2 Mason

Pororo and I are hopeless when it comes to romance. My sis is way worse than me It's not that she's ugly; she's stunningly beautiful, elegant and smart too. I'm getting frustrated, my senior year is almost over and I have no idea what I wanted to do.

I mean If I have to write some romance I need experience and that is futile even to think about it.

December 2012,

It's Christmas season and I talk with mason today,   he's my neighbour but we are not. close and we hardly see each other. We talk about our families and our favourites honestly I am happy talking about those simplest things, we have talked for almost an hour and it feels today is only the day I would meet him this way. I dislike Mason when I shift here at the start of the year and my friends use to hate his guts but honestly, he's sweet with me and I'm happy with that. Goodnight.

December 2012,

I dream of Mason today and I don't know when I will meet him again but I am totally nervous. Should I talk with him ??.

I have never liked someone older than me before, but I think I like Mason already. I met him today on my way to the grocery store and we just smile. I don't know what to say he looks so good, messy hair, fair complexion with a brown eye. I am only 5'2 so he's like a GIRAFFE to me but I feel cute standing there with him that night.  It feels so surreal having that conversation with him. I know liking an older guy is bad news but I like feeling excited and happy seeing him. Goodnight.

December 2012,

It's two weeks since I last saw mason but I am still in my own bubble world .Mason has that effect on me, We sometimes have eye contact occasionally in the church and all we do is smile, always.  He looks so happy smiling like that. I love those seconds because it means for a second I cross his minds. We never got to talk again but honestly, I am happy because now that I like him I don't think I can have a decent conversation with him. Goodnight.

December 2012,

I have never told anyone about my feelings for Mason. I don't want anyone to know actually It's not that I am embarrassed or anything, I just like having Mason to myself and that conversation we share was too precious to be known. I savour every moment with Mason. Goodnight.

December 2012,

OMG!!!!!! Mason ask my number today and I almost cry which would be totally embarrassing.

     "Hey Lyra"

     "  Hi "

      "What's up??"

        "In my bed. You?"

          "Same. lol"

            "😊"

             " Ly ?"

            "Yeah"

            "  I think I like you "

               " Me too"

                " Really???"

                "REALLY "

                   "Yesssss!!!!!!!!"

                  "  Hey, Mason  I'll text you tomorrow yeah??"

                  " Ohhhh okay ..... Goodnight Lyra "

                " Sweet dreams, mason "

               "Dream of me yeah??"

It's our first text and I wrote down everything cause I don't ever want to forget today. My crush just admits his feelings for me. Mason is older than me by three years but I have never felt uncomfortable with him. I am over the moon today and I am so lucky Mason like me back. I never want to fell asleep I kept replaying our text over and over again. I like liking Mason. It's a feeling I will never want to forget. Goodnight.

December 2012,

It's been a week mason and I text at night. Mason has never asked me to be his girlfriend and I am not complaining. I like this thing between us,   I am happy always.

We text till 1 or 2 at night but we have never talked on the phone.

It's good just texting because  I express my feelings by writing. I am never good at having a conversation with a guy.

Mason and I met in church but we have never gone for a date. December is almost over now and my school reopens in February I'm sad to think I won't be seeing Mason anymore. Schoolwork will be hectic and Mason just finishes his senior year. I may sound selfish but I don't want to think about his university.

That thought is enough to make me feel awful today. GOODNIGHT.

December 2012,

  I ask mason about his university today and he says he would try somewhere close to his home. I am so relieved to hear that. He asks me If we could meet tomorrow and I am scared to meet him because mom and dad are so strict with us but I am taking a risk for tomorrow.  It's Mason best friend George birthday and I am looking forward to meeting him. My mom allows me to attend George birthday party because George sister Lily is one of my best friends. She invites earlier today and Yes I am going tomorrow. Goodnight.

December 2012,

I went to George birthday party today. I wore a black dress that ends at my mid-thigh,   my hair is curled in waves down my waist. I am happy with my looks today. Mason and I went to a park after the birthday party he says I look beautiful I am blushing the whole time I catch him staring at me. Mason holds my hand and we stroll the park smiling and talking. I smile so much when I am with Mason.  It's already 8:20 the time we were eating potato chips. We were returning hand in hand when he stops all of a sudden and kiss my left cheek I smile so much today and I am probably gonna have heart problems this month.  After bidding goodnight I went home and here I am, writing today's moment without changing my clothes. You know I think I am falling in love with Mason. Goodnight.

December  2012,

Today is new year's eve and I am ready to bid 2012 goodbye.

2012 December comes once in my life.

  2012 December makes me complete.

I love every 31 days of December 2012.

Every 24 hours 60 minutes and seconds of 2012 December.

And I am ready to say bye 2012 and hope 2013 will be sweet as December 2012.

January 2013,

  It's a new year today and I wish Mason at midnight and we text till morning. I doze off today during the church service. The pastor glances at me twice thrice during his sermon and I have no words to describe how ashamed I am. But it's worth it. I am happy and so is Mason. Goodnight.

January 2013,

Mason ....Mason .....Mason.... Mason ...Mason... Goodnight.

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February 2013,

Schools start today and honestly, I can't concentrate on anything. I am sorry.Goodnight.

February 2013,

   I fell asleep during class and got a detention. It's so embarrassing and my parents scolded me.

February 2013,

  I have never felt this feeling. It hurts so much  I don't even want to cry. I think if I start crying I won't be able to stop and I am scared to cry because my parents would ask me. Mason and I haven't seen each other for a week and we haven't text for three days but you know what's sadder? Oliver told me about Mason having a crush on our new neighbour.  Oliver is oblivious about me and Mason and keeps on ranting about them being so cute. I am on the verge of sobbing and had to swallow the lump in my throat continuously. Honestly, I never want to feel this again and I don't want to think about Mason n but I am not ready to let him go.