Lies?(Jia's perspective)

As I run to my house,my hands were shaking as if I put them in the freezer. I reach the house and enter it inevitably, nobody was home,I was all alone with my own thoughts.

Min,why? Why? Why? What did I do to deserve this?! Are you really a pervert or are you just making fun of me? I knew it! You are like the others,you aren't different,you are just like them.

All you promised were just lies!

It seems like I have gotten my hopes up for nothing,I really thought you could make a good friend.

I suddenly hear a ringing phone. I was just some meters away from my room,I slowly walk there just to find out that Marissa was calling me in such an insistent attitude, I pick up just to hear her shouting at me.

"Are you deaf? This is the tenth time I'm calling you! Where do you hold your phone,in your underwear? You surely are the most deaf person I have ever meet in my entire life,sometimes I'm wondering how you are even alive with such a stupid head-"

Cut the crap,tell me what the deal is? Why are you calling me so insistently all of a sudden,did your girlfriend leave you? You and Alice really need to discuss matters,I can't take your bullshit anymore. Just,tell me what the matter is.

"Well,I came to deliver some cookies to your best friend since we knew that today is her birthday but there I saw something more interesting and I wonder, where the hell were you,did you two fight? If you didn't then what could have caused this?"

What did you see? Tell me quickly,not quickly, it would be more okay if you tell me in detail.

An ambulance,it seems like your little friend tried to kill herself. I am not certain if she ended up succeeding in her plan but one thing is sure.

Her mother was crying and as they were going,I noticed that she didn't close the door, I looked inside and by the amount of blood I saw, I'm more than sure that she is dead.

I don't have any other details to give and I don't think I will have more in the future since I'm not really sure if she is even alive anymore.

As I hear the news,my heart was close to shattering,how could that selfish piece of trash do this to herself? Does she think that only because she tried to kill herself I'm gonna forgive her for what she did? Bullshit! I am not even going to see her. She does not deserve my attention,her family is enough for her until she thinks that it's a good moments to apologize to me.

But what if she never wakes up? What if she's dead? Will me waiting for her be just an act of pity?

Putting her and pity in the same phrase makes me feel completely disgusted about the entire situation. I was never thinking that we are going to get in a state where she will just decide that killing herself is better than communicating.

I'm not even gonna feel sorry for her,I think I'll just go to sleep after all,who cares if I sleep or die? As long as I don't make any sound I'm good. But if I shall make a sound, I'll make it carefully just so that I will not be a bother to anybody.

Even if I will be,I would rather die than recall the title of a "bother" with my own mouth or with my own brain.

The pillow was placed carefully on the other side of the bed as I slowly put my head on it all I could do was end up bearing my face into it,I knew that I could choke if I fall asleep with my face buried deeper and deeper in it.

"Hi!" Says a childish but familiar voice.

"Jia! What did you learn about in school today? I'm sorry for not coming to school today I catched a cold and there might be a possibility that I'm ill. Anyways let's just talk about you, tomorrow is your birthday, how excited are you?"

"Very, I will finally be thirteen years old. I don't have many friends to invite besides of you,but i would have really liked if I had some children my age at the party."

"Why so fancy? We can celebrate togheter,maybe we can convince Shin to celebrate with us. What do you think about this offer? Is it good enough for you,I know that sixteen might sound a little bit older to you but I promise I don't act like an elder at such age. I will arrive at your house at 3 P.M. I already talked to your mother,3 P.M should be fine. She has some things to do so she won't be able to celebrate your birthday but she gave all the responsibilities to me. Aren't you happy about this?"

"I'm actually very happy that I'll finally get to spend time with my only friend. Thank you so much for being there for me,Mei!"

Dumb, naive and childish

"Mei! You really came!" I say as I hug her tightly but why isn't she responding to my hug.

The sound of a door being locked could be heard.

"Why are you looking the door,what if mom wants to enter?"

"She will call me let's go to the bedroom I need to give you a special gift,I bought you a dress."

"A dress,it should look good since you gave it to me."

"Trust me,it does."

Don't go! Don't go!

"Let's unzip this ugly dress first."

"Why? I believe it's really beautiful."

"My bad,then but still, let's unzip it."

"Ok,will you help me,I don't think I can unzip it,the zipper got stuck."

I trip and I fall on the mattress,Mei was on top of me looking in my eyes as if she was about to eat me alive.

"Can you get off of me? I tripped."

I see that you've tripped and I shall say,I'm very sorry for the unhappy experience I can just make it better for you,be serious didn't you see this kind of stuff in school, didn't you hear about it?

Sex. Did you hear about that?"

Panick covered my entire body as I forced myself to try and push her.

"Get off! GET OFF!" I scream as my tears run down my checks as she plays with me till she fulfils her own likings.

I wake up, damn it! I dreamed about that incident again! Why can't I just forget it?

Maybe because it was just...

3 months ago.