What Should I Do?

Amber:

The fight went on for another ten to minutes before the rouges started to diminish, no more rogues keep on coming in as we fought the ones alive.

By the end by white coat was painted red, my eyes fell on Zach's wolf, his eyes held emotions I couldn't interpret, it was a mix of pride and fear of loss.

I took a step towards him, he understood the signal and came rushing towards me, He snuggled his face into my neck and I did the same, the warmth felt like being home. It was more like a wolf hug.

Xavier's wolf ran into the packhouse whereas Beth and Zander stood looking at each other and soon headed together in the pack house.

Zach and I came out of the hug and followed, all the pack members including the ones in their human form bowed their head as the alpha king walked in.

I felt proud and safe having him close, but I was scared, I had to tell him the truth, it's not just him but to the whole pack, I was scared if he would reject me for hiding my secret from him.We walked into the library where there were many who lost their mates but in the corner was a sight the would felt anyone's heart, there was Cami in the arms of Xavier, Cami didn't care Xav was drenched in blood all she cared was that he was there in her arms and all Xav cared was his mate and pup were safe, their eyes were filled with love.

Zander mind linked everyone to go back to their houses and rest for the day and informed that we would have the ceremony of honouring the wolves who lost their lives protecting the pack the first thing tomorrow morning.

The library cleared out, Xav walked out with Cami in his arms, Zander came over to Zach and me standing in a corner, I understood what he wanted to say but it was better unspoken, Zander and Beth walked towards their rooms, whereas I lead Zach to the guest room next to mine.I knew Xander would have instructed someone to put clothes for him. As he entered I turned and entered my room and changed into my human form, it was the second time in my life that I had shifted, Riley was happy that she would finally be free to be with her mate.

She kept on reassuring me that our mate would understand why we hid our secret and why I suppressed her.

I took a hot shower washing off the blood and the sting but as soon as I came out of the shower I was scared to face the pack, I was scared to face Xav or Cami I was scared to face Zach, what would I tell them, how could I explain everything.

I got dressed and sat on the edge of my bed, it felt as if I was rooted to the ground of my room I didn't want to move, I just wanted to stay in. I felt paralysed.

I didn't realise how long I was sitting there but there was a door knock that burst the bubble of my thoughts.I dragged my feet to the door and held its knob for a minute before there was another knock, I opened the door.

Zach was standing in front of the door, I felt helpless I didn't know what to do or what to tell him, I stood like a fool staring at him,

"May I?", he asked looking at me

"Yes", I barely muttered, I felt like someone had sealed my throat. I stepped back letting him in, he turned and closed the door.

I felt myself going pale, I was scared. I felt everything that I thought of till know was going to come true, as he took a step towards me I was trying to cope up with the fear of the word reject but he did something unexpected, he engulfed me in a hug.

As he pulled me closer tears started flowing out of my eyes I was so drowned in my thoughts and after all the force I had put in to accept them I couldn't accept the reality.

"Shhh shh. It's ok", he said rubbing my back as I continued to cry in his arms

I couldn't bring words to my mouth I felt I was mute.

"Amy everything is fine. Please stop crying", he continued to say those reassuring words but I couldn't bring myself to speak.

I pulled out of the hug and looked at him, his eyes spoke in my defense looking at them I realised that he is not here to reject me. I felt a bit calm but the fear was still there, it made me feel weak I couldn't stand any longer and fell on my knees.

Zach:

She looked drained, she looked helpless. It killed me to look at her like that, I couldn't watch her crying it felt like someone banging my heart out my chest.

"Amy", I said kneeling in front of her, she looked up with her teary eyes, "Amy please stop crying", I said helping her stand up on her feet again.

I pulled her into a side a hug and walked her to the couch in the room.

I kneeled in front of her with my hands on her knees, "Amy, everything is fine, no one is hurting anyone I don't know why you are crying but please stop, I can't look at you like this, please Amy", is all I could say before I had to turn my eyes from her.

Look at her like this made me want to cry, and I know there was no shame in showing your weaknesses to your mate but this wasn't the time.

I always knew she had a secret but it was much bigger than one I could even imagine and I didn't know what it was but seeing her like this made me realise the reason might be much more important and sensitive and this wasn't the time to pinch on it.

I walked to her nightstand and poured some water for her, she was still on the couch but this time with her knees pulled to her chest and her head down, I felt helpless looking at her like this.Ray felt the same not being able to comfort our mate.

I went and sat beside her, "Amy drink" I said calmly taking the glass to her mouth, she took a sip or two before turning her head to the other side.

"Amy please, I don't know what is troubling you but at least don't push me away"

I looked at her and felt miserable, I have never felt this helpless in my life.

"Zach", she murmured through hiccups

I looked at her softening my eyes, " Yes"

"Can.. we.. have din-nner in here?"

"Yup I will get it in, please stop crying, Amy.",I said looking at her back facing meShe turned towards me and looked up, I sipped a tear off her cheek, "Amy stop doing this please", I pleaded

"Zach I'm not ready to tell anyone anything", she said trying not to cry

"No one is forcing you too. We respect your privacy Amy, tell us when you are ready.", I said pulling her into a hug, she nodded in response.

Pulling out I placed a kiss on her forehead, " I will go get dinner, you will have washed your face by the time I return?"

"Hm-hm", she said nodding her head and I smiled before leaving.

Amber:

As I exited the washroom after cleaning the mess I had created of myself Zach walked in with the dinner tray.

Our eyes met and I could help the smile escaping my lips, accepting my nature came with the reverse card of being able to restrict myself from falling for him. Though I never had the plan of not falling for him the plan was not so soon.

He placed the food tray on the table and I went and sat beside him on the couch.

"Thank you", were the only word that escaped my lips

He smiled as he served the food.

"Eat", he said placing the plate on my lap.

He took his plate on his lap and turned towards me. We just looked at each other while having dinner, it was our comfortable silence.

I was the person who should be speaking but I couldn't bring myself to do that.

And it was after years I ate so much, I had never exhausted my wolf form to feel this hungry in my entire lifetime, Zach giggled as he watched me eat.

"What is so funny?", I said pouting as I continued to eat

"I thought you were more ladylike than this", he chuckled

"And what is the definition of ladylike for you Mister? That I keep my hunger in the limit?", I said holing him with my glares

"Oh no no, I joking Am eat as much as you want"

"Did I get a new nickname right now?"I asked raising my brows

"Yes you did", and he placed a kiss on my cheek as I continued to chew my food, and then finally I was done.

As I got up to wash my hands I saw Zach getting up with the tray

"Zach where are you taking the tray?"

"Well to the kitchen, I know you are not comfortable enough to face people right now and I am not ready to see you crying like that again so I will go and leave the tray there."

Well did he have to be so nice?

"Thanks", I shouted washing my hands

"Your welcome", came his voice as he exited the door.

I brushed my teeth and sat on my bed starring aimlessly out of the window, today I was excused but what about tomorrow?

I didn't know and no matter how hard I tried to kick the thought out of my brain I couldn't. I was so engrossed in my thoughts I didn't realise when Zach had entered.

"Am I will be in the guest room if you need anything. Good night", I couldn't make myself to look at him. He was trying so hard and all I was doing was pushing him away. As he turned to leave I held his hand, " You mind staying here?"

"You want me to?"

"It feels good", hearing this he sat beside me.

I snuggled closer to him.It felt good near him and I didn't know when I fell into a deep slumber.