the loud fan vs. the silent fan

"you've shown me I have reasons

I should love myself,"

I sang loudly as i got on the bus. i had completely disregarded any weird stares i was getting as i jumped around singing like i was all alone on that bus.

which is exactly how i felt, i was in the zone, my zone, right now no one mattered but me and BTS. "I'm learning how to love myself" I yelled loudly. by now i was sure i had caught the whole world's attention. taking out my headphones i looked at the crowd of people who filled the bus as i gave out a smile and sat down.

sitting down i turned to the lady beside me and asked: "ma'am do you love yourself?"

the woman looked at me like i had gone crazy, which i completely understood i had gone crazy, crazy for BTS. the woman looked at me with her mouth ajar "it's okay, love yourself, always" i whispered as i quickly got up. "this is my stop" i said as i placed my earphones back on and began humming serendipity as i walked off.

the world is so pretty, why does everything look so beautiful today? i thought to myself.

i got on the bus, i was elated BTS was coming to my area for a concert. in my ear, BTS love myself was playing as i hummed along silently.

i sat down and was about to close my eyes to the sweet melody that was Jimin's voice when i heard a loud voice yell "you've shown me I have reasons

I should love myself."

"a fan," i thought.

i watched her jump around as she loudly sang along to the song. i so wished i could stand up and yell the song too but there was no way i was going to do that so i just bopped my head to the song as imagined i was right there dancing alongside her. in my head i thought "you go, girl, show them" but on the outside, all you saw was head movement.

turning away from her i silently listened on as i looked into the sky.

as the bus stopped i saw her get off as she began to sing again, i smiled that's that magic of BTS.

the woman next to me turned to me and said " teenagers" i smiled and said "no, that's what we call a fan." after that statement i got off the bus and walked away as i thought to myself

the world is so pretty, why does everything look so beautiful today?