Appa, I miss you

"Ahhhh!" I shouted.

"What happened Y/n?" Taehyung asked worried.

"I hurt my toe." I said and looked down. It was bleeding.

"Sit down." He helped me sit down and he got the first aid.

I hit my toe on the door, as I was half asleep.

He treated the wound and put a bandage around it.

"Be careful when you walk. This is the second time." He said.

"How is this the second time?" I asked confused.

"That day you fell, now you hurt yourself." He was true.

"Now, let's go." He said and I got up and we went out.

"Y/n, come. Have a seat." His mother called me and I sat next to Eon Jin, opposite to Taehyung.

"Appa, this is Lee Y/n, my girlfriend. Appa, remember Lee F/n, my tutor. She's his daughter."

"Really? Nice to meet you. Your father was really wonderful. The best person I've ever met." His father said.

"That's great to know Mr. Kim."

"You can call me appa." He said. I was shocked.

'What if he gets to know I wasn't his true girlfriend? How will they react if they know I am Ara Cho's sister?'

"Y/n." Taehyung whispered.

"Huh.. sorry. I was just thinking about something." I said and started eating.

I finished eating and washed my hands. Taehyung's father also came.

I was about to leave but he called me.

"Y/n." I turned and faced him.

"Ne appa." I didn't wanna disrespect him so I called appa.

"Wanna go for a walk?" He asked.

"Sure." I said and went with him.

When we came a bit away from the house and he started speaking.

"I know you are Ara Cho's sister. To mention properly, step-sister."

"How do..." Before I could say, he said.

"She told me. She said everything about your family. I'm sorry for your father's loss."

"It's ok appa." I said looking down.

"Did your mother accept about your passion?"

"Ne appa." I said.

"So, how did you meet Taehyung?"

"In a coffee shop." I said. Something was hurting inside.

"Appa, I don't want to hide anything from you." I said and stood. He listened patiently.

"I... I and Taehyung are not together. We're just friends and all this is just a plan. He still likes Ara Cho. He still has a part of his heart for her." I said. I didn't want to hide things from his father.

"It's ok." He said smiling.

'What? Is he not mad at me?'

"I know what you're thinking. I have supported my kids and always wanted them to do what they wanted. I don't want to go against their wish. So, it's upto Tae, who he wants to be with. As long as he's happy with the person he chose." He said.

"That's a good spirit to get with your kids." i said.

"Let's go back." He said.

"You go ahead appa. I'll come after sometime." I said and he patted my back and left.

I just took sometime for myself. I walked along the field and looked up at the sky.

I felt my cheeks warm. I touched them and tears were flowing. I don't know why I was crying.

"Appa, what is wrong with me? I feel different." I whispered to myself and walked back to the house.

I wiped my tears, washed my face and entered the house.

"Y/n unnie, come. You see, these are photos of Taehyung in his childhood." Eon Jin said and pulled me.

"See. This is Jeong Gyu and me at the park. Tae oppa took this photo of us." She said.

I just forced a smile on myself. I wasn't in the mood for anything now.

"Y/n, are you ok? You look a bit off." Taehyung asked.

"Ne. Maybe I'm just tired. I'll head to the bedroom." I said and went to the room.

I sat on the bed and something was hurting. Something near my chest. My heart ached a lot. What was is yearning for? I had no idea.

"Y/n, are you ok?" Taehyung asked as he came in.

"Yeah." I said.

"Are you sure? Is something troubling you?" He asked.

"Nothing. I'm really fine." I said forcing a smile.

"Ok, as you say. I'm gonna sleep." He said and slept on the bed. I switched of the light and lay down. But I couldn't sleep.

*at 1:00 am

I still couldn't sleep. I slowly got up and went out.

I walked along the house and sat down at a place. I looked up at the night sky.

I know my father sees me from there, among the stars.

"Appa, I really wanna hug you. Jinjja bogo shipo. There's a lot of things I wanna talk to you about. I wanna hear your voice. I wanna feel your presence." I said looking up.

"I really miss you abeoji. I really miss you. Why did you have to leave me? Wae? It's really a disaster without you." I said and looked at my phone.

It was 1:30 in the morning. I opened my contacts and typed my mom's number.

I thought of calling her but I didn't wanna disturb her. As I closed the phone, my om called. I took it immediately.

"Eomma, I thought of calling you." I said in a low voice.

"Child, is everything ok? I was worried about you, so I called. Are you alright?" She asked.

"I guess eomma." I said.

"Eomma, I miss appa so much." I said as a tear dropped.

"Y/n, I know there hasn't been a day you've not thought about him. But Y/n, that's life. You have to get away from that tragic."

"How much ever I try, it's not happening. I just can't take it anymore. This is not me. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm the me I was before." I said and more tears flowed.

"Y/n, I think this is the time for you to hear this." My mom said.

"What is it?" I asked in between the cries.

"This what your dad said the day before he died." She said and played something.

"Sweetheart, I'm going to the biggest mountain peak at Busan. I know I might return or I might not. If I do return, there's nothing you need to worry about. But if I don't, this what I want to say to you all. Sweetheart, I want you to marry another person and give our kids another father figure, so they don't need to worry I'm not there." There was a pause.

"Second, let the kids do what they want. Don't compell them to do things they don't want. Now, my sweet little daughter. Y/n, I know how you'll feel when I die. But I want you to stay strong. When you're mom gets married to someone else, don't get angry with it. I asked her to marry someone else. The second thing is...." There was another pause.

"I'll always be with you, no matter where I am. I will always love you and you are my precious jewel. Don't tell Mark I said this. Be a parent to Mark. Guide him in the right path." I smiled at it.

"And now for my baby boy, Mark. Be like your sister, boy. Learn new things from her. Follow your passion. Don't fight a lot with your sister. You both should stay happy and don't make your mother worry over you guys. Both of your dreams should be big. Higher than the sky. Don't care what others say. You believe yourself, you can do it."

"I want you all to stay happy and peaceful as a family. I wish you all the very best for pursuing your passion. Don't keep thinking about me. I'll always be with you all. I love you all. Take care of yourselves. And sweetheart, you know Y/n. It'd be difficult for her to take things in. Let her go out of Busan and work. She'll have more friends and she'll gradually forget about it. Love you sweetheart. Take care. Bye." And it ended.

More tears flowed. I never really knew this.

"Did you hear it Y/n. This is what your father wanted to say to you and Mark before the day he left."

"Eomma, I'm sorry for shouting at you, for leaving you, for everything I've ever done." I said and cried.

"It's ok Y/n. I understand your point if view."

"I love you eomma."

"I love you too, Y/n." And I ended the call.

I sat there looking up and more tears flowed.

"Why didn't you tell me that in person? Appa, I miss you so much." I said and kept looking at the sky with my eyes filled with tears.

Slowly I fell asleep.

To be continued...