000. Reincarnation: Start

3:00 AM, Febuary 2nd, 20XX.

Sitting alone in his room, I twirled a pen in my hands without much thought... I wasn't really doing anything, like usual, just looking at my computer and watching videos while I thought of what to do. Really, just what was I doing...

Ah, I should introduce myself, correct? My name is... is... Damn it, damn it... I can't remember it. My mistake, my mistake really, this is something that happens sometimes. I spend too long staring at the screen, hearing people insult and rage at my username, seeing my username that at times I forget it. I'll remember it in an hour or two, but I guess you can call me "Xx_LordofYe_xX", since that's my Username. I stick by it religiously, that is who I am.

"..Why am I talking to myself again, tsah." I muttered to myself again, scratching the back of my head in a somewhat infuriated way as I leaned forward in my chair. I really, I have a habit of doing that when I'm bored, going through inner monologues like that. "..Damn it, now my head hurts... I should get me some water." I sighed, pushing myself up off my desk, grabbing my favorite cup that I kept beside me at all times and beginning to walk to the bathroom. 

The house was quiet and empty as usual, it wasn't even that dirty beyond the buildup of dust. Despite my unhealthier habits, I disliked disgusting things- I could drink nothing but bottled soda's and junk food all my days but I would be damned if I felt an empty wrapper beneath my feet or walked into the kitchen and saw a nasty plate. I suppose that might be why my parents haven't kicked me out yet, since I take care of such things...

Anyways, I arrived in the bathroom. Looking in the mirror, I'd say I looked alright. I was thin as hell due to not really eating right, but I was fine with it. I'd even say I was handsome! Although some strangers would disagree, I am not a stranger, and there was nothing wrong with deeming myself handsome! Or at the very least palatable... Average? I gave up on trying to rank myself and just poured myself some water, chugging it without much thought.

"ACHK-" I coughed mid-drink, spitting about a good amount of the water back into the cup. Did I drink too fast? Maybe something got into the water, I didn't really like drinking from the bathroom anywa...

It's blood. There's blood in the cup. Reaching my hand to my mouth, I found a substantial amount of blood coating my hand too. My head felt light, my heart was pounding, my lungs felt light- Did death usually come in this way? No, certainly not, this was unusual- What the hell was happening!? I had a few more thoughts than that, but I'd prefer to keep your idea of me as a casual and intelligent individual, I'm pretty sure a wall of 

"I DONT WANNA DIE I DONT WANNA DIE I DONT WANNA DIE- PLEASE- I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED TO LIVE YET, ACK..!!!"

And other prayers like that would ruin your thoughts of me. Forgive me for being an unreliable narrator, I'll try not to do it again.

So yes, I died. It's quite a shame, but I have to accept that it happens at times. To describe how I'm currently feeling... It's white. I felt like my legs were half-buried in snow, and the only thing for miles was "white". My muscles were weak, but I could move them slightly. So then, death was less like a warm embrace and more like a winter's storm, was it? I wasn't quite a big fan of that, but I could only move forward. However, as I walked, I thought to myself: "This isn't a tunnel, why am I only going forward?" 

So I began to walk to the left. It was harder to walk in that direction than forward, as if the world was saying that it was not my path.. However, I was frustrated. No, to put it bluntly, I was livid- For my life to end in such a sudden way, not from old age- not even in a hospital bed- Just a sudden cough and a sudden end- Of course I was angry, I was so angry I wanted to bite someone's ear off. I wanted to spite someone, something- ANYTHING-!

Eventually, the snow began to rise higher, but I couldn't really climb over it so I just walked through it. The snow began to feel warmer, rising over my body until I couldn't even see, just walking. It was simultaneously harder to move but easier, my body warm but the space around me heavier. And eventually...

I reincarnated.