Chapter 47- Forever this time

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Haya's POV

Jahin and I started catching up as we sipped on liquor. I would get lost in my thoughts as he spoke, I could not pay attention...my head was spinning. I do not know if the wine was the cause of my sudden dizziness or how deeply I looked at all of his amazing features especially his lips.

"I did not write everything down, some matters are better off unknown," I said.

"Yes! I totally agree," he enthusiastically replied.

I knew that he was referring to telling me the truth but I deserve to know what actually happened. I can not just move on from that...it concerns both of us.

"but sometimes speaking out helps to build a better connection with the people you care about," I added.

"What if you don't speak out because you are scared of how that person might look at you?" he asked.

"How do you think that person might look at you?" I asked out of concern.

"As a pathetic, weak, and heartbroken orphan," he replied.

"Jahin? are you an orphan?" I extended my hand and he shoved it away.

"That's none of your business...forget I said that," he immediately got up and left.

"At this point, I am used to him pushing me away so it doesn't even hurt my feelings anymore," I lied.

I took a last sip of the wine and went to bed. I tossed and turned multiple times but I eventually fell asleep.

The next day

I gently got off the bed and entered the bathroom. This time I know what's causing this dizziness and that's hangover because a b**** is definitely hungover.

"Remind me to never drink alcohol again" I stared at myself in the mirror balancing my spinning head.

I brushed my teeth and splashed some cold water on my face. I didn't feel any better so I went to the kitchen to make some coffee.

When I entered the kitchen, I spotted a paper on top of the countertop...there was also a little note saying "READ ME". I looked around and Jahin was nowhere to be found. I took the letter, sat down on one of the chairs, and started reading it.

"My dad abused my mom, there's no other way I can put this but how it is. I spent my nights listening to my mother cry, when I was little she would come to tuck me in and I'd look deeply into her swollen eyelids. Tears would escape from my eyes and she would wipe them off sobbing from the inside...trying to convince me that everything is okay. I am never going to understand why she stayed, if I did not beat him up that day he would have killed her someday. I had to leave Haya...I could not have stayed. The way my mom got on her knees and cried for the bastard who ruined both of our lives broke me. I felt like I had committed a hideous crime by protecting her. I looked into her eyes for the last time and left. I moved to Florida to stay with my uncle. I did not want to say goodbye to you, how could I? Haya I had already caused you so much pain. I am sorry for leaving, I could not look at my life fall apart.

-Jahin" the letter read.

I painfully started crying, how could Jahin live with so much pain for such a long time...he did not even say a word to me. I thought I knew all of him but it turns I don't. I guess that's why he is always trying to push me away, he is not in touch with his feelings...he has all of these walls up and that is his way of protecting himself.

There was a sudden knock at the door interrupting my thoughts. I got off the chair and went to see who it was.

"Hey, Miss Haya? Mr. Jahin ordered you breakfast," the lady holding a tray with pancakes topped with chocolate said.

"Oh, thank you so much," I took the food and she immediately dismissed herself.

I ate breakfast with a lot on my mind...my heart ached because of everything Jahin has been through. I wish there was a way I could take all of the pain away, maybe simply being by his side might help.

I swept the cabin while listening to music. I felt at peace after such a long time, the truth truly does set one free and that is why it is important to speak yours even if it hurts. Sharing pain is the most artistic thing in the world because we all experience it.

After getting everything done I decided to go take a shower. I turned the volume of my speaker up then got inside of the bathroom.

I was washing my face when the music suddenly stopped.

"Who the f*** turned off my music!, Jahin is that you?" I wrapped my body with a white towel and walked out of the bathroom with soap on my face.

"Oh it's you," I replied as soon as I saw Jahin standing beside the bed with casual clothes on.

"Yes, it's me," he slowly approached me making my body shiver without even touching me.

"You are dirty, come," I do not know where I got the balls to say that but I am glad I did because he started taking his clothes off.

Sober by Bazzi started playing and I do not want to lie but I have been waiting for this day to come. Making love listening to Bazzi has to be one of my biggest fantasies.

He walked into the shower, for a moment I stood there admiring his looks and how perfect he is with all that he comes with...I do not think I will ever look at another man the way I look at him.

I tip-toed towards him, our bodies collided and we both leaned forward looking deeply into each other's souls then we started kissing. He picked me up, I placed my hands around his neck and my legs were crossed on his lower back.

He kissed me all over my neck making me choke on my breath as a moaned his name continuously begging him never to leave me for I will forever be undone without his touch and most importantly his presence.

"You did not deserve everything you went through, I promise to take all of the pain away," I said breaking off our kiss.

He inserted himself inside of me and I inserted my nails into his skin as he penetrated me. I yearned for more in fact I needed more of him than I showed. He provides me with this fantasy world where it is just him and I.

Moments after I came he followed. He bathed me while admiring all of me, we both finally had all of each other...at least he has all of me and I hope I also have all of him.

"Hurry up and get ready. There is somewhere we need to be," he has before getting out of the shower.

Moments Later

We parked the car near a pretty boat and he guided me unto it. I have always wanted to go for a boat ride but now that I am actually doing it...I'm scared.

"Jahin please drive slowly," I stammered.

"Do you trust me?" he asked looking into my eyes.

"Yes, I do," I replied.

He did not say anything after that instead he drove and I became obsessed with the view. The forest is honestly the best place to be and this is everything we have always wanted to do together.

We arrived at the other side of the forest and as we got off the boat I laid my eyes on the most beautiful picnic I have ever seen in my life.

"Oh my gosh, Jahin this looks amazing," I gasped taking in the scenery.

"Haya, will you be my girlfriend forever this time?" Jahin asked.

"What?, I mean yes Jahin...I love you," for a moment I was shocked but all the right words made their way out of my mouth.

"I love you too," he leaned closer and kissed me.