Chapter 34: Should I Give Up?

I'm now with my friends but the bad news is I can't go back to the University because of the false accusation. They think that I'm the one behind those tragedies. I may be win in the court but in the eyes of those people's judgments saying that I'm the reason why this is happening.

I can't tell them that what they heard and seen is wrong, because I can't change the fact that what they have seen is to believe, and what they heard is probably the truth. But not all that you heard is true, sometimes they create the wrong issue for others. But what should I do if I can't defend myself by their judgment, they only believe is what they have seen than to those victims defending their wrong accusation.

Hannah, Diane, Terrence, and Sapphire accompany me in my apartment, but before I could get in my apartment my neighbors are standing outside and I think they're waiting for me but why? All of us looked at each other first before we arise from the car where Terrence is the one who drove us. And when we're outside someone threw me raw eggs, tomatoes, all trash. It means I'm not welcome here anymore. I can't move by the sudden greetings I thought I'm done to face my trial in jail. Is this another trial for me??

Terrence, Hannah, and Diane quickly went inside the car when Sapphire grabbed me by the arm so I could get inside together with her, and when we're inside they still throwing, we drove away back to where they can't throw us anything again. I couldn't believe this. This false accusation caused my life to mess! I don't know where else to go, my things still inside my apartment especially the baton that my grandfather gave to me. And now the neighbors don't like me to be there? They must be thinking if I stayed there longer the more disaster will come, and if there are disasters they may be suffered from those incidents.

"I can't believe they did this to you!" said Hannah. I felt guilty for my friends they helped me a lot then they implicating me because of me.

"I'm sorry everyone I've caused too much trouble for all of you. Maybe this is my punishment for changing fates." I said in a sad tone. Which causes them to feel pity. Then Hannah holds my hands tight as if she's giving me the courage to be strong. She looked at me in my eyes and said. "Don't think that way, Philip. They have just been fooled by the video that spread all over the world. We already win in the court and we have already proven that you are not guilty. All we have to do is to spread the news that you're innocent so the false accusation will be fade."

"How are we gonna do that? You know that the video is too powerful! That video is their evidence against me. It's too obvious that they been fooled because they thought it was true." I said that my voice cracked, I wanted to end my life.

"We may be win in the court but in the eyes of people's judgments can not be a fool, you know that what they have seen is probably the truth," I added.

They shut their mouths as soon as I told them that. Later on, we get inside the twins' house. Their house is huge, I think it has 200 square meters long, 3 floors and also they got a pool beside their house. They are rich. We stepped inside their home and the maid recently welcomes us, I feel so little the way they gossip around me. I think they knew about what was in the video, should I got out of here before anything bad happens. I was about to step outside when Hannah grabbed my arms and pulled me over to somewhere I didn't know where.

"Do you really think I will let you go outside after what happen earlier?" Hannah said.

"What should I do? All of you're maids are looking at me and I think I know the reason so before anything bad happens I should go out now" I said.

"Then after you got out, where do you think you're going? You can't go back to your apartment or else your neighbors will hunt you again" She replied.

"It's better than throwing garbage before anything bad happens here because of the false accusation," I said. But Hannah just rolled her eyes still not letting me go.

She keeps pulling me when someone went down the stairs which are twin's parents. Their mother is still beautiful as always when I saw her at their birthday party. Also, their father is handsome and looks more authoritative than always. If you look at it, it's intimidating. Their parents notice us, but what I am terrified of is their father's frown eyes looking in my direction. I think he knew about the wrong footage that leaks everywhere. I swallowed as how he looks at me like I'm some kind of bad person. This is not how he looks at me when the twins birthday party, he's talkative and friendly to me that day until the video leaks everyone thinks of me like I made immorality. Their father still glued on me when he looked down where Hannah is still holding my hands which gives me a signal that I should remove them. Hannah looked at me with confusion, but I just smiled at her and greet their parents.

"G-good morning sir, and ma'am," I said stuttering in nervousness. Their parents didn't respond but they only surpassed me which I know already they don't like me anymore. Their parents told to the twins they were heading to their company after that they gone. Maybe the twins feel what I felt.

My tears fall as I knew that I can not stay here longer. Until Terrence approached me "Don't think about it, maybe they were in a rush." He said but I know in myself that it's not. I just smiled awkwardly then they guide me to his room so I can change my outfit and lend me take a bath. In the bathroom, I can't help but think about what happened in the past weeks. There's so much happen that I don't know if I should keep up or stay strong to all this trial. I want to question God for doing this to me. Did I make a sin that is why he's giving me punishments? But what did I do to test this trial? Did I do something that makes me face this trial? I want to know when he will stop giving me punishment. First seeing tragedy, Second seeing others' fate which led them to death, Third false accusation which caused for me to be in jail, Fourth all the citizens look at me like I had Virus or something disgrace. And then Fifth I almost die in prison. Now, what's next?! I punch the wall ahead of me and look myself in the mirror. Should I kill myself now? I look at myself in the mirror, all I can see are wakeful eyes, thin and small body, weak and disgraceful person. My tears start flowing in my face I feel pity for myself. Should I give up myself?

After I'm done taking a shower, I used Terrence clothes because that's the only clothes that would fit in me. I was about to go outside of his room when I notice their parents talking to the twins and I think they're arguing about something. I don't want to eavesdrop but someone's telling me to do so. So I put my ears direct to the door which helps me to hear what they talking about. And I can't help but hurt by what their parents saying about me. I can't blame them if I were in their position too maybe I told others that but they said that they let me entered their house A Criminal! A Sinister! Bad person! I don't want to hear it anymore so I stepped back to the door and reached the window where I will exit. I decided to run and got out of their house I don't want to include Sapphire, or even Diana or the twins. I don't want them to implicate my miserable life. I will rather be alone than let them suffer together with me. When I got near the gate the guard asks me where I am going, but instead, I told him where I am going I just asked him to open the gates and don't tell the twins that I got out of their house. At first, the guard looks at me suspiciously maybe he thinks that I'm a robbery but he looked at my body if I brought something after being satisfied he opened the gate and lets me go outside. I glance one more time to their house, at my friends until I decided to run and go somewhere else that they cannot find me. My tears flow again while running I know I will never see them anymore but the memories we had I will cherish until the day I will die.