Hug

"Are you free tomorrow?" Kabir asked me while running his hand through his hair.

"Why?" I was a little distracted from his actions.

"Some colleagues came with me this time to explore Ujjain, you can have dinner with us if you are free tomorrow." He explained.

"Cool, text me whenever you guys reach the restaurant." It's not the first time that he is inviting me for something like this, and if I guess I would be knowing everyone already.

Kabir looked at me with an unreadable expression.

"We will be going to Mahakaleshwar temple tomorrow."

I raised an eyebrow.

"You can join us if you want." He said.

"I think dinner would be fine, I have something to do. And they might not be able to enjoy in my presence." It would be awkward if I tagged along all day.

Kabir looked at me like a dejected puppy and I almost said yes to him.

Is he acting a little weird today or am I reading too much into this.

"No, no more discussion on this." I looked away from his face before I changed my decision.

He nudged me with his knees and opened his arms when I looked over.

"What? Did you ate something wrong?" why he is acting like a puppy all of a sudden. I should not let Daisy spend too much time with him.

"Why are you being so cruel? I was gone for more than a month. I know you want to hug me." he said.

He was right but I would never admit it. He is going to tease me for life otherwise. He doesn't understand how much I want to close the distance between us, but not like this.

I still complied, reminding myself that it's nothing, I should just act casual.

My heartbeat sped as I leaned ahead. My brain stopped working. I think I would die if he kept on doing this. Before I could even feel the hug he broke it.

I think I might kill him out of anger before I ever confessed.

I sat back stiffly. My brain was still malfunction so I chased him off quickly.

I don't remember how he went back or what I said to him.

I slumped on the sofa holding my chest.

"Tell me daisy why he is like this?" Just stay away if you are not going to do anything about it. Why you have to make things harder than they already are for me.

Daisy curled up against my leg and all my anger from earlier went away.

"You can't get away with this next time, you are on my side not his." Even though I said that, I would still let it slide next time.

It has become a routine now. She would remember me after he's gone.

I can't even threaten her that I will give her to him, she is going to be excited on that thought.

"Why don't you transfer some of your intelligence to him, he needs it the most. I don't understand what you saw in him. All he do is make me angry and you side with him every time." I rubbed her belly and she ignored my words like every time. Nothing new.

After all it was me saying not a certain someone that she would listen.

"What I am going to do now?" I said into the air.

It is getting harder for me to keep my feelings to myself by each passing day.

And I don't think that idiot is ever going to understand my hints, even though he knows me the best.