Chapter 61

Hillary's POV

I am here at the balcony, watching how the stars glistened as I am sighing for the nth time.

My heart feels so heavy. My mind is filled with nonsense sh*ts. My eyes are so gloomy.

I need to stop this. I am not happy anymore.

"Hillary," Driana suddenly called me and she stood beside me. "Are you okay?" she asked.

"Yeah," I replied, forcing a smile.

"I don't think so," she said. "Right after Sky sang in the resto, you suddenly look so messed up. For the whole three days, Hillary, I never saw your real smiles and laughter. What's wrong?"

I smiled when I felt that she's now getting worried about me. Pakiramdam ko I got a sister.

I took a deep breath, "I am so confused, Driana, but I think I shouldn't be," I replied and her brows knitted immediately.

"Of Sky's acts?" she asked.

I looked at her with confusion, then I nodded, "how did you know about it?" I asked her back.

"Ayaw ko namang mag-assume ka, Hillary, pero I can say that Sky's also confused about himself. Well, this is just my point of view, but maybe Sky feels something towards you, it's just he thinks he's still into Veia kaya naguguluhan din siguro siya, but again, opinion ko lang 'yan."

Iyan din 'yong naiisip ko, pero ayoko talaga mag-assume. Ayoko munang masaktan muli ang puso ko for the second time around.

"Maybe I shouldn't keep on thinking about my feelings for him, I should enjoy my vacation, right?" I uttered.

She nodded, smiling, "that's what I've been thinking, too. I should forget my feelings for Andrei first and just enjoy this vacation, besides I'm not here for him, I'm here to have a good time and temporarily forget my family problem," she said.

"You're right. Let's just have some fun," I replied.

She gave me a thumbs up, "that's the best thing we must do," she muttered, smiling, "anyway, let's go inside and pack our things. Aalis na tayo bukas," she added.

I just nodded and we immediately went inside.

Tomorrow is another day and it's time for me to set aside my feelings for him. 

Sky's POV

I am so bothered to death. Since last day and until now I still can't understand why Hillary's acting so weird. She talks to me, but she barely does it. She smiles and laughs, but there is really something wrong. I want to ask her, but I can't.

Argh!

"Hoy, okay ka lang?" Andrei asked when I placed down may book vigorously.

"Y-Yeah," I replied.

"You sure?" he asked again and I just nodded.

Minutes later, I suddenly asked, "Andrei, why are girls so hard to understand?"

He chuckled, "because girls are girls. Boys really can hardly understand them, but we still need to," he replied.

I lay in bed and stare at the ceiling, "tsk, I am so bothered, man. Yesterday, she's fine, totally fine, then the next day you can no longer understand her, she seems not genuine of her doings, so...confusing," I uttered.

"Si Hillary ba 'yan?" he asked, trying to hide his laughter. Napaupo ako agad, hindi ko alam kung ano 'yong isasagot ko. "If it's her, then I'm telling you Hillary's very hard to understand. Her moods quickly change, but don't get too bothered, Hillary will be back too soon. Baka ngayon meron lang talaga siya," he added.

Sana nga! Kasi kung may iba pang rason mas lalo lang akong maguguluhan!

Andrei's POV

After my conversation with Sky ended, I then went to the balcony to have some refreshment.

I sighed.

I am also a man, ramdam kong naguguluhan na talaga si Sky, hindi lang sa ipinapakita ni Hillary, pero pati na rin sa nararamdaman niya.

Pero, ayokong maging panakip-butas lang si Hillary. They were so close before he had a relationship with Veia. Sila 'yong laging magkasama, but still, Sky fell in love more with her best friend.

Pero, ngayon na wala si Veia sa scene, tapos biglang nagustuhan niya si Hillary, hindi ako sigurado kong maniniwala ba ako. Baka kasi, he just likes her kasi siya 'yon andiyan, pero 'pag andiyan na ulit si Veia, then suddenly, she will be forgotten.

Alright. If that happens, one thing's for sure, I'm always here for her. She can always lean on me, I promise.

My phone suddenly beeps, Clarkson is calling me. "Hey," I greeted him as soon as I hit the answer button.

"How are you there? Enjoying the Madrid?" he asked.

"Yeah," sagot ko naman.

"Damn, Boy Pandak, why is your voice sounded so woeful?" at tinawanan pa ako.

"Siraulo ka talaga, Boy Ilong," asar kong sabi. "Medyo malungkot lang," dagdag ko.

"And, why?"

"Si Sky—"

"SILA NA NI GOLD?" napasigaw pa talaga siya. Tsk!

"Huwag naman sana," sabi ko agad. "Hindi, hindi sila, pero mukhang naguguluhan na si Sky."

"Hina mo kasi. I am rooting for you and my best friend, pero ano? You give chance to others."

"Eh, anong magagawa ko? Mahal talaga ni Hillary si Sky, eh."

"So? Hindi naman sila. You can still have her."

"Paano? Eh, kahit anong the moves ko, wala pa rin. Talagang kaibigan lang 'yong tingin niya sa'kin."

"Nega mo kasi, Boy Pandak. Basta, hangga't kaya mo siyang mahalin, mahalin mo. Hagga't masaya ka sa ginagawa mo, sige ipagpatuloy mo. Pero, kapag ikaw napagod, huminto ka na. Tapos, tingin-tingin ka sa paligid mo, may taong naghihintay sa'yo."

Tapos bigla ko na lang naalala si Driana. Alam kong nasasaktan siya kapag nakikita niya kaming magkasama at nagtatawanan ni Hillary, pero binabalewala ko lang 'yong nararamdaman niya. I am so insensitive, indeed, but I really can't give her the love she wants from me. Oo, mahal ko siya, pero hanggang kaibigan lang.

"Oh, sige, Boy Pandak, dahil natahimik ka na, I'll end this now. Update mo na lang ako kapag may progress na. Also, send my regards to Hillary. Bye!" then, he ended the call.

Napasandal ako sa upuan at marahang napapikit.

Why love is so complicated? Can we just love the person who loves us? Why do we need to love the person who will never be ours? Tsk!

Sky's POV

I look at my own reflection in the mirror. It wasn't my intention to overheard the conversation of Andrei and Clarkson. I was about to follow him in the balcony, but right after hearing him uttered my name, I'd decided to hid in the curtain. Then there, I heard him said something I couldn't ever believe!

Hillary is in love with me?

I laughed so hard. That's the funniest joke I heard so far.

But, what if it's true? What should I do?

I shook my head, "forget about it, Sky," I whispered to myself.

Naiintindihan ko naman 'yong sinabi ni Andrei, pero mas pipiliin ko na lang na 'di ko 'yon naintindihan—

No, it should be...I'd rather think I've never heard it. That's it!