Chapter - 10 Do you really love him?

Wait, are there tears in your eyes? Are you sad? Do you really Love him, Luciana? Do you? If not then why are you sad? I have started to think that you love him, what should I do? Even if you love him but still there's no future for you with him, you shouldn't be sad Luciana. If you didn't end up with me then don't worry I will help you to find someone, someone who's perfect for you, you deserve this, I will not leave you in this condition

"This guy played with my heart" you said, weeping and sad, still crying what should I do? Should I hug you? Or should I leave you the way you are? I don't know, I think I should hug you, I put my hand on your shoulder, I turn you towards me, I hug you, oh god, is it creepy? I don't know, I am not good at showing these type of feelings, I can feel your nails, you are grabbing my back, you are hugging me too Luciana, oh thank god it was not a creepy move but you are crying even more now, your tears are in my shirt, you are crying so much, I don't like it, I can't see you cry like this, don't cry Luciana, please, seeing you cry is making me sad, and I am going to cry too.

"I loved hi---- I loved him but he….. he betrayed me" you said, I guess you really love him, but he's not a good guy and I will kill him, it would save 3 girls, Esme, You and my sister and it will be good for them. I put my hand on your head.

"It's okay to love someone, it's not your fault that he cheated on you, you didn't know back then that he's like that" I said, I am trying to get your confidence up, you are still crying, I can't see you like that my eyes are almost full of tears, I am gonna cry too Luciana. 

"I still love him" you said, weeping

"You should move on now" 

"It's not easy"

"Then take your time and move on" I said, you stop for a second and then nod your head, you take out one of your hands from my back and wipe your tears, I try to push myself away but you grab me tighter, you hug me once more.

"Please stay like this" you said, I don't why, but I think deep down you like me too, this hug has helped me to think that, I put my hand on your back and hug you, take you more deeper inside me, you are still crying. We stayed there for like five minutes, you are still crying, I should say something and break this silence, what should I say? I don't know

"Why is my life so miserable?" You ask, weeping.

"I wanna die" you said, what? Why would you die? You would die for him? Why? The only guy who should die is him, not you, he should die

"I will kill myself" you said once again

"No, you are not" I reply

"I will"

"If you die then I will with you too" I said, with anger

"I wi--- will kill myself" you are weeping once again

"You will not, I won't let you"

"Why are you so caring about me? You didn't even know me?" You ask, yes do I even know you, Luciana? But at least I want to know you more, I want to know everything about you, what was your life before coming here and everything, was the reason you moving in here was that guy David? I wanna know

"I don't want you to get hurt, please you are my only friend" I said, my eyes are filled with tears,

"You are my only friend" I am weeping too, you look shocked, I take your head and hug you once again, I saw my tears falling on your shoulder, you look up, my tears fall on your face, then more and then more, you are looking at me, at my eyes, I know what you are thinking, This guy is very weird, that's what you are thinking, but these tears are because of you Luciana.

"Why are you crying?" You ask

"Because you are crying"

You smile, the deadly smile, you are very beautiful when you smile Luciana, you should not cry.

"You are so weird" you said, I was right, you are teasing me I guess, you have a very cute smile on your face, I should go away, I can't control myself, wait for a second, it's the time for the kiss, according to movies, it's a perfect time, should I kiss you, Luciana? 

"You are so weird and strange but you are my real friend" you said with your cute smile, I feel like I can be open to you Luciana, I should tell you about my feelings, but it's too early I think so I will wait.

"You can let me go now" you said

"Yeah okay, be safe" I said, although I am still in worry that you would do something to harm yourself

"Thank You for staying with me, I really appreciate that" you said

"Yeah sure" I said, trying to see whether you are still crying or not

"So…See you at the school?" You ask

"Yeah, I will be there" I said

"Okay so… Bye" you said, I nod my head, you turn around and started walking, what should I do? I have a feeling that you would try to harm yourself, it's weird but I always get these type of worst feelings, the worst feelings for the moment, if I close my eyes then I can see you cutting your wrist or hanging yourself, it's so scary, I have to do something, you are a bit far away from me now, ah yes, I have got an idea, this should work fine

"Hey wait" I said and went closer to you, you turn over and give attention to me, staring into my eyes, I can see some tears in your eyes, you are still crying, you are trying to hide your face, you turn over and wipe your eyes and then turn over again to me

"Were you saying something?" You ask

"Oh yes, so want to have some drinks?" I ask, I am hoping that you would agree. Please accept it, please

"Yeah okay" you said, oh thank god, you agreed to go.

"Okay so let's go"

We are walking together towards the bar for the drink, I am very happy to walk with you, remember these lonely roads, I wanted to hold your hand, and here we are, at that road again, can I hold your hand this time? Luciana? I should ask you

"Why is there no light?" I ask

"You should tell me, remember I am new here"

What should I say? I am not good at talking, I haven't talked so much Luciana, but these lonely roads and kinds of stuff are very scary, these dark places always scares me, I really want to hold your hand

"Hey Luciana" I said

"You can call me Luci"

Okay Luci is a good nickname for Luciana, I like it

"Okay, Luci" I said, you are nodding your head and smiling.

"What were you saying?" You ask, I am thinking whether I should say or not.

"No it's nothing" my mind is full of consequences, what would happen if I ask you to hold your hand, there are two possibilities, the first one is you would think that I am a pervert that I only want to touch you and get in your pants and the second one is you would think that I really am scared of these dark places, and I hope that you think the second one, but it's not in my hand Luci, we have crossed almost the half distance of this alley, the dark alley, I should ask you. I stop and turn my face towards you, you stopped too

"Hey Luci"

"If you want to tell something then go on" 

"Can I hold your hand?"