The Confession

5 months ago

I was talking to a close friend when a guy I didn't know approached me. Hey! your Alyah, right? Yes, that's me is there anything you need. Actually, there is something you can help me with Alyah. I side-glanced at my friend, was that me or did that sound really creepy, I thought as she seemed to have thought the same thing. I was just wondering if you would like to go out with me. I looked sideways again, to see my friend shaking her head up and down aggressively. I looked back to him and see him slightly pleading while jerking his head to the right where his friends were looking expectantly towards us. Sure! why not, I said. I never thought I would say this, but he was pretty cute.

The next day

I jerked up as I got up from my bed checking the clock, sweat dripping down my spine sending goosebumps down my arms. The clock read 2:56 just about 5 hours till school starts. As I thought that I remembered my dream, it has been the same nightmare every year, at the exact same day always around the time of my birthday. I was hoping they would go away by the time I got older, but they have appeared for as long as I can remember. The cold feeling in my whole body as water seeped in my mouth and nose as I desperately try to gain my breath. The feeling of loneliness at its extremity as I sink in the water and watch any sort of light on the surface slowly disappear and the dark begins to embrace me. Begging with an outstretched hand to the shape of a person that seemed so familiar yet unknown. I start my morning routine and after I finish, I look at my brown tangled hair and start to brush it out. I look at the clock 3:24, it's still too early I walk downstairs to the living room laying down with my phone in hand and my backpack in the floor next to me. I then hear my parents open the door and peek through, after they realized it was me, they closed the door and went back to sleep I look at my parent room with regret. They always worry so much because I rarely get sleep anymore because I now attend a high school and homework just makes it worst. I just wish they wouldn't worry so much. I just hope they will be able to forgive me when the time comes.