Ecstasy 4

"Good morning to both of you" Jule walks in through the door which had been still cracked open, she smiles down at both of us with her hands behind her back and giggling. I panicked then pushed myself off Adonis stumbling down to the ground landing on my back, Adonis got up confused, still being half asleep looking down at me then back at Jule.

"Good Morning…" I say groaning in pain then hide my face with the blanket hanging from the bed to cover my face in embarrassment.

"Looks like you both slept well, did you guys want some privacy?" She bends over looking down at me with a smile still on her face and her hands behind her back.

"Jule, let him be" Adonis says as he gets up from the bed then walks for the door, I stay hidden till I hear his footsteps get more distant and quieter but I knew Jule was still waiting for me to come out.

"Hey, come out already" She says whispering "He left so you don't need to be embarrassed" He wasn't the reason why I was embarrassed though, catching your best friend and brother sleeping together on the same bed in that position is just so awkward; how'd it even end up like this.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what happened for things to end up like that. It was an accident I promise" I remove the blanket from my face then sit up on my back to the bed.

"Why are you apologizing? It's not like I am surprised, he totally has a thing for you" she sits next to me placing her arm around my shoulders then faces me, "thought you knew that?".

"What?! No, of course not!" I look at her confused and in shock my heart begins to race, "How could I know if he always kept his distance from me and wouldn't speak more than three words to me?"

"Well, he was at first distant because he didn't really want to make things weird with you both and well me since I've always been close to you" She moves her arm from my shoulders to wrapping it around my arm then resting her head on my shoulder, "He thought if he just denied his feelings maybe they'll go away and so that's why I was surprised to see you two talking even with me not being there." How was I supposed to take this? As something good? Or as something else I have to feel guilty and anxious about.

"How do you feel about this? Isn't it weird that your brother likes me" maybe hearing her answer would help me decide.

"Well, I did think of it as odd especially because he had dated many girls before but they all resulted with him leaving them for some reason," she lifts her head then looks up at me her smile turning to a small smirk "However, I do think he likes you a lot." 

"What makes you say that?" I responded to my curiosity, beginning to get the better of me, it isn't helping me with how I am supposed to feel but I did want to hear what her thought was.

"Well, it isn't really anything big but I do notice some things he does" she lets go of my arm then faces her body towards me her legs crossed and her hands on her lap, "I do catch him watching us go to our class but his eyes always seem fixated on you, and the bread I give you at lunch they don't sell them anymore so he would go buy some giving it to me for you" she smiles then puts her hand on my lap, "He does seem to admire you a lot." 

"But," I hesitate on my words but how could I know if what I was thinking was right? Was he only doing this because he felt pity on me or was it because he felt obligated to since I was friends with Jule "Don't you think these feelings he has would go away eventually? You said he had dated a lot of people so maybe they'll fade away eventually like it did for all those other girls." She looks at me frowning then flicks my head removing her hand from my lap.

"You're sometimes so dumb Azul, I get you never dated anyone but I think these feelings he has aren't going away anytime soon until he gets an answer from you" She gets up off the floor then helps me up, "Just think about it Azul, the hints cold have been there from the start but you just haven't noticed." Maybe she was right? I think I am too much in my own world. I could never really see the signs that could be right in front of me.

"Can we go eat first? I haven't really eaten properly since I've been sick" I place my hand over my stomach as it lets out a little growl of hunger.

"Sure, let's go out" She smiles again then drags me out of my room to the stairs, "You first" She steps behind me then points to go first.

"Okay?" I look at her with a suspicious expression then walk down the stairs up til the second final step, I hear her footsteps approach fast from behind me then feel a push on my back causing me to fall forward missing the last step. I couldn't react fast enough to catch myself but I felt arm wrap around me catching me from the fall, my eyes had been closed ready for the impact but everything felt still.

"Jule, what the hell?" I open my eyes slowly seeing Adonis pressed up close to me, he was facing Jule from the stairs then looks back down at me with a mixed expression of being furious but also worried, it was only for a moment where our eyes locked with each other and it made my heart beat so fast; my hand was pressed against his chest and I could feel his was the same "Are you okay?". I nodded then looked over at Jule as she smiles giggling, she makes a heart with her index finger and thumb at us teasing me.

"You both will thank me later, " She says as she walks down the stairs with a skip in her step and puts on her shoes by the door "Come on, Azul is hungry and you can drives to go get food" I get up and pull away from his grasp then walk to get my shoes looking down.

"He's probably too busy Jule, let's just us two go so we don't bother him anymore" I said as I put on my shoes sitting down on the floor but not a second after I said that he responded quickly.

"I'll go!" He yells, "I mean" he adjusts his tone of voice lowering it into more of a calming response "Yeah I'll take you" I look up at him, his eyes seem to look like a lost puppy all of a sudden. I look over at Jule who was just smiling at me with the look of I told you so, I roll my eyes at her getting up from the floor and giving her a hand. He came up next to me closely, putting on his sandals. I could feel his body heat behind my arm and back, his scent, it made me feel weird. 

"Come on now you two" Jule smiles getting up from the floor then walking out the door ahead of us leaving me with Adonis, since today it feels like things are different; I am starting to notice the action he takes which seem to be different from how it was before,

"Are you ready?" He looked at me leaning down so our eyes could meet again but I looked down nodding then walking away quickly, why did she point it out now it's going to be stuck in my head. I headed down the walkway close to the driveway before I felt a hand grab my wrist stopping me then pulling me back, I fell back landing right back into his grasp my hand pressed against his chest as he grabbed the other one not letting go.

"Why? What'd I do?" I tried to make him let go but he was just stronger than me . I don't understand why it has to be me. He could have chosen anyone else…he could have picked a better option. I can't do this, not with him, it wasn't the time I can't handle this much tension and emotion. It'll be too much. I can't lose myself again…I don't want to lose again please.