Chapter 16

I was just coming out from the testing room, waiting for my results to match when i over heard at the end corridor a doctor talking to two parents about kidney.

The first thing that cross my mind was that there are her parents. I moved a little closer to hear clearly.

"I'm sorry ma'am but there is nothing we can do. Her kidney isn't functioning at all. Such as an acute kidney failure which might leads to death straight forward. If we had knew earlier for a kidney transplant. I'm sorry" the doctor said before walking away. The woman lost stamina as she cries on her husband's chest.

Before the doctor could leave my side. I rushed to him and asked him to have a little chat with me and so he welcomed me to his office and I sat down.

"What do you want to speak of young man?" He asked

"A friend of mine is in this hospital suffering from kidney failure. Right now won't a kidney transplant work even if its one?" I asked but the doctor shook his head. "It could have been possible earlier, but right now its too late. End stage renal disease it is. She might not be able to survive."

"But sir why not try a surgery. Won't it work?"

"She won't be able to survive it." He said standing up. "I'm sorry young man. The drugs can only stable her but for now there is nothing we can do" he said and excused himself.

I left his office like some lifeless being and sat on the visitors awaiting chair waiting to hear my result. Just then a nurse came to me and I quickly stood up with a lot hope to hear the good news but I watch her shake her head with pity. "What's wrong?" I asked.

"I'm sorry young man but you kidney isn't of match and even if it is. Transplant isn't possible". She says

I nodded with so much disbelieve and thanked her as she left. I sat back thinking of what she had said to me yesterday. but I truly don't care about this cruel world. 'Maybe I would try another way'.

I saw her parents leaving the room as I quickly entered. I met her seated on the bed looking at the window lost in what ever she was thinking since she didn't notice my presence when I entered. I stood by the door after shutting it close. I examined her while she seats. She looks so slim and her hair has reduced. I looked on her lap lay her journal. She must be thinking of what to write. "And it is you who I want to read my book, please don't die" her words ring in my head as I became depressed.

"Ahem!" I cleared my throat as a sign that i am in. She turned noticing me she smiled quietly and waved at me gesturing me to come closer.

I walked up to her bed side.

"Hey, so how you doing now?" I asked.

"I guess a little better. I don't feel any pains for now. The doctors asked if I feel pain so maybe they can take a transplant but I feel nothing" she said. I felt bad that my kidney didn't match and I knew its a probability it wouldn't, i was just a stranger after all.

"You fulfilled your promised coming to see me" she smiled stretching and dropping the journal under her pillow.

"Sure, I was thinking about you"

"Thinking about me. Wow that's so sweet of you" she laughed nodding her head and looking away trying to think of something before turning to look at me.

"I really enjoyed your company yesterday, I wished it would be like that forever. Seth" she says.

"What will you do after I'm gone. Would you run away, destroy everything and behave like I've never existed?" She asked and just then i wondered where that was coming from. I drag the arm chair closer to her bed and held her hand. "Hey, why are you saying such?"

She shrugged looking at me with her eyes filled with tears, I don't want to see her cry. If she does know all the pain I've endured will reopen and I would break down too.

"Hey, please don't cry. I promise you everything would be fine. Okay.'' I said as I watch her shook her head and removing her hand from mine. "Promises aren't fulfill when it comes to death Seth. I would die and you would look at the world like I never existed. If I could just erase my memories from your head." She paused and bit her lower lip then held my hand wiping the tears with her left hand.

"I want you to find someone." She said out of the blue.

"What are you saying, no!"

"You have to cause that's the only way to move on after I'm gone. I'm sorry" she said, I tried to opposes such but she caught me in with a hug from the bed. I could feel her kissing the top of my head and resting her chin as her cold tears drop to my scalp. "Please Seth, do that for me. Can you?" She asked and just then i felt my tears come rushing down my face. I was really broken and couldn't stop the tears no way.

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I returned home without eating the evening and I felt like I have lost her even though she's alive, I could feel our bound breaking apart. she had told me not to come to the hospital again even if I do, she'd ask them to turn me back.

I have quite from work which Rebecca tried her best to see I stayed but I failed her. My world has changed by merely meeting with her and right now i need someone to cuddle and tell my problems to. 'Who would that be?'

Jamie is actually a very good and caring guy. I might ask for his back up tomorrow. I didn't know when I slept that night. On the ice cold tiles.

The next morning when I woke up due to the sun rays reflexing on my face, I moved to the left side of my hand and felt a soft foam under me. My eyes where still closed when I placed my hand around to be sure i wasn't dreaming half awake. I then open my eyes to be sure. I found my self on my bed and quickly sat up.

'How comes, how is it even possible.' I could remember dozing off on the cold floor last night but I'm here....

'Who must have brought me in?' All this thought ran threw my head as i left the bed and walk out of my room. I was numb to see Jamie in my kitchen.

"Jamie" I called with an ice cold voice.

He turned with a smile. "Yo pal, your awake?"

"How did....? When did you come here?" I asked walking to the kitchen.

"You should thank me that you are still alive, you could have died lying on the floor." He said.

"What brought you here in the first place?" I asked because normally he won't just come in without telling me and looking into the fact that he had stayed the night here.

"I don't know whats going on with you lately Seth, but you seem so cold like a dead yet living corpse. I thought it was better if I come over to see you and I came and met you cold on the floor." He said then stopped whatever he was doing and turned to me.

"Tell me Seth, what is going on?" He inquire for the last time. I knew i needed someone to at least tell my problems to. Maybe now that she has limited me from coming to see her i should give it a try and face the present. I surpass a gentle sigh at him and turned away.

'I can't'

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