8. I try

CAMERON'S POV

It had been two weeks since Lara had left for who knows where, and I'm frustrated. Frustrated I don't know where my wife and best friend is, and frustrated I hadn't made any progress in rehab.

"Ugh, at this rate I'll never get better," I huffed and Bianca rolled her eyes. "You're just getting started Cameron. "You're not going to get better in two weeks," she said, and now it's my turn to roll my eyes. "I know I'm not going to get better in two weeks, but I could have improved a little" I protested. "I swear right now you look like a little boy. Are you always like this or what? All you do is protest and you not focus on improving," she pointed out and now it's my turn to roll my eyes. "Do you think I don't want to improve?" I asked irritated at this moment with Bianca even though I know she just wants to help me.

"I know you want to get better, but do you really think that complaining all the time about your pain is going to help you at all?" Bianca asked, raising an eyebrow and making me think about Lara. "You don't know how much this hurts," I huffed. "I don't know, and I also know I can't compare the situations, because it isn't, but do you remember when Lara had her knee surgery? Did you hear her at any point protest she was in pain and she wasn't seeing any progress?" My sister-in-law questioned, crossing her arms. "You're right, the situation is not similar," I protested.

"But the mentality and predisposition to improve is the same. Lara wanted to compete again, so she focused on her recovery and didn't go crying in the corners because of everything hurt, instead you want to get my sister back, but you're not doing everything possible to do so, your attitude continues being the same as it was when Lara left, and at this rate, I assure you she won't come back" she responded, annoyed, I guess, with my attitude, so I took a deep breath and tried to calm down.

"I'm sorry, you're right. It's just I'm going up the wall without knowing anything about Lara. Did Eli tell you anything?" I asked hopefully "Eli is still angry about the other day, so no, I don't know anything about them, but from what Grandma told me, they're both fine and Lara is getting better, so that's good" Bianca responded, and despite I know it's good, I missed talking to Lara. Those conversations, sometimes meaningless, or the most comfortable silences of my life. I had to do something to be able to have her with me again.

"What we have to do now is worry about you getting better," Bianca said, putting a hand on my shoulder. I nodded and we spent another hour doing my exercises. When we finished, we went to her grandmother and mother's house to spend time there.

Another relationship I also had to fix is with my mother, because since all this with Lara had started, she practically didn't speak to me. I don't know if it's because Lara had told her everything going on between us, it's not something I believe one hundred percent, but it's a possibility, and I would understand my mother's hatred towards me at this moment, but I also missed the relationship we had before.

"Do you think I can fix my relationship with my mother and Eli?" I asked Bianca as we were driving there. "Of course. All they have to do is see how hard you're trying to make things the way they were before. As soon as they see that, you will have the relationship you had again" she assured and I breathed a little easier.

"Why do you think Eli went with Lara?" I asked out of curiosity, even though I had the idea of why she had done it. "My sister has been supporting Eli all this time, in fact, you know well she practically doesn't speak to me because of what I have done to Eli. It's likely Eli left as a way to thank my sister for everything she's doing for her." Bianca responded with a shrug.

"Do you know the reason why your sister is so supportive of Eli because of what she's going through?" I questioned, because is something that had caught our attention. "Honestly, no. It was always rumoured a boyfriend of hers cheated on her with another woman, but Lara always denied it," she answered. "Then it may be the rumours weren't so wrong," I responded. "I know, but even if I ask her, I know she's not going to tell me anything," Bianca said and I nodded, because it would be the most likely thing.

After a quarter of an hour, we arrived at their house, got off and entered the house. It still felt strange for me to enter the house without knocking, but everyone had insisted there's nothing wrong with me doing it, and even my mother had gotten used to it.

We both went to the kitchen and I sat in a chair since I'm tired from all the physio and training and honestly, my leg hurt a little, and if there's one thing more than clear to me, it's not force anything, Eli told me a million times before I stopped doing physio with her.

"Cameron, you look better today. How was training?" Carmela asked, sitting in front of me while Bianca had gone off to, I don't know where. "I'm still having a hard time, but I have no intention of stopping this time," I said, shrugging my shoulders. "Great. I'm sure Lara will appreciate it" she said and I nodded "Do you know anything about her?" I asked since she could give me more information about Lara "Yesterday when I spoke with her, she seemed more cheerful. Apparently, she found something that distracts her enough to not think about your situation all the time."

"I want to talk to her" I confessed even though I'm completely sure if I called her, she wouldn't answer me, which I understand, I have treated her like shit in the last couple of months "I don't think it's the best at the moment. If Lara left, it's to clear her head and she's only started doing it for a couple of days, you should wait to talk to her," my wife's grandmother said.

"I understand, but that doesn't mean I don't want to talk to her," I responded, starting to get frustrated. "I understand you want to, really, but the only thing left for you to do is call her or send her the messages you send her. The moment Lara answers you; you'll know that she's closer to getting back with you" Carmela stated and I sighed "She doesn't even read my messages, Carmela"

"And who says she doesn't?" She asked, raising an eyebrow, and that made me sit up straighter in my chair. "Do you know something you're not telling me, Carmela?" I asked, praying she would tell me, "You don't know this from me, but Eli told me she does read them, and not just once exactly, so don't think she's going to leave you and stuff, because my granddaughter's not going to." she responded and I couldn't help but frown trying to figure out how she knew what was on my mind "Cam, everyone knows you have that fear, we don't need anyone to tell us, but Lara loves you, and that's something you should be more than clear."

"I know she loves me, but the situation we're in right now confuses me a little," I answered honestly. Plus, I don't understand how Lara could continue loving me after everything I put her through in the last few months. "Do you know anything else? How is our child?" I asked "They're both fine" Carmela assured and I sighed a little more relieved.

Just then, my mother enters the kitchen, and it doesn't take long for Carmela to leave, leaving the two of us alone. I couldn't help but tense up. These last few months hadn't been our best, with many people actually, but with my mother and Lara that situation especially bothered me.

"I'm sorry, Mom," I said after a few minutes. "Why are you supposed to be sorry?" She asked, turning in my direction and crossing her arms over her chest. "Because of how I have behaved in these months. I shouldn't behave like that even though I wasn't going through my best moment" I said sighing at the end.

My mother started to approach me and ended up sitting next to me looking at me "Honey, I know you are having a hard time, but we wanted to help you, we want to help you, especially Lara. What makes me angry is how you treated your wife" mom responded "You hate me, right?" I asked and she laughed, "Cam, I don't hate you, I'm angry about the situation you got yourself into. I know you're not having the best time right now either, but Lara needed less stress than she had being here. She's better now," she said and I stretched out in the chair when I heard what she said.

"Are you talking to Lara?" I asked and she laughed again "Of course I talk to Lara. We talk every day. How do you think she knows how you really are?" Mom asked, still laughing, and I held my breath for a few seconds. "Is she asking you about me?" I whispered and she nodded with a small smile on her face. "Of course. That's the first question she makes me every day. It may seem like right now you feel like she doesn't care about you, but Lara cares about you more than anything Cam, or at least you're the second most important person in her life," my mother answered, taking my hand and giving it a little squeeze.

"Then why isn't she answering my calls?" I asked, confused, because who better than me to tell her how I am? "She's not ready to talk to you. You have to understand you made her suffer Cam, and whatever you told her to make her leave, it hurt her a lot" my mother assured me and I nodded, because I knew I had done it, she didn't need to tell me.

"I know, and I will apologize the moment she allows me to talk to her," I said sincerely, because that's what I intended to do. "I know. Better tell me how you feel" mom asked with a big smile on her face "Better. Bianca is helping me a lot with my recovery right now and even threw all my alcohol bottles down the sink" I said laughing "I like these girls more and more, it's good for you to spend time with them"

I nodded, because I agreed with her. "I know, and she's helping me find a way for Lara to listen to me and forgive me." I responded with a big smile. "I don't think you really need her help. But you also have to understand Lara is going to take her time," my mother informed me and I nodded, because I already knew that. "I know, that doesn't mean I have to like it."

"I also know, you just have to have a little patience. "Lara will be back" she assured and a smile appeared on my face, because I knew that would happen. I'm looking forward to that day. "I'm clear about it, mom, and if she doesn't, I'll do everything in my power to get my wife back."