clueless about the growing tension in the air. 

"Oh, don't you know him? He's the one Kinn said to be the best among his lads." I stiffen at the words. My heart twitched instantly, and the unexplainable feelings started to erupt deep within me. 

"What the fuck are you talking about? Shut your mouth!" Tae locked his husband's neck and slapped his mouth a couple of times. 

"Oh what the- I just scrolled through my Facebook feed and found this. Hey!" Time cried louder while Kinn reached out for the glass of water to drink. His  face was solemn. 

As for me, the feelings that started to pool at the pit of my chest swirled steadily, making me dizzy. Why am I feeling this bad? 

While the speculation about Tawan still lingers at the back of my mind, here comes the previous lad named Marsh. And, was said to be the best in bed he had slept with too! Why do I feel like the more I know him, the more I get hurt? Both my heart and my pride were in pain, so I decided to leave the table for a while. 

I wanted to hit someone! 

"Excuse me. I'm going to the bathroom." I told Tem, and the bastard looked up at me worriedly. 

I have to clear my mind. Though I don't want to admit this, the feelings inside me indicated only one thing. 

I am fucking jealous!

I walked into the house, went back to my bedroom, and to the bathroom. Splashing some cold water into my face, I thought about that man named Tawan and Marsh. I need to strengthen my heart if I am going to accept that I have grown some deeper feelings for this bastard, Kinn. So much that sometimes, my heart just stopped functioning, and all I care about was Kinn. I know it's insane, but I tend to forget about the surroundings too and focus on him. 

The pain and confusion from my unpleasant experience now began to fade little by little. Replaced by another sensation, something deeper that caused 

me to have these tingling sensations in my stomach. Like a colony of ants have started to take residence on it. It's far more than lust, I'm sure of it. I don't like this version of me one bit. It's like I have been overly attached to Kinn that I begin to feel envious of his past lovers! I shouldn't have these feelings, right? I shouldn't feel this way! So, how do I deal with this? 

"Are you okay?" As soon as my feet stepped out of the room, Kinn's voice startled me. He stood leaning by the door. With his arms folded, he waited for me. 

"What?" I asked shortly, trying my best not to turn towards his way and meet his eyes. 

"I'll finish the report quickly and then take you out to eat." He put his hand over my head and tousled my hair. 

"I'm not going." I shifted myself away and squinted at him, not in the mood. 

"Don't tell me you're thinking about what Time has said?" He tried to lock my neck by gripping his fingers around it, but I moved away immediately.

Looking left and right, afraid that someone might see us. Kinn has been pretty unreserved these days, damn! Isn't he worried about the eyes that might see us? 

"I'm not thinking too much, let me go." I hurriedly pushed him away, but he resisted and forced me to lean in quickly until-

Chup! 

Everything happened so fast. He kissed my cheek and quickly pulled away, which left me stunned. I pushed his chest once again and shove his face away from me. My heart was beating frantically, and my face flustered from shock. How could he dare to do something like this in the hallways?

Well, there's no one around, but still! 

"What are you doing?!" I yelled at him. 

"Umm. What's wrong with that?" He smiled. 

"What. Are. You. Doing?!" 

"Well, you're jealous." 

I closed my eyes in silent annoyance at the words before inhaling a deep sigh. "What the fuck are you saying? Who the hell are you for me to get jealous of?" 

I kept holding in what I wanted to say and swallowed hard to get the lump out of my throat. I know I am feeling just as he said but I have no intention of telling him or anyone. He's making it clear that he's into me as well based on his actions but I'm not sure if it's enough to make my heart feel at ease or anything. 

Kinn fell silent and just raised his eyebrows at me. I was even more frustrated, so I walked over his shoulder and out to the garden. Since he didn't 

say anything, I chose to leave him there and prevent my mind from wandering any further. 

I came back to resume the project without speaking to anyone, and no one dared to ask anything as well. After a while, Kinn came back to his seat, and I don't have any idea what his facial expression looks like as I kept my head bowed down throughout the project. 

It took almost all day. 

On the table, there was talk and play as usual. Pete, Arm, and Phon walked about and tried to mess with me but I'm not in the mood to play with anyone.

Damn! It makes no sense at all. Have I been shaken like this before? Or were you just teasing and making fun of me Kinn? 

When the evening fell and the reports were done, Tae invites everyone to go and dine out. Tem pretends to decline, but Jom dragged us both to come with the excuse that he was stressed from the project and need some liquor to release. 

He just wanted to have some free meals. Of course, when the news of going to the club reached the guards, we were followed by the hoard, including Khun Thankhun. Che' was fussy and wanted to come with us, but he's a minor, so he'll have to wait. But then Kim came and fetched him. Dragging my brother into the house, I saw them talking. Kim invited him to play with his newly bought game. I looked at them in disbelief but felt happy that my brother shouldn't feel left off as people here were very fond of him. I don't have to think too much about it at all. 

After the dinner, Kinn pays for it, and we took the convoy to Jaye Jade's shop. There was slight chaos as Tae wanted to sit on the luxury bar, but Khun wanted to dance to fun music. And who can argue with him? No matter where you came from, you'll be defeated by this bastard. His style of dressing was way too weird and the expensive stores definitely wouldn't let him in any way. 

Finally, we ended up in the same place. Where the guy who should be left out, instead gathered the crowd's attention. 

"Hello! Welcome! Make yourselves comfortable, I arranged a VIP table with all the drinks prepared. Please come." 

Jaye ushered us towards the table I called to be reserved earlier. It was in a VIP lounge that was prepared neatly. There were only a few customers by this time and soft music played in the background as the band wasn't up yet.

I let them sat at the table then walked separately to greet my acquaintances, both employees and customers. Of course, as soon as everyone saw my face, drinks for me flooded. 

"I lost my eyesight. I was waiting to see Porsche every day." 

I gave a business kind of smile to the customer whose face was familiar but I couldn't remember the name. I raised my glass of liquor at once. After a little 

chat, the other staff members dragged their necks to sit beside me on the bar. 

"Hey, what good work do you have? Share it with us." 

The staff in the club surrounded me while brewing the best liquor, handed it to me then talked like there's no tomorrow. We haven't seen each other for a long time anyway. 

"Is the shop crowded these days?" I asked. 

"Drink this glass too. I just came up with a new recipe." The bartender at the shop handed me another glass that I have no idea how much would cost but gulped it all down. Customers are so generous to send them to me. 

"Damn, are you going to get me drunk this early in the evening?" I said as I swallowed down another shot. 

"Look at you glow. Something good happened? Money is good, right? Take me with you. I wanna work like that too." 

I was a little stunned upon hearing their words. They are not the first to ask me like that. Jom and Tem said that too, that I glowed. Despite the trouble I have been facing, why the hell my complexion looked brighter? Why? 

"What are you guys standing here and moaning about? Go to work, customers are calling!" Jaye yelled loudly that caused the crowd to go frenzy and hurriedly picked up their things then scattered towards different directions. I smiled and looked at 

them, snorted as I sat on the barstool. 

"Hey, guys." The bastards Tem and Jom walked over holding a glass of wine then sat beside me. I looked beyond their back and saw Kinn's eyes staring back at me so I immediately turned away. 

"Did you argue with Kinn?" Jom hugged my shoulder then turned to greet the staff that he had known enough.

"No," I replied. 

"Porsche, there's nothing you and I haven't talked about right? I can see that you are avoiding him." Tem said. 

"You guys are seeing things." I let out a huge sigh of relief. At least my friends were concerned about me. If they knew where Kinn and I were going, would they still be able to accept it? 

"I am your friend." Replied the thwart as he shoved a glass of liquor into his mouth. I squinted at him. 

"I must admit I don't want to believe what I am seeing. It's confusing." His face paled. I don't want to keep a secret from them this long but the people around them seem to know too so I don't have much choice.

"But you don't have to worry you know." He added hurriedly. 

"I have nothing to do with him." I said softly as Jom and Tem looked at each other. 

"So, what is it between you and Kinn?" Jom asked bluntly. 

"May I have another glass?" I kept quiet before telling the bartender to make me another glass of liquor. 

"If it's the same recipe, I'll make it." The bartender smiled and hurriedly arranged the brew for me. 

"So, where are you going with him?" Jom asked impatiently. I was silent for a moment, not knowing what to say or do. 

"Hmm, who's the attacker and who's the receiver?" 

From my silence, they should have guessed so the fuckin Jom asked again. Tem turned to Jom harshly and warned him for saying something forbidden. I thought hard as I swallowed a ball of saliva down my throat. Even if they didn't ask, I know that they already had an idea of what was going on. They were my friends and I should tell them the truth, right? 

"I give." I said shortly. I know they could accept it but, to lie was my only choice. I need to save my pride at least.

"Shut up! Really? Kinn is-I need to look at Kinn again. 

Damn! I won't be able to look at him the same way again." Tem was shocked and Jom wailed with him. I nodded slightly to give my friends more confidence that what I am saying was true. 

"I was confused at first too on who the top and who the bottom was. Ah, I guess I was right. You see? I already told you that Porsche is definitely aggressive." 

Jom said proudly though obviously shocked from the revelation. It only shows that even if both of them have known me for a long time, they still respected me and didn't asked straight forward. 

"What can I do? I can't look at Kinn the same way again too." Tem blurted out. Periodically, he glanced at Kinn on the table and I raised a new glass of wine that the bartender gave me. I secretly felt a little proud of myself. Although I was indignant at first, being able to paint on Kinn like this make me feel good somehow. 

"So in short, you're okay with it?" I asked once again just to be sure. I suddenly switched from being a Casanova to liking a man. Of course, there must be people around me that couldn't accept things like this. 

"Well, it's acceptable. There's no doubt that he likes you. I'ts going tough, yeah let's face it. It's normal. And about Time's words, don't think about it too much. He must be teasing the other, they do that all 

the time right?" Tem must have read the situation and comforted me. I am more annoyed with myself now for being so transparent that the people around me caught on to it easily. 

"Am I that obvious?" I asked.

"A little. But you're sulking like you are the bottom. If you are the top, you should be a little discreet." Tem narrowed his eyes at me and smiled mischievously. I hurriedly turned around the shop, afraid that someone might have heard us but suddenly, Jaye's voice rang out in the middle of our circle. 

"Who's attacking and who's taking it?" I felt goosebumps run down my body almost immediately. I'm fucked up! My friends shook their heads vigorously as well. 

"Nothing Jaye." 

"What? I heard it. Porsche attacks who? Don't tell me, Porsche.. godamnit! Your taste changed to a man?" Jaye put her hand over her mouth in shock and I turned paler. Is today an opening day? 

Why is it that the people around me starting perceive the thing I was trying so hard to conceal? 

"No Jaye, it's nothing." Even if I revealed it to my friends, my heart wasn't prepared yet for other people to know as well. 

"I can hear with both of my ears." Jade moved a chair and sat next to Tem. 

"Jaye, the customers are calling." Tem tried to distract him. 

"Don't fool me. I just caught him making someone his wife." The bastard kept his mouth shut by then and just grabbed something to drink. 

"It's nothing." I blurted out. This is bad. 

"It's okay if you don't want to tell me. But if there's anything I can help you with, come and consult me. You can trust me as the master in tying men to bed." Tem looked at Jaye in disbelief. 

"I'm telling the truth. In bed, I am the bully. I have a technique of my own that gets men so addicted to me." 

We all narrowed our eyes at her. Jaye seems like a tough figure but it was true that there were always men trying to visit the shop almost every day. For example, I saw a handsome young man walked out of the office earlier. 

"How?" Tem asked out of nowhere. 

"Oh, Tem is curious too? I can smell you too or, Porsche is the top and you're the bottom?" Both of us shook our heads vigorously. The idea was disgusting as it is, I'd rather eat worms and die.

"Well, since you mentioned it, let's finish this off. Tell us what you know Jaye." I said rather loudly to hide my growing anxiety over the topic.

I turned at Tem who looked very interested which surprised me. I don't want to be paranoid and all but I began to have doubts about him too. He seemed to have the 'gay' aura as well. 

"Oh, I can tell you a thing or two." I have no idea why I listened attentively at Jaye. 

"If you are the top, that's brilliant. It's easy to find something to excite our partners. But if you are the bottom, you can't just lie there like a cooked vegetable. You should learn to dominate, not just get dominated all the time. It should be a two-way role play. Don't let your partner take the lead and leave you on the side." 

Tem and I have gone completely silent. As for Jom, he looked like he was going to die in shame hearing this kind of story. 

"So, what's next?" 

I don't know what made me gone away like that. Knowing what I mean, Jade smiled and laughed at me so I hurriedly raised a glass of liquor to drink and 

relieve my embarrassment. 

"Why, you did tell us that you were a top?" Jade said with a smile. 

"I'm the top! Tell me more." I said impatiently. I realized that the more I talk, the more I revealed the truth. 

"I'm surprised. But it doesn't matter how you will finish as a man you know." 

"I said I'm the top, and I'm the top. I'll tell you the details later." I hurriedly replied. 

"Oh come on. Accept it like us. One got to have a personal signature on how we will get the Top's attention. The more they get flirtatious, the more we have to make them lost their mind over us. So lost that they can't even raise their heads. Some game control that makes them follow us. Never let them take the lead all the time. The more they feel we are in control, the more challenging it will become." 

"Like what?" Tem furrowed his brows tightly. Jaye leaned in his head closer and twitched her fingers for the two of us to look down and listen carefully. She then whispered so that only the three of us could hear. As for Jom, he turned his attention to the girls nearby and got up to dance with them instead of listening to us. 

Tem and I got a bit shocked at what Jaye had said. I straightened my back, and with my trembling hands, I tried to calm my throbbing chest and masked my face to look normal. That was absurb! 

Pete then followed to the bar and fetched us to go back to the VIP lounge with the excuse that the bastard Kinn was bored and wanted me to mix a drink for him. I looked at the bastard grimly and felt the familiar pang in my chest. 

"I don't believe that you're the top." Tem whispered in my ear as he sat down in the chair beside me. 

"So, who are you dating?" I asked him back but he looked away and diverted his eyes, feigning innocence.

I also turned my attention to the louts on the table. Kinn looked at me fiercely but I don't give a fuck. I'm still upset that I get irritated every time I look at him. 

"While waiting for the live band, let's play a game." 

Pete suggested. It was still early in the evening and a soft melody played in the atmosphere. The group nodded in agreement. 

"Play! Play! I want to play." Said Mr. Khun, handing me a glass of liquor. 

"I've wanted to play this for a long time since I saw it in the series. The game I NEVER. " 

The whole group listened intently except KInn and me who was sitting on the opposite sides of the table. Our gazes were locked with each other like we were playing a tug of war, whoever to look away first, loose. 

What is your problem? I should be the one upset, not the other way around. 

"Oh, I have heard about that game. Players would take turns one by one and when it was someone's turn to say I'VE NEVER BEEN, he must say something he has never done. Those who have already done the DID 

would have to take a shot each." Time explained the rules. 

"Aow, you have brains too huh." Tae said jokingly and threw some ice on him. 

"Okay, let's play." Pete said as the moderator and then placed a shot glass prepared in a tray earlier in front of each player. 

"I don't want to play." Kinn said still looking intently at me. 

"Me too." I said as well. I don't feel good about this game. 

"Everyone must play. Whoever doesn't will be ordered to crouch down on the corner." Mr. Khun said stubbornly as I looked at him with weariness. I am the head of the guards, I am brave, and I gave out orders but what the heck! In the end, everyone agreed to play, or else the ding dong would go rampant and there would be chaos. 

"Those who don't want to play here must have a lot of secrets to hide." Mew said narrowing his eyes at me. 

"Okay, bring it on." I'm too lazy to explain further so I just agreed to it. Kinn himself lifted a smile on his lips and stared at me mischievously. 

"I'll go first." Tae raised his hand and held the shot glass in his hand. 

"I never cheated on my boyfriend." He finished talking and the whole group looked at each other in disbelief. No one dared to pick up a glass. 

"This game requires honesty. Anyone who doesn't speak the truth will.." Mew said again. 

"Let's say, will be hunted by a ghost." Kinn said. 

"Absolutely! I wish you sexual dysfunction." Tae agreed then turned to stare at his boyfriend in which Time sighed heavily. 

"Yeah okay. But it's an old story, don't dig it up." 

He pointed at Tae and raised his shot glass then drank the whole contents. But the rest did not do the same so the game continued.

"My turn." Tem raised his hand. Everyone looked forward and listened. "I never had a boyfriend." 

The whole table was a bit confused but the bastard started frowning. There were a few who drank. Tae, Time and Kinn. I was a little shocked and the name Tawan floated in my head. He was probably referring to that person. 

"My turn." Pete raised his hand. Kinn and I quickly turned our heads the other way. His eyes were clearly indicating that the two of us were targeted. 

"I've never had sex with men." 

The whole table began to shift in their seats. I turned to look at Tem with a pale face. Jom as well. Both of them nodded their heads towards the glass as if telling me to drink but I shook my head. 

"Fuck the ghosts." Kinn said. I peeked at him and saw how he tumbled the shot glass empty. Tae and Time too. I straightened up and sat comfortably. I have no intention of picking up the glass of liquor. Let's just say I didn't hear the words as my ear was against the wind. 

"Coward." Jom whispered laughing and I acted innocent even more. 

"Hey, these questions are suspicious." Tankhun said. Then the game turned to Phon who pointed to himself.

"Do I have to play too?" Phon asked confusedly. The three or four bodyguards sitting in the corner looked puzzled as well. 

"Play, don't tell me you thought of ditching the turn." 

Yelled Mr. Khun 

"Okay, there's nothing that we can drink anyway." Phon replied indifferently. 

"Play!" The bastard shouted. 

"Yeah, I never.." Phon thought for a while then said, "I've never liked someone from this circle." 

I closed my eyes, sighed in contemplation before turning my eyes towards Kinn who paused for a moment before raising his glass to drink. I don't know 

why my lips twitched and lifted into a smile in their own but then I hesitated if I should drink too or not. Actually, the question was in general. It could mean like as in friendship right? Should I drink as well? Will the ghost come and hunt me if I said my ears were against the wind again? So can't use the excuse of being accidentally deaf for the second time. 

I lifted the shot glass and drank as fast as I could. I could feel the pairs of eyes on me but I ignored them. But why did I acted like a terrified virgin? I shifted to sit comfortably on the chair as before. 

"I'm next to Phon." Arm said. "I never have done anything with anyone from this circle." 

My breath stumbled for a moment. I looked at Arm who giggled merrily. Fuck this bastard! I gritted my teeth irritably.

I thought I guessed it wrongly, the victim of this game was me. Kinn let out a pleading groan before taking 

his glass and drank. But that shocked everyone who focused their attention on him. He drank the glass with a pokered face. 

"Wait, you bastard! You what? With who? Where and how?" Tankhun bursts out in surprise. Kinn wasn't bothered by the questions at all and remained calm, so I used the moment to lift and drink a shot, thinking no one would notice. 

"I have nothing with anyone. But the questions were confusing, I haven't done it for a while so I want to drink the vodka. Never mind!" 

Everyone let out a sigh of relief. There's probably no one to question his words. But then, Kinn looked down on the glass in front of me and saw how it was empty. Slowly, our eyes met and he smiled in satisfaction. 

"Oh, it's your turn." Pete slides the shot glass over Mr. Khun. 

"Yay! Hmm.. I never eat dog food." 

And then he drank his glass feeling satisfied with himself. The whole table made a disgusted expression but no one dared to raise a glass. Who's crazy enough to eat dog food? Damn! 

"Okay, that's enough. The live band is up." Time said exhaustedly the whole table nodded in agreement. Then they take turns and drank the rest of the remaining vodka shots. 

"I'm going out for a smoke." I told Tem who nodded back at me then I caught a glimpse of Kinn who looked indifferently at me as he tried to catch a drunken bastard from dancing too much that it smashed a bottle of liquor on the ground. 

I lit a cigarette and sucked it up while leaning on the wall in the same alleyway where I first met Kinn. I thought about that day and laughed. If I have known that I would be in a situation like this, I should've let Kinn die from the beating. So as not to have these confusing feelings in my heart like this. But I realized that if I could turn back the time, I would do it the same way. Having him in my life was against my feelings no less but since I have accepted that I-

I really liked him! 

I released the smoke into the air with my mouth, blowing out a deep sigh. I leaned against the wall to somehow cleared up my mind. There's nothing in 

my head right now but the bastard Kinn. He influenced my emotion greatly that it gives me a variety of feelings to think about. I was frustrated about the story this afternoon but now I am much more relieved when he raised a drink to the question if he liked any of the members of the guards, and his eyes are hot on me. I felt a sudden surge of possessiveness that left me thinking he's referring to me and no one else. 

It's me right? 

It's tough to accept the fact that I fell in love with a guy all together but what could I do? I won't to lie to myself anymore. Besides, he's the only person that makes my heart flutter every time I looked at him. Little by little, it crept into my senses and like a thief in the night, he had made himself stuck into my mind. I realized I can't get him out anymore. 

I tried to stop my heart from thinking too much but each day we just get closer and closer towards each other. The more restraint I held myself, the more it becomes difficult to escape the rope of temptation. 

Is he confused, shaken, or feeling good as I am? 

Am I important to him as well?

It was a piece of significant information that kept bugging my mind. 

"Are you drunk?" The door opened and came out the silhouette of Kinn. He came up straight and stood in front of me like a sturdy boulder. 

"I'm not drunk." I said rubbing my eyes drowsily. I started to feel dizzy, remembering the countless glasses of liquors sent to me as early as we entered the shop. 

"Your charm has no bounds to it. I saw a table over there who gave you unstoppable glasses of alcohol." 

Kinn inserted his hands into his pocket then sighed out. 

Did I just heard a hint of jealousy in that sentence? 

"Not as much as you." He had almost every girl in the shop looking at him as well and it never missed my eyes. 

"What, I didn't flirt with anyone but you on the other hand, kept smiling throughout the drinks." Kinn said darkly with his eyebrow raised and looked fiercely at me. 

"They were just old customers in this shop. Besides, who will flirt with you? You already have your best boy Marsh." 

Suddenly my brain malfunctioned and slipped the topic about this afternoon. It was not my intention to sound so petty about it but it came out like that 

eventually. 

"What?Keep talking." He asked before a huge grin broke his lips in half. His hand reached out and grabbed my nape then started playing with my hair. 

"My coolest person is not Marsh." 

I narrowed my eye at him and Kinn wickedly grinned and asked me. "Want to know who?" 

My heart started throbbing like crazy and I admit, I hoped for the answer to be me. I kept my silence until Kinn slowly leaned in his head down to me and 

whispered into my ear. 

"Well, it's you." 

The corners of my lips twitched up in a restrained smile as my heart plummeted in rapid beats. I pretended to keep silent as I pushed Kinn's chest 

further away from me. Although there's no one in the alley, I feel that it's not the right place to do something like this. 

"B-bastard!" I cursed him. He's a flirtatious ball of fucked up man. Don't fall for it, Porsche! 

"Huh, you played the game just now and you have lied a lot." Kinn said teasingly. He then pulled out a pack of cigarette and puffed on it. 

Actually, I was used to seeing Kinn smoke. From time to time, he would go out of his balcony to puff a stick and I would find it hot every time. 

"I didn't want to play." I said softly. When I saw him smoking just now, my body felt hot. Like there's a steam surging from deep down. Why am I feeling so hot all of a sudden?

"Aren't you afraid to be haunted by ghosts?"

Kinn grinned. Now, my mind was puffed up. Anger has completely disappeared, with just one word and some flirty actions. I thought I was drunk so I didn't pay attention to small details like this at first. 

"What ghost? You mean, you?" I asked him. 

"The liar has been hit by the ghost." 

I twitched in a smile. I have no idea what made me so daring to return Kinn's teasing. 

"I slept with you, who have been deceived here?" I whispered as I leaned in his shoulder. Kinn paused. 

My heart was throbbing madly. I would say this was because of the alcohol nonetheless but Jade's words kept repeating in my head. 

Must act tough. Hundreds of companions but was defeated by a single perverted act. 

"Where do you want to get haunted? In the house or the car?" 

Kinn asked playfully then pulled the cigarette out of his mouth and bent down to kiss me on the forehead. I gripped tightly on his waist as I held him loosely. Before biting my lower lip, I thought hard about what I was going to say. 

"I want you.." I murmured silently.

I wasn't sure if he heard it but Kinn froze for a while. 

My head on his shoulder began to slide and I tilted my face to rest on his left chest. I heard the sound of Kinn's heart beating crazily like mine. 

It made me feel a bit at ease at least even though things between us were unclear. But to be able to catch a glimpse of his feelings for me sends a shiver 

of happiness throughout my body. 

"Kinn, can we go home now?" 

I looked up to gaze at him and Kinn grinned back as he threw his cigarette butt on the ground then pulled me gently. 

"I'm not really in the mood to drive either but I have a very urgent matter at hand." 

He leaned down and kissed my lips softly. There was no intrusion of any kind, just a soft brush of his lips into mine and I nodded in agreement. Hot flashes covered my face as I stared into Kinn's back as he entered the shop first. I rubbed my face in frustration, unable to believe what I just did. Who would thought I would dare to say something like that? 

Ugh, Jade! It's your fault. Fuck! What should I do now? What have I done? 

I followed Kinn inside after a while, bid goodbye to my friends who were having a good time in the rhythm of the music. Kinn instructed Pete to take care of the rest and no one dared ask anything about us excusing ourselves earlier than expected. It was also a good thing that Kinn has driven here in a separate car, so no one would have a hard time sending us. 

Along the way, Jaye's words circulated in my head relentlessly. How much courage must I muster to be able to do that? 

Damn! The closer we get to the house, the more stressful this feelings have gotten into me. Kinn kept talking about senseless things and I was conscious 

enough to answer some of his questions. 

"Are you drunk?" As Kinn entered his room, he poured some water into a glass and handed it for me to drink. 

I stood in the middle of the room dumbfounded for several moments. Although I was barely drunk, Jaye's words that kept repeating in my head were making me lightheaded. Until I realized that Kinn brought the glass of water in front of me.

"Uhm, I feel dizzy." 

I looked at the glass of water thoughtfully before losing all my restraints and took a step closer to Kinn, leaned my head against his chest. I could hear the 

rapid beating of his heart that was perfectly in tune with mine. 

"What are you doing?" Kinn said then turned around to place the glass down on the table before holding my body against him. His fingers grazed the side of my waist.

"Why, don't you like it?" I said in a muffled voice, put my face closer to his neck and inhaled his musky scent.

"I like it. I like it very much that my heart is trembling. I-I don't know how to react." 

Kinn leaned down and whispered, his breath hot on my nape. I pushed myself a few inches away to hook my arms around his neck. It's now or never. Gather your wits, Porsche!

"I'm afraid, if you do this, you won't be getting any sleep tonight." 

Kinn leaned down his head and started to kiss my cheek. I will let him do what he wants with me while I made up my mind. I looked at him then asked for something that had him surprised.

"Sing a song for me." 

Really Porsche? That's the best distraction you could come up with? I want to delay this even for a few minutes. I have to gather up the courage!

Damn!

The delusional Kinn's voice might ease up my excitement for a bit. The more aggressive the top is, the more you must hold him down. 

Don't let him go anywhere!

Jaye Jade's words floated over in my head as if echoing over and over again. The more I want him, the more I became fearless with the thing Jaye suggested for me to do. Dammit! How am I supposed to do that?

"What song would you like?" Kinn asked smiling. 

"Nah." I gazed up at him, stared softly into his eyes and asked him to do as I please.

"Hmm, what song is that?" Kinn asked teasing. I smiled back at him.

He began singing a song with a soft melody. The song made me smile as he slowly lead me to the bedroom. We swayed into the rhythm until we were both standing at the foot of the bed. I leaned forward and whispered into his ear softly.

"Is that right?"

The soft tone that I used caused Kinn to push me down on the bed rather harshly. His lips came rushing down on me. His warm breath laced with alcohol and a whiff of cigarette surrounded my senses as it increased my mood. His tongue came diving into my mouth instantly awakening the fire inside me. I opened my mouth slightly to give him full access into my depths and felt the tip of his tongue swiped through the insides of my cheeks. It lingered there with lust, took me and drank from my lips as if it was one of those beer mugs back in the club.

My tongue started to do some intrusion of their own into Kinn's mouth. I sucked his tongue, bitten, licked as I like. The way we fucked each other's mouth was like how a hurricane touched the land. No falter, no hesitations, and unwavering. It was destructive to a certain level that my terrain of thoughts suddenly halted. I have no thoughts at all. 

Just I, Kinn, and the mind-blowing kiss.

I let go of all my inhibitions. Just for tonight, I want to let go and make the most out of this moment. We took turns in eating each other as I stumbled on 

unbuttoning Kinn's shirt, pulling it roughly away from his body. The need to get my hands into that meaty flesh was unbearable. My hands roamed through his upper torso passionately, feeling every muscle moved with my touch.

"Ughh."

I protested softly as Kinn bites my tongue in between his teeth. I was in my highest heat as Kinn forcibly took off my shirt and pants quickly. I got naked in no time. His lips began to travel down my bare chest, licked my neck, bit my jawlines as he scraped his teeth along the back of my ear. It garnered a deep sigh from me.

Shit, this is not what I am planning to do.

"K-Kinn!" 

I moaned his name softly as he inhaled deep from my neck, he seemed obsessed with it. Kinn's hands flew towards the side of my hips, kneaded, traveled across my waist, and pinched on its way to the insides of my thighs. 

My body twisted in enthusiasm. His touch excited every nerve ending of my body. I palpitated, throbbed and melted into his touch. The after-effect of the alcohol heightened my senses to another level.

What the fuck is happening?

Kinn slid his face from the hollow of my neck down to my chest. His burning tongue left flames along the path until it reached the tips of my hard nipples. He licked and bit into them softly, alternately making me a jolt, and twisted my neck in delirium. Why is this so fucking hot? He bit me gingerly but I did not stop him. I have no plan on stopping him at all.

"Ugh Kinn. Damn.. that's so good." 

I nearly jumped out of bed when Kinn sucked hard on one tip. My fingers dug into his hair and arched my back in pleasure. Kin continued his attack until my body was all covered in bite marks. A mixture of old fading marks and newly-sucked ones. He sucked my nipples until I felt all the hairs from my body stood up in tingle. 

I was in seventh heaven when Kinn suddenly grabbed the most sensitive part of my body. He began to knead it up and down that it made me feel dizzy with ecstasy. My heart twitches as his thick hands wrapped me in warmth.

"Hmm.. Porsche.. you're so hot." 

Kinn's lips kept traveling south until I felt his hot breath on my abs, his hands still wrapped around me tightly. The tip of his tongue licked my navel that 

almost left me unconscious with need but Jaye Jade's words suddenly flashed through my head again.

You must learn to invade. The strategy is- use your mouth.

If you learn to use your tongue correctly, I assure you he will fall in love with you in no time.

I stared down at Kinn who was busy ravishing my body. I swallowed down my saliva, gathered enough courage as I pulled his face into mine and kissed him deeply.

Fuck! Should I really be doing this?

Damn yeah

! 

"Uhm!"

Kinn furrowed his brows in confusion as I slipped my tongue into his mouth and began to divert his attention. I guided him until he was lying on his back 

and I was on top of him. Puzzled, Kinn reached out for my neck but I grabbed his wrist and hold it on his side.

"W-what are you doing?" 

Kinn asked softly as I pulled away from his lips and moved down to the crevice of his neck, slowly, licked, nibbled and swirled my tongue into the white skin. He tastes like cinnamon and dark chocolate mixed together. I was thrilled to the bones!

Kinn moaned and involuntarily closed his eyes and gave in to my touch. I could see the uncertainty written on his face but he let me do as I please. My 

lips moved down to his chest and did just like what he did to me. I sucked his dark nipples in full force that gained a sigh from Kinn, and I saw him bit his 

lips. I continued to suck him real good but then it's time to go lower. 

Shifted to look up at Kinn's dark eyes, I silently asked for permission to go beyond the beltline. This was making me nervous but Kinn nodded slowly and smiled before he laid down in bed giving me full access to his body. 

Damn! The trust he's putting into me was astonishing. I got to do this right!

"Uhm."

My mind was made up. I would fucking do this. Slid my face down towards his belly, slowly descended to his navel and down further until I came face to face with his magnificent erection. This has been the one responsible for my backaches this past week.

I got you today cocky bastard!

"Porsche.. Uhm.."

I didn't wait for his next words as I grabbed his manhood and moved my hand slowly. I looked up at Kinn's paled face then run my tongue across my lower lip before I experimentally licked his tip. Kinn jolted at the first contact of my wet tongue on his head.

"Shit Porsche!"

Kinn cursed sternly as I repeated the lewd action. His head lifted and dropped back into the bed. My heart pounded loudly inside my chest but the desire that crossed Kinn's eyes gave me enough determination to go on. My tongue stretched across Kinn's length and started to lick him from the base to the tip. I don't have any idea of what I was doing but it felt right. 

I licked his pre-cum that was flowing out of his tip and it didn't taste disgusting at all like I envisioned it to be. I could say it's not bad. Judging from Kinn's expression as he bit his lips tightly while looking down on me, this was good. This got to be good or else I won't be able to face him by tomorrow.

The next thing I did left Kinn gasping for breath. I opened my jaws wide and then slowly sucked the engorged head of his dick. The feeling of his hard 

shaft against the inside of my mouth feels weird. It twitched, moved, palpitated.

Shia! It's alive!

Nonetheless, I had no choice but to continue what I started. I carefully wrapped my hands on the base of his throbbing manhood then started bobbing up and down his length.

Kinn groaned in surrender when I played him with my tongue while inside my mouth. Being a man myself, I knew where the pleasure points were and I used it to my advantage. My movement got him deeper into me. Nodding my head in rhythm as Kinn twisted in pleasure, his hands were gripped tightly into my hair. I sucked, licked, and bobbed up and down.

The feeling of his smooth skin as he glided languidly inside my mouth was almost astonishing. If you asked me have I done this before, the answer would be no. But what I am doing was purely based on my preferences. I used to be very satisfied with this and the part where it ticks me the most was what I attacked. The more Kinn's shaft got deeper into my throat, the more I concentrated. My head was focused on giving him the pleasure that he needs. 

I have to prove something and my pride won't allow me to fail.

"Ughh. Damn, Porsche. Where did you learn this skill?" Kinn asked in a hoarse voice.

His body began to twitch at my every move. He raised his head to gaze down at me. This was the first time I have done something I never thought I could, but it looked like I nailed it.

"Do you like it?"

I let go of his core for a while to ask. But my hand never left and continued to knead him up and down. 

"I.. I like it so much.. It's so good. Ohh.." Kinn moaned and I smiled at his satisfied answer. 

This time, I tried to push all of him into my mouth that it almost reached my throat. Although I couldn't get all of it inside, I moved up and down quickly. My pace increased as his grip on my neck tightens.

"Uhhh fuck! If you continue to do that, I will finish quickly

." 

He hissed through his gritted teeth as I sucked hard, though I struggled due to his huge package. As I continued to fuck him from the base to the tip, I gazed up at Kinn and our eyes locked with each other like a magnet. He groaned and gasped at each stroke. His thighs trembled and I like that very much. I 

"You are so fucking sexy. Ughh ahh.." 

Kinn reached for my jaws with both hands and held my head in between them. He began to guide my head in his rhythm and I followed easily. The way Kinn grunted every time he thrusted, made me feel the pleasure that he was feeling. I seem to feel it too from the vibrations of his cock. But then he started to thrust way too deeper. His hip meets every bob of my head and the sharp, almost violent force made me gagged in his manhood. He kept pushing until one sudden move his tip touched my throat and I nearly puked.

"Just one more.. ugh.." Kinn murmured hoarsely.

"Sorry but I can't ughhh.." Kinn said as my mouth becomes almost numb from pleasure.

I have no idea that giving a blow job could be so satisfying as I let him lead my head in every thrust, his tight grip at the sides of my head gave me the anchor not to stumble down. My hands were pressed tightly on his hips and my nails dug into the white skin. 

"Ughhh! I can't hold it anymore. Ughh, I'm close fuck!" 

His words rang in my ear like a seductive melody. I hallucinated. I felt so good inside. Kinn was at my mercy. And I held his life in my hand. Kinn speds up and moved faster. I sucked tighter around him and felt his shaft twitched as his climax neared. I thought he would let go of me but he slammed deeper before I taste a large amount of warm liquid spilled into my 

mouth. I accidentally swallowed most of it in shock as Kinn locked my head tightly into him.

After a few seconds, I pushed Kinn hard and spit the leftover love juice from my mouth.

Fuck!

Kinn laughed while he panted in satisfaction. I punched his chest in annoyance. This damn bastard! 

"Damn it! You should have told me when you are coming!" 

I wiped the remained stains from the side of my lips while I cursed endlessly. I wasn't born to swallow your cum dick! All my life I have no idea I could be doing this but the good thing it didn't taste so bad. But it's still giving me goosebumps! Shit! I did not expect this at all!

"Come here." Kinn said pulling me down. I glared at him but sat next to him anyway.

"Fuck you!" I said again. I am so annoyed right now. My cock was throbbing in pain and Kinn was being a half-assed dick.

"Hmm, well done. Where have you learned to do that?" Kinn grabbed me for a hug and shoved his nose into the crook of my neck. 

Where have I learned? Do you mean who I practiced this with? Are you fucking crazy? 

I wished to rain curses at him once again but chose not to.

"This is the first time" I said softly. 

"Really? You sucked so well for a first-timer." He said as he pushed me down on the bed.

He moved on top of me and I realized that it was my turn and he was back in control of the game again. 

"Kinn, can you hurry up? I'm ah, uncomfortable." I said hoarsely. I felt the ache on my core and I'm dying for Kinn to touch me there. I want him so bad. So bad that I think I could beg to have him inside me. 

Wait, that sounded so wrong! But so hot at the same time!

"Uhh. You're going to drive me crazy, I'm afraid so myself." Kinn whispered inaudibly.

Though I am not a very emotional person, I couldn't convey what was happening to me now. All I know was, I like this damn bastard and I'm willing to do anything to make him mine. I leaned over to touch Kinn, my moans slowly gotten louder uncaring of how loud it could get.

Kinn played with my body before he slipped in between my thighs and folded my knee midway. My hips elevated from the bed. Not long after, I felt the 

cold gel touched my skin then his fingers began to stretch my rim. It was a bit sore from yesterday but as the days go by, I began to get used to the sting. 

The sensitivity of my core grew more and more.

"I'm getting in."

Kinn didn't wait for my reply and he immediately plunged into me in a swift move. My back arched as I felt him rock back and forth into my tightness. The feeling of Kinn's shaft inside me was so amazing. It's like an invisible connection between us.

"Ugh! Kinn." 

I bit my lower lip tightly. I was choking from pleasure. I want his dick to ram me hard. So hard that I would lose my sanity. Kinn wiped the sweat off his face as he slammed in me swiftly. 

"Shia, you felt so good. Porsche..ugh.."

Kinn's breath became labored. And I realized he wasn't wearing a condom for the first time. We were doing it skin to skin and the feeling was intense. Kinn's core thundered inside me and it felt really good. Everything in me danced due to the resonating tingles from my core to every fiber of my bones. 

I knew I would be loving this for the rest of my life!

"Kinn. Faster.. ugh.." 

I called out to him, my fingers dug on his shoulders. 

I'm afraid I couldn't take it any longer this time. I couldn't bear it. As Kinn pushed deeper, my body shoots up like a raging fire. I am about to be shattered into pieces.

Fuck!

"Ugh.. if you can, I wanted to do it all night long. I want to have you as much as I can. Shit!"

Kinn said before he thrusted his hips violently into mine hitting my sweet spot every time. I trembled in pleasure, shaking so hard that I almost come. 

"Kinn.. I can't anymore, ughhhh." 

This time, Kinn moved raggedly, held my hips in place at every stroke. His breath and his tempo increased over time until I felt my body arched in rapture, every molecule of my body bursted as I came.

"Damn fuck.. I'm coming inside you, Porsche. Fuck!" 

Kinn screamed my name as he came splitting my insides, releasing another series of hot liquid inside my body. He moved in and out a few more times before he tensed completely and let go of my thighs. I felt the warm liquid oozing out of me.

"Ah, I'll help you clean up." 

He smiled down at me and my face instantly heated up.This bastard!

He snuggled deep down on my body and continued to rain tiny kisses on my face. I gasped for breath as I laid down. It was tiring as if we had done the hardest exercise of all. But Kinn didn't let me rest for long. He turned my body upside down and immediately began the foreplay. I didn't mind the fatigue, didn't even paid so much attention to the cum that flowed down my 

thighs and I have no idea how long this night would last. All I knew was I'm, getting obsessed with him every day. So much that I wanted to live and die for him. 

So, does he have the same feeling as me? Then what I'm doing? Am I being too easy? But I really can't stop myself.