JUL | the emergency room

It's been a while now

Since I've checked up on you

To see

How you're doing

Not like I cared

Stop evading the truth

You did care

Because you loved

That

Is the past now

Because it's a relief

To not have to do my weekly check ups

I'm not your nurse

I'm not your hospital

You treated me like a

Retreat

A sanctuary

A place

Of peace

But as soon as you walked through the door

You disrupted my peace

And distorted my life

And that's why I was following you around

Like a lost dog

Because

You messed my head up

And you continue to mess up my head

Until now

Now

I know

That I am done

But I keep on writing

I write to you

And whether you've ever read these or not

You still won't understand

And

I don't want you to understand

I just want you to go

- the hospital