Chapter 8

I moved my body against him and pushed his chest away from me. I was trembling when I remembered his kiss. I looked at him and my body was not responding. To my fear, I ran away from him before he did something again. 

I went back to my apartment and locked all windows and doors. I was on my bed and hid myself under my quilt. 

"My first kiss was gone." My whole body was trembling with fear. I couldn't imagine that he would do something bad. 

A knock from the door made my senses back. 

"Haina! It's me. I'll just deliver your package today." 

I sighed with relief. I thought he followed me. I didn't know how to face him now. 

"This is your package from your father. I'll leave it here." The landlady put down a box. 

"Thank you, Aunt." I quickly carried it inside and sat on the small sofa. When I opened it, it was full of canned goods and vegetables. 

After I cooked my dinner, I arranged my package in the fridge. I made my hair bun and continued cleaning the kitchen. It has been a month since I didn't clean it. A knock on the door made me startled. When I opened it, Nick appeared in front of me. I was stunned at his face. 

"I'm so-" 

I slammed the door shut while my heart was pounding crazily. 

"I just want to tell you that I am sorry. I didn't mean it. So, please forgive me." Nick stopped talking and I gained the strength to open the door. 

"Sorry? That's all?" I furiously looked at his eyes. My nose was flaring and my chest was crazily pounding. 

He looked straight at me and said, "I felt something that I never imagined that I would do such a thing." 

"What?" I was bothered when my hands began to tremble. I followed what my mind started to think. "Do you have feelings for me?" 

He stepped closer to me. 

I stopped him. "Wait. Don't come near me. I'm just asking." 

He just looked me in the eyes without saying anything and I felt something strange that made me think that he likes me. He stepped closer again and I couldn't do anything but step backward. "Can you feel it?" 

He began to put my hand on his chest and to my shock, it was crazily pounding too like the beats of my heart. I turned my look into his eyes. I felt his sincerity but I didn't know how to react this time. I think that my heart was like a piece of music that was serenaded by his heart. 

"Stop this." I got back my hand from him and started looking away. No, this couldn't be happening. "I'm not ready for this." 

"What did you say?" 

"Nothing." I denied. 

"I just followed my heart. I think I am in love with you." He smiled bitterly and added, "Tell me if you feel the same but you don't need to answer me now. I know that you're in shock like me. Just do whatever you want on how to tell me." 

I followed his back with my sight as he walked away from me.

"How can I be the girl he likes?" I was in the mirror looking at myself. I had finished my bath and combed my hair when I remembered him again. "What is he doing to me?" 

It was my first time to receive such a love confession. I wanted to admit that my heart strangely beats for him but afraid of what was coming next. What if he was playing with my feelings or just teasing me? 

"No! I can't accept it." Was his teasing made to the highest level? 

I promised myself not to think about him because his actions must speak louder. "I will not allow him to use me as a toy." 

I felt angry at myself because I let my guard down. I must see to it that he would never tease me like that again. "I'm not a loser." 

I moved to my bed and started to sleep but I kept on thinking about him. "Oh, my gosh! Just let me off." 

I touched my lips and remembered my first kiss. I closed my eyes hard and started thumping my feet. "I hate you!" 

I haven't slept well last night that's why I woke up so early. I forgot to make my breakfast and lunch too. 

"What happened to your eyes?" Aya was looking at me closely. She looked at Nick and compared mine to his. "Look how your panda eyes look like Nick's." 

She stopped giggling when I slapped the table. "Stop it! I don't want to hear it." I walked away and went to the restroom. 

After school, she tried approaching me by asking, "What happened to you?"

I faced her with a frowning look. 

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to mention his name." She tried holding my arm and bit her lower lip. "Tell me what happened." 

"Long story." My mood wasn't right. 

"Just tell me, please? I want to help you." She made her look like puppy eyes and my heart melted. 

"Okay. I'll tell you." 

We went to the café and she started asking me. "Just tell me now." 

I sighed with relief. I think I should let my thoughts go through telling it to her. 

The waiter gave us our drinks and I started to tell her what happened. 

She was shocked and her jaw dropped when I said that he confessed his feelings for me. She was excited about us but I reprimanded her. 

"No! I don't have feelings for him." 

"Okay, but I'm rooting for you both." She was laughing when someone entered the café. She looked at the man too. "Graham." 

"Aya, I know it's you." He smiled at us and moved close to us. 

"Hi, Graham." Aya was smiling and looking at him differently. Her eyes started to shine when he touched her back. 

I just smiled too and planned to leave but a figure of a man came to me. He wasn't looking at me directly but he was blushing. 

Aya smiled at me teasingly. "Hi, Nick. You can sit here." 

My face hardened when she told him because the vacant seat was next to me. He sat beside me and I was pissed at him. 

"You both look like a panda." Graham started. Aya laughed with him which made me look annoyed. When I looked at Nick, he was silently blushing and smiling. 

"I studied the whole night that's why I got panda eyes." I lied but Aya looked at me like I was lying. I smiled wryly at her and raised a brow.