Life as a student

March 9, 2023

College was difficult and unforgiving. Midnight's easily became my comfort while mornings are my number 1 enemy, although Im sleep derived I feel a sense of serenity at night. It was me and the peace it offers while half the world are asleep. During my 1st year college and in the midst of online class, I was accompanied by my best friend. Helping each other on essay, grammar and of course the ever forbidden move of paraphrasing. It was stressful but in the long run it also help me realize a lot from her perspective and ideas.

Each day were simple, attend online class in the morning and afternoon. Answer activities and assignments (a day before deadline) and helping out in our small business store. And it got boring, it filled me with dread that my life would always be like this because in general I was a boring person.

To make up my lack of communication and social interaction, I divert my time watching Anime, Kdrama, Series and movies. In addition of reading Manga/Manhwa and Manhua.

At that time I discovered the genre of rebirth, transmigration and reincarnation. It was exciting really, with the revenge thing ongoing. Satisfaction filled the emptiness in my heart but during this past years it got repetitive.

Betrayed by fiancee, sister, relatives. Died by hanging, poison or stab at the back. Female protagonist were left dying without anything, Alone and disassociated. The only thing they could ever think of was to be born again and do revenge. I was blinded by their stupidity, like how come you didn't notice the noticeable. How come you let that happen while having everything. How come you stoop down so low because your hopelessly in love? I do not hate it but why are some so similar?

While questioning their stupidity, I also think of mine. How I also wish to go back in time or transmigrated.

Then back to reality I survive my first year college as a Accountancy student. Boy I think I almost died every time we have exams on partnership and corporation. Our teacher is great because the problem was always me. Me and my laziness against Bachelor of Science in Accountancy. That's why I thank everyday I have this amazing friends who helps me a lot.

At the end of the semester I was included in the Dean Lister which I still also have doubts until this day.

Before I forgot, my obsessiveness in those transmigration genre were a factor in making me write my own story that was left on hiatus for 2 years. I had plans going back but I didnt have the same drive anymore. Its one of my small achievements that had over 100k reads. I also have many ideas but I couldn't incorporate it in words.

So jumping through time. Here I am second year Accountancy student in the second (ever Challenging) semester I was struggling REALLY HARD. I have now 8 failed exams but still alive though. Can I keep this up til my last year? I don't know, hopefully yes?

For all incoming Accountancy students, A mere goodluck is not enough for us.

And in the most random times which I'm doing now, I always remember a convo I had in the past month with this random stranger who unfriend me because sarcasm wasn't in his dictionary.

A question was suddenly triggered among the chat "What will you do if there was a time machine?"

For me it was simply as remembering lotto numbers in every year. Specifically with that 258 million (already less tax) on the line.

Using that money, I'd get rich by investing in stock exchange, shares or real estate which our Financial Market Professor encourage us.

I plan to be rich why? Because money is happiness for me.

To buy what I want and to live in luxury. Oh this sweet dream of mine.

In addition to slap my teenage self who passed up a lot of opportunities and chance because of our shyness and being an introvert.

That was how in the most random moment in my life, I woke up in my 14 year old self. Where life was still unproblematic and carefree.