I look at the door then the window.. hungry.. wanting freedom. I find myself banging the window.. I had so little control it was like trying to stop breathing.. somehow I managed to stop myself from breaking the widow's glass. I had thought of that night.. when Ian didnt transform with me.. that was the only night I had full control.. it was the most peaceful night.. but after that it never happened again. I wish it would happen once more. Shoot what little control is gone again.. I was scratching at the door.. later moving on to anything that could tear. The room was become a gigantic mess of fabrics. I had marabell put a spell on the walls, door and glass that would make it werewolf resistant. So I could scratch and tear the door and walls up but they would repair themselves. That was a wonderful gift.. marabell was just so good I want to repay her in any way I can.. I find that I was hand sewing but I didn't know what. I prick myself with the needle by accident and wimper. I start to hear kaylee scream next thing I know the window was shattered and I was out.. no... oh no.. I thought that it was werewolf proof. I notice a lamp in the scattered broken glass oh that's how then.I hear the scream again and find that I was running towards her screams. No she gonna find out.. I might hurt them... or someone else. I couldn't see how the people around reacted I'm sure they were terrified.. good thing I didn't try to attack anyone. I find myself in a strange spooky room. I see something on a shelf and pick it up with my silvery grey padded paw and raise it to my nose. Marabell.. I smelled her scent almost all over shes supposed to be looking after them. I find that in in another room now.. it was brighter but not by much.. it seemed like a room but outside.. wait those are fences covered in tarps. Why.. would.. they.. put.. tarps.. over.. fences? Hal... loween.. yeah its halloween.. howl-o-ween. My mouth forms a small o shape and I hear a howl.. was that me?.. yes it is me.. I'm a werewolf.. guess I forget things in wolf form. I smell kaylee, Ian, now.. I see marabell, then kaylee, next Ian, and lastly four strangers. My face scrunches up at the strangers. I walk to them slowly growling a bit in a low quiet sound looking at the people I didn't know. The oldest one smiles "cool effects" he says grabbing my fur.. "oh costume. not good at acting though" I growl louder my teeth show. My hand goes to his neck and picks him up by his shirt's collar. I pull him closer to my face. The control is back again, I hold him in the air he seemed scared now so I put him down quickly. "that's b..b..better act...acting" he says shaking a little bit. My head tilts to the side a bit.. acting.. I think.. acting is that.. attacking? No it's different but how? Doesn't matter it'll come to me latter anyway. I let out a low growl a bit hungry but trying to not hurt anybody. Meat.. I smelled meat.. I follow the scent and find some stake in a refrigerator... it smells cooked.. it was marabell's this was her house.. I go back and hold the stake out to marabell.. she nods. I offer some to the others.. "okay this is weird" the oldest boy says.. I scowl at him.. he looks a bit scared seeing that and sits down. "alright alright totally normal" Ian smiles and looks to marabell. "so how'd you guys do this?" he asks referring to me, the silvery gray, furry, golden eyed, werewolf. "what's next?" kaylee asks seeming less scared than before. "I dont really know how they do it they just do.. all I do is provide one of the houses and being a guide, as for what's next.. only the fates know." she says with a smile leading them further to a place that is greek mythology's underworld themed. I ate the stake it was good enough for now without harming anyone.. I had to go somewhere where the times that I had no control were alright... somewhere secluded. I climb the fence which wasnt too hard to do. I galloped off a short distance then realized that there weren't many secluded areas close by. I guess I'm a part of the whatever that was... house.. haunted house.. that's what it is. I knew that certain things are foggy when I am transformed but I always forget that. When I have control I remember what I do but when I don't I forget, and some things I know when I have control are forgotten when I don't. I climb over the fence again still easily done. I curl up on the ground in the darkest corner.. Control.. I have a bit not a lot though.. I liked control.. well more over myself than anyone or anything else.. I hate.. no loathe the moon.. no whoever made me this.. no even better whoever started lycanthorpy in the first place. This control should be used wisely while I have it and that wise time spending is in keeping myself away from people. I fall asleep a little still awake a small amount. I hear someone come towards me from the side that I was on.. they step on my tail.. I yelp and turn to them snarling. Scents familiar.. she screams.. kaylee? no it's different but only a little.. it cant be her... or... her... she was taken and.. probably k...killed. Cub.. I pull her to me gently and nuzzle her.. she was shaking terrified. I place my right paw behind her head holding her close with the other.. my face was soft and gentle. She's one of mine.. cub... I have two with me and one not.. cub.. Ian.. I had peace, calm, joy, and control like now.. I have control with my cubs.. no not the right word... kids... kids I have control around my kids. I start licking her slowly then excitedly slow down.. she's scared remember.. I make myself appeare smaller by getting lower to the ground. I let go of her she still seemed scared but less scared now.. "your just a big dog kind of.. well you're actually more like my dad if I'm honest.." dad.. she's Kyleen.. Kyleen is Kylee my face becomes scrunched up angry.. Eric you... you.. are the one who took her.. but she's alive... she's alive. I lick her again in one big one this time. Kylee.. you may be kyleen now but that doesnt matter.. what matters is your 'dad' is going to answer to me. I climb out again and try to find his scent which I follow when I find it. "wait.. no one knows you and you'll scare everyone" she says before climbing over the fence too, she cuts herself.. I rip off a small piece of cloth and wrap her bleeding hand in it tightly and gently. "I'm alright but you wont be.. you can hurt someone or even yourself.. whoever you are" I ignore her and continue following his scent a stern look on my face. I get to a small cabin just outside of a small forest. I go into the forest a little was until I meet a clearing.. Kyleen followed me so I decided to let her ride on my back. I see him.. 'Eric' I say the angriest I've ever been. I shouldn't tear his throat out but he took her. He turns around and walks towards us slowly. Kyleen had fallen asleep on the way. 'what's up buttercup' he says. I feel a scorching pain all over the closer he got. 'you.' I say through the pain. He backs up and it lessens. 'you took her' 'took who darling' 'dont call me darling.. and you know who' I sneer at him. 'why not we are married' 'no we aren't. I'm married to Keith' 'well by werewolf terms we're married only like this though' 'what are you talking about' 'you know it don't you' at that I remember when I was made a werewolf. 'it was you. all you.' I say stepping towards him furious. I set Kyleen down by a tree gently before continuing. 'Kylee... and... this.. and... Ian' 'yep' he says with a small smile. 'I made you mine' 'I'm not anyone's' 'dont you want to know the context dear' 'we aren't married stop it' I say even more furious, I turn around walk out val walk out. 'he's dead' I turn around hearing it I always worried about that he cant be telling the truth... but no one has heard of him since... I left. 'how do you know' I say angry holding in tears. 'I did it' he says with a smile. At this point I was enraged. I stand up and ram into him with all my weight forcing him to the ground. My claws ripped his skin and his weren't out he didnt want to hurt me. Val you aren't like him.. walk away.. you have to live with it.. you've lived with the possibility for 9 years... but there was still a chance he wasn't.. now was different.. it was heavier. I stop and slump down crying and trying harder to breath. 'I hate you' I holler in tears 'I never want to see or hear from you ever again' I calmed down.. I pick up kyleen who was starting to wake up. 'I'm taking kylee back.. you took her from me for 14 years we thought she was dead' I say still very angry and in tears blood on my paws.. I place her on my back and run back to where we were before.