My First....

No matter where I go...

No matter how I tried...

he is always on my mind.

But he uses me...

played me...

and yet I love him...

I loved him since we were kids, and yet he did

this to our friendship, he did this to me...

Why Yoongi... Why?

"Y/N WAKE UP!!" Jungkook shouted at me as he shakes me in bed. I quickly open my eyes as i stare at Jungkook.

y/n: "Jungkook what the hell"

Jungkook: "you were screaming in your sleep again"...

I wiped away the sweats that was pouring down my face and neck. I then stare at the clock.... May 17 4:32 am...

Exactly 3 weeks 12 hours 40 mins since he Yoongi broke up with me... the day he broke my heart. Jungkook sat at the edge of my bed as he rubbed my back.

Jungkook: Y/n you have to forget him... he hurt you, he hurted all of us

Y/N: I-i can't, everything in my life had him in it

Jungkook: I know y/n, but this isn't good for your health, and you know that.

Yoongi was my first friend, first crush, first kiss, and my first boyfriend. He was all my first's... I can't just forget about him because all my memories is with him. And a new first that he also taken from me... My first Ex boyfriend, my first fight, and my first broken heart.

Jungkook: I'll stay here with you until you fall asleep, we have to go to work in 3 more hours.

y/n: i can't work with *HIM* there...

Jungkook: well you have to suck it up, either its your career ending or you heart breaking even more.

I sigh as i lean back on my bed, my pillow was filled with sweat, and my blanket was numb. Jungkook layed his back on the wall as he layed his arm around my neck.

Jungkook: y/n i know, you are heartbroken, but we need you y/n, you are our friend and one of our member....

y/n: it just... so hard, why would he do that to me...

jungkook: i don't know y/n, lately yoongi has been different when you were gone

y/n: like reget different?

Jungkook: no, like Jackass different

y/n: no shocking there... he is a Jackass

~3 weeks ago

"I've waited all my life 네 전부를 함께하고 싶어"

I been dancing for hours, since Boy with Luv came out. Now we gotta perform live in 4 more hours. Jimin walked in as i finish up dancing.

Jimin: y/n take a break, you will pass out before we will perform.

y/n: I will, once I get the ending part right.

jimin: y/n.... come on, go see yoongi, talk to him...

yoongi and I had our first fight, about how I wasn't keeping up with the tempo of the song. I keep telling yoongi i am trying my best, but he doesn't seem to believe me. I felt so vulnerable, since yoongi didn't had any fate in me and my hard work I put out... I didn't talk to yoongi since, which was about 3 days ago...

y/n: how can I talk to him? I can't even say a word to him

Jimin: Then just look at him, it will come out once you see him...

Maybe Jimin was right, I can't avoiding him, everything right now is really high now, and I can't risk every thing.

y/n: alright Jimin I'll look at him, right now

Jimin: There you go! now get out of here before i kick you

y/n: with your small ass legs?

Jimin catches me around the dance studio until I ran out of the studio. I silently laugh until I was standing outside of yoongi studio.

I took a deep breath in and out before i walked in. But the moment i walked in my heart dropped....

y/n: w-what the... y-yoongi...

Yoongi was Shirtless, pants all the way down to his feet, and a half naked girl on top of him, with her hair messy.

yoongi: Do you mind, I'm busy...

I kept my tears in, but It just wouldn't want to stay in.

y/n: yoongi, who is she?

yoongi looked at her as if she was a trophy. He moved her hair out of her face as he kisses her cheek. Damn that stings real bad.

yoongi: my new partner in music and in my heart....