Walls

She has walls built higher than donalds

That form around her;

As she is;

Pure and honest.

These walls don't come down for anyone

They stay and tower

Above anyone who wishes to enter.

Sometimes, bricks will fall

and bruise the person below.

But they never go low enough

Not before she shoves the person away

And builds the wall higher.

For they, have made a threat

Of hurting her

Or ruining her.

She simply cannot allow that.

She longs for one to find of her utmost importance.

For one to find her to be the most extravagant.

The most lovable

The most adorable

And the most precious.

She wants to be admired;

So deeply that the other finds a way

Into her walls and stays there

For the rest of time.

For the rest of their life.

She despises herself

For having walls so high

And for having trust so low

She despises that she still

Sometimes allows one in

And loves them with all her might

Just for it to end

With it being thrown back into her face.

She despises herself for still believing

That she'll find the one,

That life isn't meant to be suffocating,

That it will all get better.

When it's all gotten worse

As time continues.

The clock has ran

And life has thrown her down.

But she still rises

And chases the clock,

Unaware of the fact that she's outrunning life while chasing time.

Time to do things and be with others and be happy.

She knows that life is short,

But where will she ever find the time?

She despises herself;

For the way she looks and sounds.

All those years of hushed whispers

Werent very kind.

They've dragged her down

And made her walls higher.

She knew that it was all a lie

That she's so much more

Than what the voices say

But, she finds herself stuck.

She believes it.

The words form onto her skin

And label all of her flaws.

The words wrap around her throat

And suffocate her.

She yearns to fight back

But words can't be grabbed

They sink into her skin

And become permanent.

Oh, and how she hates to be a bother.

She shuts others out

For days at a time

Unless that person is really trusted.

Even then, she doesn't give every detail.

But can you blame her?

It's not her fault that

Others forced her to hide away

And be weary of others.

Is it?