A Loser Whose Afraid of Women

Following Celestial Shiena in secret would be impossible. Being aware of this, Spirit continued to follow.

'She's leading me to where?'

Spirit thought that Shiena should've stopped her right then and there. However, that didn't happen.

Actually, that Shiena that Spirit was following was skipping on her way. She was extremely carefree, not having care for the world.

Eventually, they reached Ayensi's room. Shiena timidly knocked at first before entering without fear.

"Shiena..." Ayensi was speechless.

Meanwhile, Spirit just peeked through the gap of the door.

'Oh...! Celestial Shiena is so bold! She's totally different from the first day I met her which isn't a long time ago!'

Shiena just shut Ayensi's mouth with her lips. Spirit expected Ayensi to scold her but he didn't do anything.

'Master is actually this accepting...?'

Spirit's excitement and future expectations hyped. She was also glad that her Master, the ultimate existence is not cold, ruthless, and a tyrant.

While thinking, Shiena then looked at Spirit, as if inviting her.

Spirit definitely wants to. She was even the one to offer herself last night. But after seeing what she really needs to do, she was embarrassed that she ran back to her room.

'I was too thoughtless last night!'

Not expecting Spirit's reaction, Shiena was baffled for a second before turning her attention back to her Master and serve him.

Ayensi remains passive as if restraining himself, but at the same time, enjoying the situation which he would never admit. Even in his last life, he had never partaken in satisfying his bodily desires. Whether it is to rest, to eat delicious food, and of course, sex.

He had the iron will to continue forward in the name of revenge for the one who brought him into that world.

Now that he is experiencing it, he found it hard to get out of it. Especially when lust is building up within him. After all, his conscious state is still in "human form"

But at the back of his head, he was guilty.

'Is this really okay? What if I don't escape from it? But... is it such a bad thing? I should really enjoy my life more. I've already reached the peak so I should reward myself.'

Ayensi almost snapped like last night and bring Shiena to bed, but at the last second, he halted.

'No!'

Fortunately, his pride is almost insurmountable!

"Shiena, last night is a mistake that will never happen again."

Shiena then shrunk from this and had a sad expression.

'Last night, he was even the one who initiated it. I thought that I would become one of his playthings, looking at the situation, which I wouldn't decline... wait... didn't he only stop after that brief kiss? Is Master becoming conscious of me as a woman and realized that he's taking more than he can chew...? After all, I believe Master is too serious to actually indulge himself in this activities.'

Shiena then looked at Ayensi looking down at her. Strangely, she didn't feel intimidated, but rather, she saw a cute pup thinking he was intimidating someone.

'No, no, I shouldn't think Master is cute... now, I want to devour him myself.' she blushed.

Ayensi frowned, looking at Shiena's changing expression.

'Am I not strict enough? She's still not getting off me.'

Before he could say anything, Shiena bested him to it.

"Master, you really don't want to do it?"

"No, now get off me." Ayensi coldly replied.

"But... I'm already in the mood and I'm feeling... that you are too."

When Shiena became bolder and seductively moved on her own, stimulating the two of them at the same time even with clothes in between, Ayensi's head became blank and the night repeated...

Dawn came which made Shiena glare at the rising sun again,. Meanwhile, Ayensi found himself in a sad realization.

'God... is this what you want to show me? This isn't it, right? There should be more...'

He realized that he still had a weakness and that...

'I'm a bit awkward... This is definitely because of my lack of social interaction for the past countless years. I only know how to be arrogant and prideful.'

This is the truth.

Ayensi acts high and mighty because he didn't know how to act other than that in front of other people.

'Am I still a fucking loser?'

His mood dampened as he remembered his last life. Although he was talented and a genius on his own, he never achieved anything.

He didn't have any real friends and just cooped in his lonely apartment and die of old age.

That was why when he was reborn, Ayensi was filled with hatred and a little afraid of what's to come.

Unlike in the last world where danger is almost non-existent, his second life was full of obstacles and life-threatening situations.

His talent was put into use... or rather, he was forced to use it.

'So I just need some push and I can achieve some things.' that's what he thought back then. With no ambition, he just looked at "revenge" to keep pushing forward.

That was why when the Creator said that his wish will be fulfilled, he was skeptical.

'I have a wish? I want to know more about that.'

Thus, he fought the Creator as a formality of him seeking "revenge"

Now that Ayensi was faced with reality again, his mood soured and the usual calculative and serious thinking were gone, leaving him with negative thoughts.

'I even said that I am on a killing diet since it makes me look badass but actually, I was guilty of killing anyone...'

Ayensi then remembered the time he struck the Immovable Shield and destroyed Ressuim in the process.

'What? They're so fragile...'

That was the actual reason why he paused because he knew he fucked up.

'But whatever, I'll just turn back time after this.' he then thought before he attacked seriously.

And now,

'My lust is getting ahead of me, what if people start taking advantage of me?'

'Much more of women? Shiena is the prettiest and most seductive woman I've ever known. Back then I was afraid that she will learn that I have a crush on her and use that against me. That was why I don't interact with her that much. But now... she will definitely notice.'

'Last life, I can't even talk to fellow men, especially women. I don't even understand people's minds in general!'

'But...'

At this point, Ayensi's "pride" took over him.

'No, if I got used to the lust first then it wouldn't become a weakness.'

His usual serious face returned as he glared at Shiena like a wolf to a rabbit.

'She's just a servant who is lower than me. I only took her under me because she produces some benefits.'

"Eh... Master?- Ah! Yes!"