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When Realms Collide

Ariane finds herself in a different realm where monsters don't exist. A loner most of her life, she finds her soulmates and a new family among her new teammates, the Avengers. She learns to let go of the horrors of her past and faces the pain of her future with her family by her side. Her "I do what I want" nature helps heal rifts between the Asgardian gods and brings them together in ways they never dreamed of. But her enemies aren't done with her yet.

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Chapter 39

The silence that followed seemed so loud. I was completely drained. I slumped over in a half faint and Loki pulled me into his arms. He rocked me back and forth, his tears soaking my hair. 

"By Odin, I swear if I had known that would happen, I never would have approached you, soulmate or not. Forgive me please Ariane. Please forgive me. I would never have given you so much pain. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Forgive me. Please forgive me." His words became harder to understand as the sobs tore loose from him. I was finally beginning to feel my men in my head again. I could feel the agony and self-hatred he was caught in. Terrified that I was damaged. Terrified that I would hate him. Terrified I would cease to love him, see him as a monster, send him away.

I felt Bucky's arms come around both of us. He held us both and tried to offer Loki all the comfort he could give. 

"She could never hate you Loki or stop loving you. She would die before she did that. Now if she gets angry at you, then I would run. Her temper is scary, and she is very skilled at hurting people."

Loki gave a small laugh through his tears. "You are right Barnes. I never want to be fully on her dark side." He gripped me tighter. "But I'm scared it was too much for her." Thor walked up and knelt next to Loki, putting a hand on his shoulder. "Barnes, I've never seen anyone be in that much pain for that long, have that much power to try to contain. I'm terrified it seriously hurt her. She should not be this drained." He started to rock me again. "Please let me not have put her life in danger. I can not be the cause of her dying. Please."

I struggled through the exhaustion. "No one is dying Kokoro no Yokubo." My voice was husky and my throat hurt but I couldn't leave him in pain like that. He was so caught up in it he didn't feel me 'wake' in his head like Bucky did. I sensed he had been afraid as he didn't know what was going on. Now only worry for Loki filled him as he was able to sense I was ok. 

I felt a start of relief go through Loki at my voice. His sobs turned to relieved weak laughter as he continued to rock with me. "Oh, my love. I would never have been with you had I known. Please forgive me for putting you through all that. So much pain. I am so sorry."

"Easy Kokoro no Yokubo. I'm alright. And I would live that pain every day for the rest of my life if that's the cost to be with you. I would pay that cost gladly." I felt him kiss my hair.

"I do not deserve you, my sweet. I do not understand why you were chosen for me."

"Probably to keep that massive ego complex in check. Well, that and good sex, fantastic kisses, and more love than my heart can hold." I sat up and groaned. I hurt everywhere. I saw Nat come over to us. I gave him a soft kiss. "Or it could be because you are more than deserving of love Kokoro no Yokubo."

I felt everyone else drawing closer as we talked. 

"Ariane, are you alright?" Nat had tear stains on her face as she walked next to us.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just sore and extremely tired."

"I know it's not the best time, but it's been driving me crazy. What does that name mean? Kokoro... whatever?"

I gave a weak laugh. "Kokoro no Yokubo. It's Japanese."

Loki finished my sentence. "It means heart's desire."

"Exactly. I started calling him that pretty early on. He was supposed to look it up but after my time in the hospital, he finally got me to tell him what it meant. I think he was just too lazy to want to look it up." I giggled softly at him.

"Now why would I go through the trouble of looking it up when I could get you to tell me?" I was happy to hear some of his old arrogance coming back. 

Thor squeezed Loki's shoulder. "She is going to be fine Brother. You all are."

I swallowed. It hurt to swallow, and it hurt to talk. "Can I have a cup of hot tea? My throat hurts like a bitch."

"Of course, pet." He held me in his arms bridal style and stood. 

I marveled at the strength in those long legs. I mean I'm strong but holy fuck there is no way I could have gone from a sitting cross-legged position to a full stand holding a person. And he did it with such ease! Tired as I was, I felt a curl of desire. 

Loki looked down at me and smiled. "You still desire me even after all of that?"

"Yes. And if I wasn't so tired, I would act on it. Right now though, all I want is hot tea and to sleep with my two loves surrounding and covering me." 

I felt his arms tighten around me. "Then that is what you shall have."

I looked over Loki's shoulder to see Bucky following. I freed an arm and reached back to point at him. "Don't think you have been forgotten there, Bionic Man. I have a Japanese name for you too."

Bucky grinned. "And what would that be, Doll?"

"Kokoro no Kiseki."

"Okay. But what does it mean?"

"Heart's miracle."

I felt Loki's thumb rub my arm as he carried me to the kitchen and set me in a chair. Bucky sat next to me and held my hand with a solemn look.

"I promise to live up to that name, Ariane."

Loki answered while he made my tea. I noticed that everyone had left us alone. I was glad cause I didn't want to deal with questions right now.

"You already do, Barnes. More than you realize."

Bucky looked surprised, his blue eyes on Loki. Seemed I had a thing for men with blue eyes.

Loki turned and came to the table with my tea. He sat on my other side and watched me sip my tea. 

"This bond we share, in an odd way, makes me care for you as well. Not romantically but based on the fact that you are someone she loves, and you make her happy. The care one would have for a dear friend. I would not care to see you harmed any more than I would her."

I smiled at the perplexed and pensive look on Bucky's face and drank the last of my tea. My throat was feeling better already.

"I hate to break up this bromance moment, but can we go to bed now? Unless you want me to fall asleep here at the table?"

"Absolutely not. Here Doll, I'll carry you this time."

Bucky swept me up in his arms and together we went to Loki's room. He had the bigger bed, and he liked his luxury. I stripped and fell onto his green satin sheets. Both men undressed and laid beside me. I felt them both hold me, and Loki threw his leg over me. I snuggled down, my men covering me like a blanket. I was all warm and cozy and the last thing I felt was both of them kissing my head. 

"I love you, my everythings." I didn't hear their answers as sleep took over.