Chapter 1

The water's cold and crimson. The faucet kept flowing water until my tub overflowed. I stared at the wall, feeling empty. The atmosphere is silent and the air is still. Only the sound of the flowing water could be heard.

It's cold.

I could feel my body's temperature dropping. My wrist stings and I could feel myself weaken. Im starting to lose focus.

Breathe in, breathe out.

I chuckled, feeling pathetic.

Tell me, how did I end up like this?

You see, I would'nt actually waste my life for nothing. However, If you would listen to me you might pity me, or maybe ridicule me. The reason for my own depression and suffering is a man.

I loved him so much. I loved him more than anyone could say. I was loyal and I gave him everything. I gave him everything that I could offer. I would even sacrifice all I have. But, he cant do the same thing for me. He betrayed me. He fooled me.

I gave him everything. My mind, my heart, my soul and my body. I was his. I never cared if he would use me for pleasure. I was his. His toy.

He fooled me and used me like a toy. Then left me broken, destroyed. I gave him everything. Nothing is left to me. Not even my dignity. I no longer have a value, for everyone sees me as a filthy being. A sinner, a tainted woman.

I lived my pathetically and I would die the same way.

Haha,

What is there to regret? what is it to lose? The whole world despise me. I am a sinner, a filthy being. I have no worth, no value. I have nothing left within me. My death will surely cause the worlds happiness, for a filthy being is dead.

I have no worth. No value. I deserve to die.

If only..

If only I could turn back time. If only I can restart everything. If only I had known my cruel future. If I had everything, perhaps I could change everything and have a better life.

If only...

If only I could live again, I would surely change everything.

Breathe in, Breathe out.

Alas, my last breathe has come. My body went cold and darkness enveloped me.