Chapter Six

The day felt unusually long. I have been at the restaurant for less than an hour, yet I felt I want to leave and go back to my room where I can be alone with my crazy thoughts. I was sitting on the roof looking at the sea while resting on the couch. My mind was busy thinking about Jungkook. I can't believe I imagined him touching me, doing many things to my body.

The thing is; my mind never stopped working; when something stuck in my head, it would stay there for quite a while. Jungkook's image was resting in my head the whole day and without any warning, it stayed also in my heart. The dream I had yesterday of him touching me was making me feel unease. I never had a crush that strong before. Something about him was different, it wasn't his crazy hot appearance or his angelic great voice, it was him. The moment I laid my eyes on his image; I felt like I finally met my man. My soulmate. My one and only. Him.

"Hey! Earth to Tia," Lara said while walking toward me holding two cups of freshly made coffee.

"Hey, Thanks," I said and took one of the cups from her hand.

"You look lost," Lara said and sat next to me.

"Not lost but kinda confused."

"Confused about what?" I didn't answer her. I looked away and took a quick sip of the hot coffee.

"Stop avoiding me and tell me what makes you look that terribly confused."

"I…I don't know."

"Is it Jungkook?" I looked at her and shook my head in agreement. "Well, I already told you a great solution."

"I don't need to make love to a random guy!"

"Make love?" Lara echoed me with a deadpan stare. "I meant to get fucked; no emotions."

"No, I don't wanna get fucked! I want intimacy and true love."

"Okay great! a lot of great guys drooling over; you go on dates then," Lara said loudly. "Like Manos."

"No."

"Why not?! The man is perfect, and you know him better than anyone."

"I don't see him that way."

"Why?! You had a crush on him when we were like twelve I think, just give it a try." I did have a crush on him when we were younger, but it didn't last long, I liked him more as my friend.

"Because he's not…" I stopped myself then looked at my hands holding the cup. Lara didn't move but her eyes were fixed on me.

"T." I looked at her, she looked surprised with her eyes wide open. "Are you having feelings for Jungkook?"

I laughed nervously. "Everyone likes him, you like Taehyung," I said and pointed at her.

"I like him as an artist, it looks like you have feelings for Jungkook; legit feelings," she said firmly.

I don't like her when she's serious. "What are you talking about? Millions of girls love them it's not like I'm the only one."

"Don't play dumb please, I know you, you only get physical with guys you have feelings for."

"I didn't get physical with Jungkook!"

"You fucking masturbated while imagining him."

"And how did you know I was imagining him! I was imagining someone else."

"Imagining someone else? Really? You were screaming his name while imagining someone else," Lara said and frowned.

"A lot of guys have that name."

"Really? You were masturbating to a Korean guy called Kookie?" There was no way to get around this embarrassment.

"You think I'm crazy, right?"

"A little."

"I don't know what's wrong with me, I want to touch him so badly, it's so embarrassing."

"I've already told you like a million of times, get yourself a good sex date and you will be just fine," Lara said and punched my right cheek. I smiled back. I couldn't talk about it any longer. It was indeed crazy that I have feelings for someone I don't know. Him being famous and talented doesn't mean that I really know him to feel this way, yet I couldn't stop my heart. It was screaming his name in need.

In need for his presence.