What the heart wants:Reincarnator meets transmigrator
"If anything he doesn't love me as much as he loved you, I have seen Asher in love. He becomes the softest and gentlest person to the one he loves, but he isn't like that with me. he thinks he loves me but he doesn't-" "That is because he wants to be loved in return" Sabine stated. Isabelle looked at the other woman, "what do you mean? "That look in his eyes when he stares at you? He loves you so much that he is scared of getting hurt, he is afraid that you would not love him back the way he loves you. If there is something I have noticed with Asher is that he sacrifices himself for me, he did the same thing for Giselle too, but with you, he just wants to be loved back." "And that is supposed to be better? He worshipped you two and for me?" "He didn't worship us, Isabelle, on the contrary, you are the one being worshipped. There is nothing more beautiful in this world than to love and be loved. He did not need us to love him back, he did not require our love but he pines for yours. You can see vividly how he searches and does everything he can to receive even a sliver of your affection. You have more power over his sanity, peace of mind, and happiness than Giselle and I combined wished to have. Isabelle, you have it all, every single part of Asher's heart and soul, and as hard as this is to say, you have to stop breaking it." ****************************** This is a love story, a story of fate and fiction, where lifetimes come to play. Do you believe in soulmates? What if you have to endure three lifetimes to end up with your soulmate? Isabelle has suffered heartbreak her past two lifetimes, even though she only remembers one lifetime. Her fate was so twisted she ended up the victim of an ambitious author. When her world is turned into a novel she does not end up as the main lead, hence she does not end up with the male lead, what is worse is that she becomes a cannon fodder that ends up dying tragically. She reincarnates when a transmigrator possesses the body of the novel's second female Lead, Sabine. With another chance she falls in love with the male lead, her fiance once again. But just like in her first life he doesn't even notice her as more than a nuisance, in fact, in this life she dies by his hand. Now she has reincarnated for the third time, and she remembers her past life, she knows her life is fiction and made for mere entertainment but she cannot accept such a tragic fate again. In the first life, the male lead ended up with her cousin the female lead, Giselle. In her second life, he was in love with the second lead, Sabine. All this when she had the most claim to him as his fiancee' but he manages to break her each time. In this life, she is not going to make the same mistake. Each time she loves him she dies, but not this time. But what happens when he finally wants her? What happens when he remembers his past lives and confesses that she is the one he has wanted all along? ************************** Make no mistake, this is not your normal storyline. The first volume is written in the first person and the main villain is not introduced till volume two. It is a SLOWBURN romance and the story picks up in volume two. But this author promises it is not a read you will regret. It is different but worth it, a deep storyline with flawed characters who make real mistakes and have real stakes and pressure on them. Stay for the journey and you will never regret reading this at the end, in fact, you won't be able to forget it. A lot of life lessons, but you must be patient through the ride. If superficial and shallow plotlines are what you want then this read isn't for you, but if you are tired of the same old thing then try these. Same concept but with an incredible twist. This author hopes you see this book for what it is. A lesson.
Affection that wasn't directed towards me.
ISABELLE.
I wish I didn't have to use it, I wish I didn't have to lie but it hurts too much to have him treat me this way when I like him this much. The only thing that keeps me sane is the fact that even Giselle could not seduce him without this same lie. In my past life, Xavier knew Sabine when they were just kids. They lived in some horrible neighborhood apparently and even though they were both poor she had it better. She save his life once when he was getting beat up for stealing, by paying for the food for him. That was the first time someone had been kind to him without wanting something in return. He followed her around for a bit before she eventually moved out of the neighborhood. There were three things he used to remember her by, small Minnie mouse scrunchies with a ripped ear, her gentle skips of joy, and finally her snotty crying. That woman is the only woman that Xavier has ever loved and will ever love.
He has shut his heart to everyone else but that woman. And even though I will be deceiving him again just like that awful woman, it is not as if I will use and dump him the way she did. I do actually love him and I know no one else will ever love him as much as I do. So I will become this woman, to him.
"How was the movie yesterday, did being with his help?" Jessie my best friend asked as we walked out of our final laboratory for the day.
"Um… not really, but I'm meeting him for coffee in" I pause and look at my wristwatch "-in the next seven minutes. Got to go, save a seat for me in the library okay?"
"Sure, give me the deets okay? You know I live through you!" She yelled after me, as I ran for the cafe just outside the campus building.
Step one, pulling my hair free I smile softly and begin to skip. Making sure to look effortless as I do so. And due to my effortlessness, I can't tell if he is looking at me or not, I just hope this works, skipping like this is really embarrassing.
"What are you doing?" His deep voice warms me up and ignoring his question I squeal and sit.
"I got an A in my biochemistry paper!" I squeal happily, "is something wrong?" I ask when I notice the blank expression on his face as he looks at me.
He blinks at first and avoids my eyes, clearing his throat he leans back and folds his arms, "why did you ask me out for coffee? You said you had something important to tell me."
I laugh softly, "did you really believe that? I'm sorry, I thought you would know it was a lie."
"What? You're joking right?" He almost growled, "I am a very busy person do you know that?"
"Why are you overreacting?" I dismiss him, "I mean it's not as if you don't already know I like you so why are you acting so surprised that I lied to you to get you to meet with me? You are more naive than I thought." I say bluntly, but the annoyance on his face becomes increasingly prominent.
He gets up immediately, pushing back his seat to walk away but as he walks past him I grab his arm and we lock gazes. For some reason, this feels wrong? Weak? Diluted? I can't place it but looking into his eyes just doesn't feel as right as I did look into- nope, nope! I am not even going there, it was intense because I hate him, this must be how it feels to look into the eyes of someone you do not despise.
"You are already here aren't you? At least get a cup of coffee out of it, my treat" I say. "Please…" letting go of his arm I go for the second step, pulling out a worn-out ribbon with a ripped Minnie ear.
The moment he sees it he grabs my arm almost violently, "what the hell are you doing?" My turn to ask.
"How do you have this?" He asks.
Blinking I look down at the ribbon, "um… I always have, let go it's hot and my hair is bothering me." I say slowly, pulling my hands free of his grip. Now it's time for a personal charm, the hair tie.
Angling my neck seductively, I place the scrunchie in between my wet lips. And weave my slender finger into the locks of brown wavy hair, pulling it up and skillfully wrapping it around. Then I pick the ribbon from my lips… slowly and wrap it into my hair. At the end of the day, he is a man behind all that arrogance, I am not entirely confident but I know I am not ugly.
"What are you ordering?" The barrister walks over to our table with a notepad in her arms.
I wave dismissively at Xavier and he wordlessly understands that he should order for me as well. By the time I am done I smile at him sheepishly. Struggling to hide the cackle bubbling at the bottom of my throat, since when did I get this confident? I would never do this in my past life, Ever.
Time flies as we drink our coffee, our conversation was pretty controlled but this is the most I've spoken to Xavier. He was curious as well, asking me questions about how I was. I know this love, this sudden bout of affection wasn't directed at me, it was all for the woman that saved his life. It's the biggest regret of my life.
After a short moment of silence, I lean forward and glance into my empty coffee cup. "I guess that's it then, thanks for staying," I say as I stand.
Looking away he mumbled something incoherently, I can hear what he is saying. "… I'll walk you to campus if you still have class."
"Huh?"