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Months later I rearranged my office as I brought out the family sword left by Khun Alizee. I display it where I can see it every hour. This sword will only remind me about us and all about her. As Jane who is now my personal assistant and Phi Karn who is now my brother in law because Dad adopted him as his first Prince Consort. While the princess consort title remains to Khun Alizee and I. I made a promise to myself that I will not open my heart to anyone again. Either that or I don't wanna forget her and all the things that happened between us. I threw out the bag as I heard that something dropped from it. Once I looked for it I saw a box, I picked it up and opened it as I saw a mobile phone. Once I power on it I tried to unlock it but it requires a pincode.

"Passcode…"

I tried the combination of my birthday, Khun Alizee's birthday and our anniversary. And I was surprised when I unlocked it. I put it on the table and didn't mind it at all.

*Bing *Bing

I heard from the phone which I found from the box.

I opened it when I saw a notification.

"Sorn.. It's that you?"

I read.

"Teeruk…"

I was shocked when I read the second message that reminded me about Khun Alizee. I almost called the unknown number but Jane arrived.

"Sorn.. The King wants to address you on something."

She said as I left the phone at my table.

When I arrived at the lounge, Phi Karn and Dad were waiting for me. As I take my seat and ask them what's going on.

"Sorn.. Since Alizee was already dead. I think you should open your heart to others.."

Dad spoke worriedly.

"Your dad was right, Sorn.. You should do it in order for you to move on.."

Phi Karn spoke.

"I'm sorry to disappoint you but.. My answer will still be the same."

"It's hard for me to erase all the memories between me and Khun Alizee.."

I added.

"If there's nothing important please excuse myself, I have a lot of work to do."

I spoke as I excuse myself as I try to hide my tears to them.

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When Sorn went out I grabbed my phone.

"See.. She can't still move on, Sis.."

"When the right time comes Karn.."

"I hope I can see her smile again as soon as possible, Stupid Mafia.. I can't bear her sadness behind."

"I hope so, but I need to make sure that everything is safe for her.."

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It's been another year and a month since Khun Alizee left me. I miss her so bad. Her smile, Her fierce face, the smoothness o f her face that I used to see everyday when I woke up and before going to sleep. Another day waking up alone again. As I heard a notification from my phone.

"Khun Alizee's birthday."

I whispered.

As I remember today is October 18 and that was Khun Alizee's birthday. I can't believe that I will be celebrating her birthday alone more than last year. As if I remembered that date again.

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Year ago

We wander into the amusement park. Khun Alizee's birthday was today, but instead of celebrating with her friends, she had a date with me. We wandered about holding hands with each other.

"I'm sorry if I didn't get any gift for you.. Teeruk.."

She stopped walking as she looked at my face and put my hair behind my ears as she held my face and rubbed her thumb into my cheeks.

"It's alright.. Because this year you are the precious gift that I receive."

Khun Alizee spoke sweetly as she kissed my forehead.

"Let's go?"

She asked as she stared at me.

"Let's go.. Teeruk.."

I spoke in a sweet tone and smiled.

On that memorable night we rode at the merry go round together, we bought a rabbit ear headband as we put it on each other as Khun Alizee and I snapped a picture into my phone wearing them. After a couple of minutes walking around I saw a ferris wheel. I point it to Khun Alizee.

"Don't tell me you wanna try that?"

She asked like she doesn't wanna try to ride.

"But it sounds fun.."

"You know that I was dreaming that one day I will get my first ride there together with you.."

I added.

"Then.. I wanna try too."

Khun Alizee spoke as she talked to the person in-charge.

Moments later Khun Alizee and I were seated beside each other feeling the slow motion turn of the ferris wheel. As I leaned my head into her shoulders and held her hand.

"Thanks for fulfilling my dreams again."

I spoke in a sweet tone.

"The Ferris wheel is not bad at all. Or maybe you were here beside me."

"Khun Alizee…"

"Do you know what, this is also my first time to ride here…"

"How's the experience then?"

"It's too sweet.."

"What do you mean by 'too sweet.."

Khun Alizee lifted up my chin and led her lips to mine. While she was kissing me I felt that the time on that moment stopped as my heart kept beating and I could also hear her heart beating faster than mine.

The moment that she withdrew her lips and wiped mine with her thumb was the moment that I thought everything that happened in that moment stopped because of the two of us.

"Your lip was too sweet."

Khun Alizee spoke as she smiled.

"Khun Alizee…"

"What do you wanna eat for dinner?"

"Anything that you want. Teeruk…"

I spoke sweetly as I pitched her checks softly.

"Then.. You can have me as your dinner."

Khun Alizee said seriously.

"Khun Alizee!"

"Because I want to eat you for my dinner. Your sweetness was unbearable.."

Khun Alizee flirted as she stole a snap kiss to my lips.

"Then.. Shall we have dinner at the restaurant nearby?"

"Sounds great then.. But shall we have a midnight snack later? Because your shoulder is unbearable, I wanna have a bite for it.."

Khun Alizee jokes.

"Khun Alizee stop it!"

I spoke as she smiled at me.

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Present time

I can't still believe that those memories will remain a memory that it's hard for me to let go. Or maybe I'm the one who wouldn't like to erase them all. But remembering them makes me feel that I wanna go back to those times.

*Bing

A notification sound from the other phone.

"A voice record?"

I spoke out as I tried to hear it.

"Jeg vet at minnene jeg etterlot deg er ubehagelige, og jeg vet at du ikke vil glemme dem. Men hvis vi skulle krysse veier igjen. Vennligst forstå hvorfor jeg gjør dette."

(I know the memories I left for you are unpleasant, and I know you don't want to forget them. But if we were to cross paths again. Please understand why I am doing this.)

After hearing the voice recording that it belongs to a woman who is very familiar to me my tears started flowing down even though I didn't know the reason.

I tried to walk away but someone stopped me from a back hug.

"Can you forget those memories?"

A familiar voice of a woman whispered.

"I know those memories are very painful for you to remember. But seeing you crying like this makes me feel tolerate because I was the reason behind your suffering at this moment."

She added in a saddest tone like she was crying out at that moment.

My tears keep flowing in every word that she whispers, the reason makes me remain silent.

The time that I closed my eyes and opened it once again I felt that Khun Alizee was back but when I looked behind there was no one. I cried out in silence that no one could hear me. Why was I daydreaming of her? Although I believe that she's not dead yet. Or either I don't want to forget those memories that every time I was remembering them I feel torrelate and devastated. Or do I miss her so much that I was dreaming that one day she would come back to me and kiss my shoulders every night before going to sleep? Either I woke up and saw her brightest smile with her cute face that I wanted to pitch her checks every time I wanted to? All these memories that I kept in my mind and in my heart even though they are painful, I want to keep them as good memories for the year and a month that I and Khun Alizee built together.