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"Joseph I never ment to hurt you, I just- i thought i was going to lose you so I tried to make the pain go away by being with someone else" Alexis holds my hands and kisses me.

I pull back about to cry. "No Alexis, you broke my heart and that's why I'm like this and the reason why I'm with someone else."

"Please I still love you, and I know you still love me" he looks at me with his blue eyes.

"No Alexis, I-im with someone else now and you have a girl so I don't think is right" I look down and my hand goes holding my other arm and I turn away from him.

"I'm not giving up, you mean the world to me and I want to be with you" his eyes start to tear up and goes back to his car his hands turning into fist.

I sigh and go back into the car my eyes filled with tears. "What's wrong baby?" Chris looks at me worried and he holds my hand.

"Nothing let's just go to the park" I wipe away the tears and forced a smile. Chris leans towards me and kisses me.

"I love you baby" he starts the car then starts to drive to the park. The whole way back my mind started overthinking things, I sigh then look at the window trying to clear my mind from all that had happened.

As we got to the park he opens the door for me and holds my hand. "You wanna go on the swings?" he smiles and tries cheering me up.

"Sure" I smile back then look down. We start to walk towards the swings, I looked up and notice a car pulling up that looked exactly the same as Alexis car the sun reflects the car window and I notice Alexis face.

"You okay?" I nod then look back at Chris.

"Yeah" I force another smile then I notice the swing. "There's only one left" I point and I look back at him.

"Well I guess you can sit on my lap" He smiles then picks me up then puts my legs around his waist. I laugh and hug him, Chris makes me feel special and happy I'm very glad to be with him.

We start to swing a but and I put my head on his shoulder. "I love you"

"I love you too, look at me" I sit up and look deep into his green eyes. He leans in and kisses me but we hear foot steps coming from behind Chris.

"Alexis?" I look at him confused.

"Why are you here you already caused Joseph enough pain." Crhis stands up and I get off him standing next to him.

Alexis reaches into his pocket then puts out a pocket knife. "I had enough of you" he approaches Chris and I stand in front of him.

"Your not hurting him" I look at him and I try calming him down. "Just put the knife away and let's just talk."

"No, enough talking." He pushes me away and tackles Chris to the ground then pins him.

"What the Hell is wrong with you" he tries breaking free but fails each time.

"Bye bye" He lifts up the knife and I grabbed his arm before he got near Chris with the knife.

"No Alexis" I struggle keeping his arm up.

"I'm sorry I have too" Alexis arm pushes me making me fall but the blade cut my cheek in a line.

"Babe are you okay?!" I touch my cheek then I saw the blood. Alexis looks at me then drops the blade.

"Bab- Joseph I-I didn't mean too" My eyes tear up then I run away.

"Babe!" Chris sits up then looks at the blade then throws it in the trash can making it in.

"Joseph!" Chris gets angry and punches Alexis in the face.

"See what you fuckin did!" Alexis looks back at him then punches back.

They both try running after me but it was too late I was gone. "Why do bad things happen to me" my eyes start to fill with tears and change to a light blue and green.

I've gone to a place where I only knew and I already know Alexis and Chris would go to Mya's house to see if I was there, but the place I went to was special to me. It was full of life and there was a tree I use to lean against and just look at the sky. I always went here because my parents would fight with each other and I would calm myself here....

"Where is he, We checked everywhere" Chris voice is worried and Alexis and Mya pace around walking worried.

"This I why I never let my little bean out with people unless I'm there with him. He either gets hurt or bullied." Mya gets irritated and gets mad at them both.

"Well I think he would be coming back a rainstorm is coming soon" Alexis loos out the window and dark clouds fill the sky.

The rain starts as a sprinkle then starts to pour, my head rest on the tree looking up with my eyes closed. The rain goes down my eyes to my cheek filled with tiny freckles. My black hair starts to cover my face and I sigh.

"I hope he dose come back" Mya continues to pace around waiting trying to call me. I stand up then my shirt starts to get wet and it presses against my body, my body shows through the black shirt and I get soaked. I walk back to Mya's house then I slowly nock.

Mya pushes Alexis out of the way and opens it. "My poor bean" she hugs me and I hug her back.

"I'm sorry for running away" she smiles and she tears up a bit.

"I don't care that you did, I was just worried and wanted you to be okay. Let's go and get you new clothes." I follow her up and Chris and Alexis look at me the scar on my cheek from the cut Alexis gave me.

"Joseph" they both say and Mya turns to them glaring.

"Leave him alone you both did enough." We go up to her room and she slams the door.

"I guess you should stay it's not safe to go driving in the storm." Chris grabs a few blankets for Chris and a small pillow.

"Thanks" he smiles then be sits down. I take a quick shower with warm water and I put on my sweat pants and warm socks, I come down stairs getting a water then they both look at me.

"What?" I close the fridge and look at them.

"Nothing we just hope your okay" Chris says first.

"Yeah" Alexis agrees then smiles at me.

"Thanks" smiles then goes back up stairs to Mya's room. Chris follows but mya closes it before he got in then locks it angry still.

He goes down stairs to the couch then lays down closing his eyes, Alexis dose the same.

"Goodnight Mya" She smiles and hugs me.

"Goodnight" She goes to her bed and falls asleep.

I stayed up thinking of Alexis and Chris. Who should I be with? I mean they both caused me pain but still they make me feel special. I look at through the window the storm has stopped, I checked the time "9:45", not bad. I grab a sweater then put it on then go for a walk. I continued to walk as I approached 2 women talking, since I haven't gotten any sleep my mind plays tricks on me.

"I think Alexis and Joe are better together because they are cute together" one of them say.

"But he done so much bad things and Chris is better with him because he treats him better" the other says. I look at them closely then I realize they go to my school, but what I was hearing is crazy it's 10 in the night and I might just be tired. I went back home and as I walk in Alexis sits with his hands on his face.

"You okay?" I ask

"Yeah, just couldn't sleep without something or someone next to me" he stands up and smiles looking at me.

"You got a pillow that's something" I smile then continued to walk.

"Joseph wait" he grabs my hand then turns me towards him. "I know I hurt you but I didn't mean too I want to be with you please, and I know you still love me."

"Alexis..." he stops me before I can finish.

"Just think about who you want to be with Joseph, goodnight" He turns away and goes back to the couch.

I start to think, do I really want to be with Alexis after what happened or should I stay with Chris. Through out the night my mind kept thinking about it, I kept turning back and forth until. I couldn't decide anymore I need to clear my mind first so I grabbed my clothes and I start to go back down quietly but fast going through the back. "Goodbye" smiles and leaves. I wanted to go back to a place where I can Express what I feel and I could do what I want to do without anyone bothering me, so I went to a place filled with life called...