Last Thursday, I was wondering... how do I know if I'm just PMSing or depressed? It's not like I'm feeling that way, it's just that how would I know the difference? Sometimes I just like taking quizzes on the internet that tells me random things. I don't believe in the results because they aren't accurate (sometimes I do but we're not talking about that) and the "which mental disorder do I have?" quizzes tell me I'm paranoid, bi polar, depressed, anxious and literally, I've been "diagnosed" with almost every disorder that has ever existed. Sometimes, I like to take quizzes that says if I'm a certain character or if my "hypothetical" crush likes me, or just any guy in general although the answer is almost always no, it doesn't matter. I find them fun and addictive. I take the "gen Z" quiz of "all time" and then take "predict mental age" quiz (my age is usually predicted as a 40 year old) and nevertheless, whenever I take these quizzes, Selena Gomez's song, back to you, plays in my head. Sometimes, I feel so desperate, I read articles that show "signs he is interested in you" even if I don't know who "he" exactly is. I just feel very single on those days with a beautiful moon and I tend to think, will someone be thinks ng of me right now who wants to be my boyfriend so bad? Would I like them back? Would I get the Peter Kavinsky to my Lara Jean? Will my parents agree to me being in a relationship? Will I get hugs and kisses from him and my parents approve of it? And these questions hit my head in the middle of the night and I wake up, thinking, I'm enough for me. I love me and I'll love me forever and ever and I don't care if a hundred quizzes tell me a hundred things, I will love me forever. I promise myself that I'll believe in me no matter what because I'm definitely enough for me.
the month of love is finally ending and I thought of writing someone for all the singles out there!
Love yourself no matter what because you're the only person who's going to be with you forever.
Love,
Liz