I'm Sorry...

Hey. How's it going my readers?

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DabanCrow here... Here to say that I'm Sorry.

You know, I have to apologize to anybody that actually likes my work here... Chances are high that I'll never be able to finish it or get anywhere further in it.

Truly, I do want to get more done. But I just can't.

This is my first work that I had taken super seriously when I could. But it just wasn't able to get me going. It feels tedious to work on it nowadays and that really affects the energy I'm able to put into it. Sadly, I just can't work up the heart to type it out, and even when I sit myself down to write it out for you all to read, my concentration disappears and I have no clue on what to write; my mind gets wiped.

Never before in my life had I wanted to truly write like I have on this story. I just wasn't able to get going before this. My other works were just some simple test that I had liked at the time to try and figure out just how I wanted to type everything out, yet just like those I won't finish this one.

I'm Sorry.

But hey, at least I figured what I specialized in... making scenes that can give a glimpse into the mind of a broken man. Even though I have no reason to be broken, I just base my characters off of my own mindset.

So, I'm sorry to say that... I'll probably never work on this Fanfiction ever again. Forgive me.

But hey, maybe if I ever complete a work of mine and have a place of my own and stable pay then I might take this up again. But that day may never come. I hate myself for losing the motivation to work on this, especially because there are some people who genuinely like it.

At one point when I was making this fanfiction I had even wanted to go work on a story that me and my friends from over nine years ago wanted to make(Started our friendship nine years ago), yet we haven't talked about our story for most of high school and now that I've been out of school for over two years, and haven't talked to one another for a year and a half, I just cannot see me making it a reality for us. (I would have loved to make it, sadly, none of my friends remain... it's just me now.)(I even made some serious plot twist that would have shaken the readers if they don't pay close attention. I even made the 'Creator' in that story, the one that Rei had heard about in Ch.14 of Fallen Hero System, one of those Ten.)

Now here I am, listening to some sad music, as I try to wear down my mentality. That is so I can prepare it for my next creation, one that will represent my own mental state.

(I don't even know how my mind became this messed up, it just is. Maybe if I had friends, true friends, I would have been better, maybe if I had been way more open with my feelings I'd be better than I currently am; but that time has long since passed.)

So, maybe I will work on my next FanFiction now. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow or never... Who knows.

If you'd like to say something to me, then go ahead and leave a comment on the chapter... I can get back to you whenever.

Or even go to my Twitter @DabanCrow.

These are where you can find me.

And also, I don't want to continue making the same mistake as I have done before, I most likely will not be posting any chapters before the story has been mostly written out. This is so that I don't drop very early on due to my wavering mental state. I don't even want to take a guess at how long that might be. Sorry again.