Hurting souls

Jiang Cheng woke up with something heavy on his stomach. he slowly opened his eyes, looking down at his stomach he saw Zewujun head lying on his stomach while he sat down on the floor near by the bed.then everything flows through his mind. he recalls what happened between them. he remembered every little thing. he blushed slowly his fingers traces his lips. he still feels the warmth of the young master Lan is lips on him.

Jiang cheng smiled at the sleeping zewujun.' so we both are sent by them to change the future. and you.... ' Jiang cheng is finger crasses the hair of the Lan ' you are My Soulmate, you know how happy I am? Lan Xichen .... xichen..... ' his fingers stopped midway ' i don't deserve you xichen. i am not perfect, i destroyed everyone's peace, i batrayed my family, my brother i failed to protect him. ' he looked down at him with tears in his eyes..

he slowly got up from the bed, he carefully placed a pillow for xichen. bent kneel down he longingly look xichen is face ' i am scared.... scared of losing you.... scared of hurting you.... someday .... i..... L... ' he paused ' I am sorry for being a burden to you, you have the right to choose your choice.but i don't want to be your choice . iam tired of being a choice in everyone's choice, in the end no one chooses me, am just a second option to them. ' he said . stood up from the place. ' i just want to live with peace and happiness. i am already decided my path. i don't want to drag you with me. you have a Sect to run.family to protect . one day i will leave this cultivation world, from now on i try to avoid the bond between us. Xichen..... i... ' he couldn't finish his sentence. tears flowing down his cheek . Shanglei instantly came out because she heard every thought of Jiang cheng, she was sleeping soundly but woke up when she felt her master wake up From the fainting. Shanglei immediately teleported them to Jiang cheng in the room.

she looked at him " master ,are you alright? " Jiang cheng smiled noddingly " a-lei please don't tell anything to him, I'm not ready for another lose . please...." he pleads. she shook her head "but master, Zewujun really likes you. " she said..

Jiang cheng turned towards the outside of the forest " Yes he is.... but the only reason I'm his fated one.... Shanglei sometimes fates are fated to change everything. i don't want him to tie up with my life because of fate. you know what? When Guniyan temple incident i saw.... " he gulped closed his eyes " I saw him, ready to die with someone else. maybe I'm his soulmate but im not the one he truly loves. " he slowly turned towards her " please a-lei just once.... just once i want to be happy... without anyone else is second choice. even.... I'm also your second choice right? if....if you are not happy about this you can leave. i... I will cut off our bond right now you can live your life " he said with nothing but Calmly....

hearing this Shanglei shook her head continuously " no no no master i won't leave you. please don't think about that. please don't master.... " her whole body shivered and tears spilled out her eyes...

Jiang cheng" i want to sleep. you can go, rest too " said he walked towards his bed...

Shang lei couldn't sleep. the whole night she sat near the bed, watching Jiang cheng sleeping figure , while chanting ' i won't leave your side . you're not second choice ' .

The next morning In the HANSHI:

Liebing the one who woke up xichen. xichen looked up while rubbing off his sleep from his eyes. only noticed that his Jiang cheng was not here . " Liebing where is wanyian? " Liebing face paled for a second, Zewujun didn't notice that." Master in the middle of the night he went to his room, When young master Jiang woke up he wanted to go to his room so Lady Shanglei teleported them to their room" he said...

Liebing looked outside of the falling water from hill ' master I'm sorry. this time you have to prove yourself and love to Young master Jiang. he needs lots of love and assurance. yesterday I barely hold my self From expose infront of them. I can't tell you anything about that master. because he has a reason ' he thought

while Xichen looks at the bed where his wanyian sleeps,he traces the soft white silk with his fingers " oh... maybe he didn't want anyone to notice him here. it's fine i will go to meet him. " he slowly stood up from his position...

Liebing Stop him" Master " he called out him , Xichen " yes Liebing? " he Asked because he noticed the hesitation in his voice... Liebing went on his knees, joining his hand ,bowed his head , Xichen who was watching this walk near him " i want to talk to you master. maybe my words anger you,i grow up with you master,i will take any punishment for this. " he said...

Xichen just want to know what is bothering Liebing. Liebing also like a little brother to him. " speak Liebing " he said still looking at the kneeling person.

Liebing closed his eyes for a second before talking " Master what is your feeling about Meng yao? " he asked, xichen taken aback for a second " Liebing? Why are you suddenly asking this? " Liebing still looking down " because you are not allowed to love Young master Jiang, When you almost ready to die with someone at Guniyan temple. " he said...

xichen now understands why Liebing is doing this. He is responsible for answering him . because when he entered the seclusion, many people thought ' Zewu jun entered seclusion because he killed the person he loved ' he was aware of this rumour because his brother Wangji told him what is happening outside...

suddenly his eyes widened , he looked at the younger male " this is not your thoughts, right? " he Asked . Liebing for the first time look up at his master " yes master not mine. but i too want to know the answer " he said....

Xichen chuckled softly but sad one. he step back struggling to not to cry " Liebing.... True I'm ready to die with them ... ' Them ' not with him . I was blinded by the brotherhood , i trust him with my life , but in the last he was the one who stabbed me in the back. I am undeserving to the kindness this word showed to me. if.... if I'm atleast aware of his cruel plan , I am able to save my father, my home, my wanyian is home,his brother. da ge and the innocent Wens.... " xichen stumbled back to his bed....

he slowly touched the warm now cold silk sheet" he told me about how he helped me, the first thing came to my mind was if he didn't save me , atleast my da ge didn't die in my hands. you know what Liebing that second i hate my life, i want to die. I'm afraid Liebing. What if again someone uses my kindness and betrayed me? i lost my will to live..... so I was ready to die with them... " he shut his eyes for a second.

he breathed in and out " i was pushed out , away from my death. i entered seclusion because i lost the will to live, to face the world, im scared of my own self.... " he said, tears welled up in his eyes. Liebing went to his master,sat down on the floor " Master.... I'm sorry... because I don't want anyone to suffer or hurt " he said...

Xichen shook his head " it's okay.... you know when I realise that Wanyian was my soulmate I'm all over the moon. because he is the one who healed my soul. when I lost my a-die and home , I just got the memories of that " he said with a small smile..

Liebing looked his master" so.... he is not your second choice right? " he asked

xichen" my first And Last When matters comes to me about him no option in that. my previous life and Now he was the one who always comes first. i didn't realise that before but not now " he said then" now I understand why wanyian wants to leave me. first I will show him that he is the one i yearning for eternity " he said...

Liebing breathe in relief" I understand master. now im happy knowing the full reason. soon he too understand you... " said he left the room..

xichen get up from his bed, went to his bathroom.

he slowly removed his robe one by one then enter the bathtub. he relaxed against the cold water hitting his skin. the memories of them filled with his mind...

Huan -ge

please.... please.....

don't want to away from you....

right there..... uhmm ge ge faster....

fill me with your seed....

wanyian Love comes here ....

ge ge will make you feel good....

tighter.... swallow me darling....

you are my slut.... this ass belongs to me....

look down at him ,he again is hard for your little ass....

baby , Daddy gives you my seed, take it baby.take it...

.

.

.

.

.