Story of Nikki Lindsey

CHAPTER 46: TINIEST HOPE

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I woke up in the same room I stayed in in Mainland City Hospital last time. Why was I brought here?

But what surprised me was to recognize the person sleeping on the couch near my bed.

What am I doing here? Isn't it supposed that I should be home by now?

I remembered. I was walking toward the gate of the mansion when John followed me. While we were talking, I lost consciousness.

I looked around to find my purse. Gladly, it was placed on the bedside table. I sat up on the bed to reach for it. I take out my phone to check the time.

3:30 in the morning? I should have gone home! I panicked and wondered if Mae and Chris were also here.

I want to call her, but I don't want to bother them this much if they were home already. "Mae, where are you?" I texted her, but she wasn't replying. 'What happened to me?' 

"Nikki?"

I jolted upon hearing his voice. I know it was Theo, but the way he called my name was tender and sensual.

"Are you feeling okay?"

He asked me. I swallowed before replying to him, stuttering. "Yes— yes..." 

I gasped as Theo sat beside me. I want to move to my right. But there was a pillow and a dead-end for me by the headboard.

"You're not running a fever. Have you stressed yourself again?"

'What he's doing?' I asked myself when Theo reached for my forehead. His voice is deep and gives me an electrifying sensation throughout my body. I could also feel his body's warmth, and I wished to be locked inside his arms.

I hugged myself. Not because it was cold, but I don't particularly appreciate how my body reacted to Theo's touch.

'What are you doing, Nikki Lindsey?' I scolded myself and shook my head to wake up and pull myself together.

"Um. Can I go home now?" I asked Theo, avoiding meeting his gaze.

"I am not sure, Nik. But Doctor Yonah advised on a set of tests tomorrow."

"Oh, I see."

I was worried. Why did I lose consciousness? Am I anemic again? But I am taking my supplements. Is it something when I get drunk?

"Is Chris and Mae still here?" I asked afterward. I wonder if they were outside, sleeping on the sectional settee. Besides, I want to distract myself or get out of this room or have an excuse.

"They already went home. But don't worry. Mae and Chris won't tell Aunt Lucy you were in the hospital. We came up with ideas that you were spending overnight with friends after the party."

Bewildered, I don't particularly appreciate how I have always lied to mama, and this guilt has eaten me up.

"Nik?"

I turn my head toward Theo. From the soft light of the ceiling, Theo's stares are solemn and passionate. I wish that I could read his mind. Somehow, something is telling me to stay away from him.

"Um, are you saying something?" Stuttering, I asked. My chest thumps loudly, and I hope he won't hear it.

"If you want to go home right now, I will drive you home."

I contemplate Theo's offer. If I go home now, and they saw Theo dropped me by, people would put a meaning to it. Even though I live in the city, people still love to gossip. I shook my head.

"Well, if mama knows I was with my friends, I better go home tomorrow after the lab tests. But um…"

I glanced at my clothes, and I panicked.

'Oh, gosh!' I want to pull the blanket, but Theo is seated on it. My dress rolled up, showing too much of my legs and the fullness of my cleavage-revealing upfront.

This tension between us is getting unbearable. No wonder Theo is looking at me this intensely. I was showing so much skin! Ugh. I'm digging my brain to find some excuse that our bodies could have some distance. 

"Um, can I have… some…"

I froze. I was staring at the wall behind Theo, and I could taste the champagne in his mouth. It took another minute before my brain worked again to realize that Theo was kissing me.

He's kissing me???????

Embarrassingly, I was like someone had her first kiss; frozen on the bed, I could not move from the shock. It was like a stupid reaction since someone had already kissed me. However, I never saw that man's face.

And knowing it was Theo, my heart beats crazily.

He is holding my face with both of his hands. Feverishly, he kissed me and tried to open my mouth, encouraging me to respond and imitate how his mouth danced on top of mine.

But it does wonder to me if all men kiss the same. I cannot answer my query, as aside from that mysterious man, it was Theo I only had to kiss.

Somewhat, their kisses are the same. The only difference is that my consciousness perceives it was Theo, envisioning his face inside my head while our lips brush each other.

Later, I place my palms on his chest. I sensed how his heart was beating fast. I wonder if he is nervous.

Oh, shot. I want to giggle. But Theo has been shutting my mouth as he deepens his kisses. Once I let him in, he quickly searches for my tongue, like telling me his home.

His mouth was like champagne, but it tasted sweeter. Later, I could feel his hand clasping my right chest.

I jolted when I felt his palm touching my very skin. I recalled wearing a different brassier that won't be visible upfront when wearing a revealing dress like mine.

It was the reason he quickly pulled it down, and now Theo played with my nipple using his thumb.

I gasped and reached for his neck. It sent a hundred volts throughout my body.

I cling to Theo's coat's collar when his other hand starts caressing my back, and I could feel the warmth in his palm going through the fabric.

I sighed between our kisses when he caressed my other breast. I could not think straight anymore but was lost in his touch.

'When did he push me in the bed?' I asked myself when I didn't feel the pillow anymore.

I remained to stare at the ceiling when he left my lips, but his mouth trailed down my neck.

I sighed. I gather all my strength, l that is enough to push him away.

"Nik?" 

Theo wondered why I pushed him. But it was my right palm that answered him. My right hand landed on Theo's left cheek. I fought back my tears as I would not allow them to escape from my eyes.

"Get out." With a shaking voice, I spoke. "Leave, please!"

I raised my voice this time.

"Nikki, I—"

"You need not explain," I said, wishing he just left me alone in an instant.

Theo slowly drags his feet out of the room. I could feel he was unwilling to leave. Soon, my tears race from my eyes down to my chin.

I knew it. Because Theo heard I'm probably sleeping around. He thought he could hit on me to strip my clothes off and be naked underneath him.

I reach for my sleeves and fix my dress as it exposes my breasts.

He thinks I was a slut. Why was I hoping for someone like him to love me?

I would be just somebody's possession. That is the sad truth. I know I shouldn't wish for something impossible. 

But the tiniest hope, I could have a grasp of the love I dreamed of.