06 February 2023

I miss you.

Yesterday and for the last few days I've been numb. So many things happening in such a short amount of time. Like when the sea has been calm for far too long and suddenly a storm came out of nowhere.

I ended it again.

You were already going through enough and I decided to add the cherry on top.

Looking back none of it is as intense as before.

The pain I mean. The affection.

I think it was too much to handle so my body was forced to dull it.

I've never felt this alright without you.

I don't want to go back honestly.

But I still miss you. So much. I'll write here to avoid writing to you.