Chapter 46- "We were one"

EXPLICIT CHAPTER! YOU MUST BE 16 AND ABOVE TO READ.

Jahin's POV

My eyes were glued to her as she spoke to me about how life treated her after I left. I was intrigued by the way she handled all of the difficult situations that came her way...to be honest in high school whenever I was going through a rough phase I would drink my worries away. Having meaningless sex also helped me blow off some steam, I mean I couldn't help myself...girls just kept throwing themselves at me.

Haya avoided liquor and partying instead she took a pen and wrote all of her worries away...that was her way of opening up since she is unable to voice out her true feelings.

"I did not write everything down, some matters are better off unknown," she said.

"Yes! I totally agree," I enthusiastically replied.

"but sometimes speaking out helps building a better connection with the people you care about," she said.

"What if you don't speak out because you are scared of how that person might look at you?" I replied.

"How do you think that person might look at you?" she asked.

"As a pathetic, weak, and heartbroken orphan," he said.

"Jahin? are you an orphan?" hearing her say that made my blood boil.

"That's none of your business...forget I said that," I immediately got up and left.

I got to my room and shut the door.

"Who does she think she is? I am fine with not opening up...it does not bother me at all. If she can not accept how I am, she can just leave" I said to myself.

How could I go on with my life without her though, these mean things are easy to say but are very difficult for me to cope with? I just wish there was a way for me to tell Haya the truth without actually telling her myself.

"I took a pen and wrote all of my worries away," I remembered what she said earlier so I rushed to the cupboards and looked for a notebook and a pen...luckily I found them.

I think the notebook belonged to someone, I opened it and found so much writing inside of it...I was shocked at how some people keep looking for ways to deal with their demons.

I looked at the time and it was already 3 am. After paging through someone's diary or whatever it is...I found a couple of blank pages.

I took a pen and brought all of my demons to life.

After tearing up most of the pages I finally wrote something I thought was worthy enough for Haya to read. I will leave the note for her on the kitchen counter so that she can finally have some alone time with the answers she has been searching for. I want to plan an amazing adventure for the both of us so I won't be home when she wakes up.

Let me go to bed, yesterday was a long day and I need to wake up soon.

The next day

My alarm woke me up at 9 am. I took a shower, wore black joggers and a white muscle vest...for shoes, I just put on my Yeezy sliders.

I ate cereal and since I didn't have time to make Haya breakfast I called housekeeping to send breakfast at exactly 11 am. She usually wakes up around that time. I took the letter I wrote and put it on the kitchen countertop with a little note saying 'Read Me' then I was on my way.

I suddenly felt weird about actually letting her read the later I wrote. After contemplating whether I should go remove it or not...I started the car and left.

"She deserves to know the truth," I said to myself.

I got to the administration cabin for the place we were at. I inquired about the procedure for taking one of the boats for a ride.

I want to set up a little picnic for Haya on the other side of the lake so that she can look at the sunset and the beautiful forest trees. Finally, I was able to get the keys for the most amazing boat they have.

I asked if I could get someone to help me set up the picnic and one optimistic lady who works there agreed to help me.

"So, who is the special lady,?" she asked while we were on the boat to our destination.

"Her name is Haya, I met her in high school," I replied hoping she could shut the f*** up.

"Oh wow, so you both have been together for all this time?" she asked.

"Lady can you keep quiet! I'm really not in the mood for chit-chat. Making this day special for her is all that matters to me right now," I yelled.

"I'm sorry," she said then remained quiet the whole ride.

I felt bad but all I wanted was peace and quiet. We set up the picnic and kept all of the food in the basket. We drove back to the cabins, by the time we arrived there it was already 3 pm. I dropped her off, thanked her for her help and I was immediately on my way to Haya.

I opened the cabin and called out to her but I received no reply. Music was playing in her room so I gently knocked...still I received no reply. I opened the door and heard the water running in the shower.

I purposely turned off the music waiting to see her priceless reaction.

"Who the f*** turned off my music!, Jahin is that you?" She opened the bathroom door with soap on her face and her body wrapped in a towel. She looked hilarious.

"Oh it's you," she said as soon she got out.

"Yes, it's me," I approached her trying my best not to laugh.

"You are dirty, come," she dropped the blanket and got into the bathroom.

I took off all of my clothes in a hurry and followed her lead. I turned the music on and increased the volume. Sober by Bazzi burst through the speaker.

I got into the shower and warm water hit my skin. Haya tip-toed and finally our lips met. We both hysterically started kissing each other with passion. I lifted her, she tucked both of her hands around my neck and her legs around my lower back like a good girl.

"You did not deserve everything you went through, I promise to take all of the pain away," she softly said looking into my eyes.

There was no pity in her eyes, she was sincere and for the first time, I felt no shame about all that I have been through.

I gently inserted all of me inside her, she moaned and dug her nails into my skin. I went in and out of her as our lips intertwined until we could not feel them anymore. Everything disappeared, for a moment it was only her and I.

In that moment I knew we were more than two people in love, we were one.