bad days

He turned back in surprise and saw Zamir huffing and jogging towards him.

Noah panicked and threw the bag of chips to the ground. He ran up to meet Zamir and caught him as he collapsed against him panting and drenched in sweat.

"what happened, are you okay?" Noah shook him gently "who is it?"

"...m fine,I... i'll cook you a meal.... okay?" he said in between catching his breath and looking into Noah's widened eyes.

"okay?" he asked again

Noah felt a bubble rise in his chest so he exhaled slowly and looked down.

To Zamir, he was mad and was probably trying to calm himself because he began squeezing his shoulders but in reality Noah was trying so hard to suppress the crazy bout of laughter that was threatening to burst out.

When he was finally able to school his expression, he looked up straight into Zamir's eyes and nodded in agreement "okay" he said and noticed how the other man's face lit up

"...but not today, it's late and I need to get home to my mother, so I guess i'll see you around" with that Noah took his hands off his shoulder and started to leave

He stopped and turned around with a frown when someone pulled at his shirt "yes?"

"..."

"well let go of my shirt if you're not going to talk... oooh my, you're not suddenly clingy now are you?" Noah chuckled

let's just say that earned him an index finger that nearly poked his eye out "fuck you, leave then I..." he couldn't complete what he was going to say

he was going to say he was sorry.but that's a lot... that would reduce his pride bar to a zero. No he wouldn't do that

"well i'm leaving then" Noah shrugged and turned around only to get pulled back and this time harshly. He was about to protest when another set of lips smashed into his in a light kiss.

He froze.

He remained frozen even after the kiss ended.

What the fuck was that "Zamir don't ever do that again" he said his voice cold "i'm not gay".

Zamir stood alone in the dark streets watching a very pissed off Noah walk away. for the second time that night.

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He collapsed against his bed and folded up in a fetus position. What was he thinking, how could he have just....done that.

Everyone who knew him knows that he was stuck up kind of gay, he'd never kissed a man before not because he hadn't been asked out but because he couldn't just have someone else's spittle...'ugh' he grimaced

but tonight he had just acted on impulse and done that and the first man he gave his first kiss to hated it.

He turned to bury his face in a pillow and screamed his frustration out. He had never been rejected in his life. well he deserved it, why should he just go about kissing people like that...

and a younger kind of people for that matter.

He tossed and turned all night, his shame and frustration tearing at his fragile ego.

it was still gnawing at him even as he walked into his company the next morning with panda eyes and it did not stop throughout the entire day and he had to clear out his entire schedule for the day because he couldn't think of anything other the intrusive bastard.

His secretary had been shocked and asked him again to be sure she heard him correctly about clearing up his schedule for the whole day and he had yelled at her angrily, venting his frustration out on the poor creature a little.

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Noah wasn't doing any better himself, he had been very pissed out by the irritating act Zamir had chosen to display. he wasn't against that kind of thing but he wasn't for it either.

And that seemed to be his biggest problem at the moment, it was an irritating act but he wasn't irritated by it. if anything he had been excited by it.

He had been desperately trying to tell himself all day that it was because he hadn't engaged in any sexual activity for a long time.

"I need to get laid" without realizing he had said it out loud until his boss responded with a grunt and shoved the order into his hands "deliver my customers order first"

He went through the rest of his day with a big headache. the root of his misery was probably signing deals in his office and not feeling bothered by the damage he'd inflicted on him.

Ofcourse if Zamir had been a girl, he would probably not think twice before he pounce right on her lips hungrily... especially with the way those lips was so.... okay enough... he chastised himself quietly

But the bastard wasn't going to stop bugging him. he sighed in exhaustion as he sat behind the checkout counter later that night. he had spent his entire day thinking about him and when he wasn't thinking, he'd be on his phone searching 'how to not be interested in a guy'.

He attended to the customers as they dropped off their grocery items at checkout. no one said anything but they were throwing worried smiles at him. ofcourse they would, the ever smiling guy was suddenly looking as if the weight of the entire world was on his shoulders.

He half expected Zamir to show up at the store but he didn't which turned out to be both a relief and a bother.

A bother because he began to worry, surely he'd be fine. he'd probably not have had a shitty day such as his he thought to himself as he locked up the store that night.

He turned around to start heading home but his heart could not take it

He was really going to make tonight a living hell for selfish punk he vowed solemnly and head instead towards the apartment complex that wasn't far away.

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"what do you want?" that was the first question he got the moment the door the opened and a black eyed panda stood against it with a frown

Seeing that he had probably been suffering as much as he had, with those tired hazel eyes staring back at him with so much heat.

He didn't know why he did what he did next but he couldn't care right now as his lips molded perfectly with the other.